Do you remember the three-year agreement?

Sometimes I wonder how happy I would be if 20 14 were always with you, shoulder to shoulder with you.

20 13 You left with my thoughts. I looked at the time eagerly that day. It's the first time I feel that the second hand will run so fast. Time, time, have a rest. Too late, I rushed out of the classroom, dragging your favorite beef tendon, banana, spicy chicken leg, duck collarbone, oh, and hawthorn, sweet and sour, the green taste in memory. The rain all the way didn't seem to have much effect and didn't leave you in the end. I followed you, and the suitcase you struggled to lift was so light and ethereal in my hand. I stepped forward and took your hand: Have you brought enough clothes? "Hmm" "Then why do I feel that this box is so light?" Looking at the familiar face, I don't know what to say to ease the cold atmosphere: I bought you food here and took it with me on the road. I made that chicken leg for you. I'm afraid the chicken leg outside will go bad, and it's still hot. Duck clavicle was bought in that shop in the square. You have to eat these two first, they go bad easily. In addition, I dare not buy too ripe bananas, for fear that you will let you eat out luxuriously again. . . Thin you smile and listen to my ramble, but your eyes are full of tears.

Toot-toot. . . Buses always come in such a hurry. "Hey, give me another smile!" Far-fetched, your indifferent smile shook the most reluctant bank in my heart. "Take good care of yourself, I will often go to see you. Call me if you miss me, and be online at any time! " I smiled and said to her. "Well, I know, how do you also aunt! Ok, ok, I'm going up. " She quickly got on the bus and sat where I couldn't see her. I can only look at the figure in her wandering memory and look forward to the next meeting, but I know that this separation may be permanent, and she knows it. She just doesn't want to cry in front of me, for fear that I will feel distressed, worried, unwilling to give up and hurt my dependence. We all understand, but we still don't understand.

Even so, I still hold that little hope to stand where you left and look at that strange window. I can't find your figure, your position, your gluttony or even your smiling face in my memory.

Time never cares about the difference of life. It still follows the dates engraved on the calendar. Slowly, slowly, I saw the front of the car pull out of the station, the car body merged into the sea of people, and the rear of the car entered my mind ... She left, really left, and finally left. She won't be who I used to be, one person recalled. The happy moment of eating mala Tang together the other day. Talking about future photos together the other day. The other day, there was a smiling face in front of me. Now, without it, I have nothing. Muna was lost, hesitant, crying and at a loss.

I silently bowed my head and walked out of this heartbreaking place. I wish this was just a rehearsal. How I wish she could look at me where I just got on the bus and wait for me with a smirk, just like a friendship performance in a movie. However, people are already empty, and the only thing left is her smell that can't be dispersed in the air for a long time.

I walked in the street we walked together, humming the songs we hummed together, watching the scenery we saw together, and I like the way you smile. I went back to the place where our good memories began, where there were people I loved, dreams I persisted in, my most precious memories and the smell of hawthorn.

The moss on the slate is still the same as before, the young trees on the roadside are a little taller, and the willows on the river bank have sprouted ... I can't stand it anymore, I can't stand it anymore, I finally cried like her, and I finally lost you. ...

In this way, I stayed in that place until the evening without saying a word, as if she were still around.

"Have you arrived?" . "Just got off the bus, the road was blocked for a long time, and the urine was dying!" . So ... "Whatever, I have to transfer quickly! Goodbye. " In this way, she arrived in Changsha. I'm still in Shaoyang.

Every minute that has just passed is a kind of torture. Sometimes when I walk on the road and see something I like to eat, I will unconsciously say, I quite like this. Give it a try! However, the reply in the air is just what I said just now. Looking back, it turns out that you are no longer with me. Well, should I get used to being alone? ! But why do I clearly remember every alley where we stood together, every intersection that separated at night after school, every bus stop that was late because of sleepiness, every place that made you happy for a long time because of a rose, and every time you smiled in my memory? I know I still have a lot of roads to go and things to do tomorrow, but at this moment I just want to quietly remember the happy time between you and me in my world, abandon all other thoughts, laugh with you on the spiritual road, see the bright future and build eternal happiness with you.

Finally, I can't hold on any longer. I don't want to listen to you tell your sadness on the phone every time, and I don't want you to solve such troubles because of seemingly simple things of others. I should be your support by your side, so I tightened my money for three months and set foot on the uneasy green leather car leading to my heart. Getting together is always short-lived, not to mention those of us who are still students and whose families are not rich. When I look at your yellow face, your thin figure, you lying in my arms crying because of weakness, and your lonely, helpless and tired eyes, the five-flavor bottle in my heart knocks over, and I begin to hate my weakness and cowardice. After a short reunion, I planted a seed in my heart, a seed that wanted to protect you.

At the same time, it also makes me understand that love is not as simple as I love you, it also has "life".

In this way, we look forward to meeting again and again, and then leaving again and again. I am very helpless ...

You said you were afraid of being alone, you said you wanted me to be by your side all the time, and you said you liked the romantic eyes I gave you, all of which I knew, but I didn't have time to care about you, take care of you and love you. Why is time always so heartbreaking and confusing? Yesterday's happiness became today's fantasy, and I still remember the way you fought for me that day. I still remember the day when you smiled like a child in my arms, and I still remember the day when you sobbed and grieved beside me. However, today's appearance can only be played back one by one in the memory disk, over and over again, as if you were still by my side.

That day, like directing TV, I made a heart with a red rope on the ground. In the middle, I proudly wrote iloveyou, poured gasoline on a small fire, and then blindfolded you to bring you to my passionate love. While you were in a daze, I put my left hand in front of you. "Guess what's inside?" Of course, there is nothing in it, but you still try your best to move my hand. The expression of loss and happiness makes me laugh and cry. Then I put the rose hidden in my right hand out in front of you. That's how you look happy. I saw your heartfelt smile and inner excitement that day, which is exactly what I remember about your smile.

Na Yue, to study hard, you work in a restaurant every day. I don't want to see you so tired, but there is nothing I can do. On that day, the rain in the sky turned the day that just entered autumn into deep winter. I came to your place of work as usual. Different from before, I have an extra coat and a cup of milk tea in my hand. I handed you my coat and milk tea when you were shivering with cold air outside after work. At that time, you disliked "how come you have such an ugly coat!" ? "But you still wear it, but why is there a smile on your face, and that's exactly what I remember you as happy.

That season, your birthday. You asked me, "Do you know what day tomorrow is?" Of course I will say "which day!" At such a beautiful moment. At that moment, your expression instantly pulled down and left in a hurry. Of course I won't chase! The next day, when you were waiting for me to call you from day to afternoon, I just didn't call you, making your life angry! In the evening, I called you and said, "My leg is crooked. Please come to me. I can't move because of the pain. " . I still remember that you hung up the phone without saying anything, and you were at a loss because of the cake on the table and the burning fireworks on the ground. This is exactly my impression of you when I was a child.

That year was our most unforgettable one and our last. I was in class that day and you suddenly called me. On the other end of the phone, I heard your heartbreaking cry, which I have never heard in recent years. Yours is so heartbreaking that you said, "My father died in the hospital." At that moment, my heart instantly realized what you could understand. I immediately ran out of the classroom and came to your side. However, you were happy that year, as if you were instantly aged by years. Your red eyes looked at me silently. I don't know what to do. If it weren't for my ability, Weibo, if it weren't for my sense of powerlessness, if I could help you, maybe it would be my heart when you said "My family collapsed"? However, I don't, I don't have the confidence and strength. I really want to take the place of all the care your father gave you. All I can do is help you with my insignificant strength. My confidence collapsed, and my world collapsed. What's the point if I can only give you love, but I can't give you more means of living? We all seem to have moved from lush years to barren years, as if we all understood one thing at the same time, and I wanted to save it, but the cruelty of reality forced me to consider what I could do to save it. I was silent, her heart was broken, and that's exactly who I remember you.

After that, I became silent. Old friends all say, "Look, I'm pretending to be depressed again". I am still silent, I wonder if this ending is what I want?

Now the sun shines on the same face as it did three years ago, only with a little more vicissitudes. Youth and ignorance at that time brought me too many changes. Now I always fantasize about holding hands with her at every successful moment, but life will never get what I want. Between my expectation and yearning, there is always a piccolo of the years, which freezes the memory of those years. Whenever I take out her photo, there is always her smiling face in the photo, but why do I feel familiar and strange, near and far? Alas, everything seems so normal in the years after such a long separation. Too many disappointments make me recall and cherish the past. Perhaps it is the pain that is hard to give up, which makes me awake as before and constantly reminds myself.

No matter how beautiful your youth is, it is difficult to truly write down your smiling face. Gently twist rouge, those love stories secretly covered up in the days when I crossed the pen tip. At that time, we first met at the best age, but we never had a chance to say goodbye. If there are still 20 14 years, I will be by your side, leaving yours, mine, happiness and appearance in my memory.

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If there are really two chances to meet in life, I hope that when you look back, you will see my success, so that those spring flowers and autumn moons you have been waiting for will be accompanied by me and you will have no regrets in your life.

The emotional girl's space diary is about memories that have been refrigerated for a long time, and it began to flood on this rainy night.

I don't know when our distance became so distant and strange, and I don't know what changed our relationship and made us lose our purest feelings. Every time, we keep thinking about the happy times before, but we can't help thinking about the past and hold our breath. Now we have no common happiness.

With your departure, the whole world has returned to darkness again. In the dark world, it was so cold and terrible, and finally I felt that loneliness and helplessness again.

How many times I wish I could come back during that time, how many times I wish I could wake up from my dream and go back to the past again, but I let myself fall into despair again and again. I used to be very happy. As long as I have you around, as long as I have you, everything will be fine.

But now I am left alone, stuck in the past, nostalgic for the past, recalling the past, not because I like it, but because I can't accept the facts in front of me.

I can't face the long gap between you, and I can't accept the despair and pain of losing you. My yearning for you has really come to an end, and my feelings for you have become unique. I have given you all the feelings left in my heart. Now I have no warmth, I can't feel my heart beating, and I am almost indifferent to everything in the world.

I never knew what happiness was and what happiness was before. Whenever people ask this question, they reply, "As long as you are happy, you will be happy without worry, care and freedom. This is happiness."

Haha, now I know how ridiculous this is, and I know what happiness is. Happiness is contentment. Happiness is that you love being with you and you care. This is happiness.

Now I know that happiness is as simple as that. When I understand, I know that I used to be happy and I hate myself very much. I didn't know when happiness was around, and I didn't cherish it. What I was looking for in the crowd was around me until I lost it. In order not to insist, I lost something I didn't want to give up.

Perhaps the saddest thing in life is when you do something wrong and lose everything. Maybe this is the only way for you to grow up and mature. You regret in your heart, really regret it. Many people say that you should not regret what happened. Hehe, it is impossible not to regret, because life has never regretted it. Those who say they don't regret it are actually lies. However, they have found a reason to deceive themselves, so they can speak confidently, but what reason should they use to deceive themselves when they can't find an excuse? If you want to grow up quickly, you must lose what you love and care about most. If so, if time can go back, if I can make the final choice, then I would rather never grow up and never lose you. But there is no if in this world, no if in life, and the past will not come back. Two people who were originally together became strangers because they turned around. Why are we always too smart but too old? This feels unfair.

But no matter how unwilling I am, I can only endure it silently, because I don't want you to be heartbroken because of my injury. Anyway, protecting you is my greatest responsibility. Because I love you, I can't hurt you I didn't understand what happiness is before, but now I understand that happiness is to make the people I love happy and satisfy the people I love. Since I can't give you the happiness you want, I will let you find your own happiness, as long as you can be happy.

I don't know if you are okay in the distance. How is life now? Will you inadvertently think of me, think of me who loves you, always think of you when you see your photos, think of the scene at that time, happy, sad, angry, or crying or laughing,

My mind is always out of control, and it makes me sad to think of your sadness. I don't know if you will be like this now, and if you will be wronged.

I remember you used to like singing, and you sang very well.

I really hope you can sing a song for me so that I can remember your face. Unfortunately, this is just a beautiful dream, an intoxicating dream, and your clear and still smiling face is blooming with beautiful light.