Acid in a dream of red mansions.

After running, I prepared breakfast for myself: an orange with a strong sour taste and a piece of bread wrapped in pineapple sauce.

Don't even think about it You must eat sour first, then sweet. If you eat backwards, the acid may be unbearable!

The experience of life is like this, which makes you sour and willing and sweet and fearless.

Because the first sentence to remember in A Dream of Red Mansions is: A bitter tear, who can understand the taste?

The accident caused by "Jiang Xun said the red chamber".

I paid money to listen to this book in Himalayan FM. During that time, my father was in hospital, and when he was depressed, he listened to Jiang Xun's voice to run. To tell the truth, the content of A Dream of Red Mansions and Jiang Xun's voice are not suitable for running, but I am too wonderful to run and listen. Later, Wei Peng recommended this set of books to me. I said I had heard the book, but he insisted on reading it. Later, I made my own book purchase plan in the circle of friends, and this set of books ranked first. Sure enough, Wei Peng first left a message: "The map 1 has been purchased, please keep it." Afterwards, I was slightly disappointed, just as Yang Haining laughed at me: "You are a person who cheated on eating, drinking and buying tea." Fortunately, I am still alone, an old man who likes a dream of red mansions for more than 20 years.

Well, I have to write a story about my own reading of A Dream of Red Mansions to repay the people who sent me A Dream of Red Mansions and related books: Xiaoyu/Xiaoke/Shihai/Yuan Zhen/Wei Peng. There are also students who lent me this book: Yang, Li Wanrong, Lu, Li Wanrong. All right, cut the crap and get down to business. This is the first article: the first time I saw the Red Chamber.

The first time I saw a dream of red mansions should be the summer vacation when I graduated from primary school.

The location is Yang's home opposite my home. His home and mine are separated by a river with a small iron bridge. The small iron bridge was formerly a small wooden bridge. The bridge deck was damaged and there were holes everywhere. It's so big that a person may fall. My grandmother once fell, but luckily she didn't hurt her bones.

That year, Yang was bitten by a big German shepherd. I go to see him every night and play with him. As a result, one day he recovered, and when I went, he was already out in the wild. Just as I was about to go home, I suddenly found a set of Four Great Classical Novels on the table. Pick up a book at random, which happens to be A Dream of Red Mansions. This may be fate! This book should be the most boring for a person who just graduated from primary school, but the result is just the opposite. I only remember reading that it was completely dark that day, and Yang had come home from the wild and started eating dinner. At the moment I closed the book, I also specially looked at the price of this book-19.8 yuan. God, if only his mother were my mother, if only his home were mine. I know I can't afford this book, so I have this idea.

Later, I went to Yang's house for several days. Neither he, his brother nor his parents know the purpose of my visit. Once, I got drunk and turned over a book. As a result, his brother came and took the book from me. He said rudely, "This book was bought by his mother, and no one else will read it." Watching his brother walk into the back of the bedroom, my little world collapsed, and my face flushed, as if I had done something disgraceful and particularly shameful, but I didn't dare to defend myself or run away. Since then, I have never seen this book I want to read in his house. Every time I pass by his door, I can't help thinking: this book is very expensive and very good. His mother is afraid that his brothers will break it, but what can I do? Although I knew I would cherish this book, life didn't give me a chance. I was disappointed all summer because I couldn't finish reading a book because I fell in love with it at first sight.

Remarks: Long time, good memories. If you are disrespectful to people and things, please be generous.

(2)

Grain Rain, Housing Fair opens. This year, the number of buyers exploded, house prices rose, some people were crying, and developers were laughing.

I can't cry, I can't laugh, and I'm not in the mood to face a mountain of work.

So the morning passed. At lunch time, let's talk about the story of me and the red chamber! When you have a rest, it is also a time to pause.

Three years of junior high school, intermittent, "Dream of Red Mansions" read again and again, three things impressed me deeply.

First of all. In the winter of Grade Two, after the heavy snow, Chinese teacher tian teacher arranged for us to write an article about snow. I remember I accidentally watched "Glazed Glass World, Snowflakes, Red Plum Powder" for forty-nine times, and saw this passage-"The next morning, Baoyu didn't sleep well because of his bad heart, and got up at dawn. When I opened the curtain, I saw that although the doors and windows were still closed, the windows were just dazzling. I hesitated in my heart and complained that it must be sunny and the sun came out. When you are busy, open the window drawer and look out through the glass window. It wasn't sunshine, but it snowed all night. It will be a foot thick and the sky will still be like a ball. " Looking at the sky outside the classroom, isn't goose feather-like snow just rubbing cotton wool? So I wrote wonderfully, thinking of the snow in the book from the real snow. I imagine all kinds of scenes in which Liu Xueting improvised poetry in the Grand View Garden. After the same snow, it seems as if she passed by me. Later, when the composition book was issued, tian teacher could not help but remind me: "The red chamber is good, but you should not be too indulgent!" Because I was very partial at that time, there would be no future in this way, but I was young and frivolous, didn't understand the teacher's good intentions, and wasted the teacher's reminder. But now I think about it, I don't regret it. Everyone has to go through it, and there is no escape.

Second. If a kind reminder in tian teacher's composition book is the original intention of a tutor, it is a terrible thing for me that the head teacher in charge of senior three has painted a lot of colors on my file. On the third day, Mr. Tian went to teach in the main city of Yichang, and we changed Mr. Xiao to teach Chinese. Teacher Xiao did well in the senior high school entrance examination in the last graduating class, so she took over and continued to take the third graduating class. At that time, I thought he was good to me, but I took care of several students' weekly homework, which made him furious. I wrote in the weekly diary of several students: General Manager Wu/Meng Dong, please come and see me. It was really a bluff to write a weekly diary to my classmates in those days. Young and frivolous! But there is no lack of love for writing! But all this is worthless for the senior high school entrance examination, so the dog blood approved by Mr. Xiao at that time was useless and broke his heart. This is an episode. What really bothers me is that many years later, I came across my file by chance and was frightened by a comment from Mr. Xiao: "Students love the red chamber, but they are sentimental and often behave like daughters." This sentence, like a brand branded on me for many years, is imperceptible. Suddenly, I understand how misunderstood and unfair this is! Although I think what the teacher said is understandable, is it really appropriate to write it in a file related to a person's life? Fortunately, I didn't have a chance to enter the official career, nor did I enter a large state-owned enterprise. Otherwise, such an evaluation in the file will definitely make people sit up and take notice of me! This is also the sequela of loving the Red Chamber! To scold me in Wei Peng's words is a crystal heart and a glass liver. I didn't particularly like this before, but I can finally accept myself in recent years.

Third. In the third grade, Fang Meng said that her father had a brand-new red house, so I tried my best to please him and finally got a promise to borrow one book at a time. Meng told me that she stole the book from her father's study. Be sure to read it carefully without any creases. I was attracted by the word study at that time, and I thought, why do people have a study and my family only has a pigsty? I don't care how hard it is to make the requirement of "no crease". It was winter, holding a brand-new book, afraid to hide in the quilt and read it. Afraid of leaving creases, I had to put on my clothes, lean straight against the cold wall and turn over the books carefully. My back, arms and hands are frozen like they are not my own every day, but I still can't let go. On a cold night, I read the time when Lin Daiyu died. "A wisp of fragrant soul dispersed with the wind, and my sadness went to sleep at night." Somehow, my cold face suddenly turned hot and a line of tears came to my eyes. This line of tears, dripping on the book, I dare not wipe it off with my hand, so I have to let him be lit and defiled, but my heart gives birth to a kind of anxiety. How can I repay the tears in this book? This should be my first time to cry for the red chamber! So when I was 15 years old, I had a precocious and sensitive heart. I was anxious about the embarrassment of my family environment, the failure of my studies, the inability to enjoy borrowed books, the confusion of my growth, and the confusion of my first love. At that time, my parents were concerned about life, and my partner was concerned about myself. Only the red chamber allows me to forget all this. In those days when I read the Red Chamber at night, many worries took shape quietly, hanging in front of the biting cold window every night, blooming secretly, and then dying at sunrise. In this way, I fell into the barrier of reality, and the fog of youth became heavier and heavier, only knowing to go with the flow.

Now that I think about it, these are just a few dreams of my youth. Now, I still love my passion, I still worry about my troubles, and I am still happy. It's just that I accept myself more, appreciate myself more and like myself more than when I was fifteen.

(3)

I like the Red Chamber for a long time, so I want to write something about it.

In the third grade, I used my exercise book as manuscript paper to write a sequel to the Red Chamber, meaning that newborn calves are not afraid of tigers. At that time, I wrote chapter by chapter and drafted it twice. For the first time, it seemed that "Lin Xiaoxiang's soul returned to his hometown and saved people under the Spring Bridge". After more than 20 years, the pieces of paper with the contents of the reply have been reduced to ashes, and the structural contents of that year are also unclear. Looking back at the content of the reply, I just hope that Lin Daiyu will come back to life, and Jia Tanchun saved Sister Lin or something. I can't remember the second time, and the content is vaguely related to the old farmer Daoxiang and the four maids Xichun. I really can't remember the details, so I won't make them up. This is probably the so-called business when Baoyu was the owner of the crimson flower cave! Bring up the past and laugh it off.

Later, I wrote an essay entitled "Analysis of One or Two Characters in the Red Chamber". This article is superficial. At that time, I presented the interpersonal relationship of the red chamber in the hearts of ignorant teenagers from four angles: the establishment school, the Grand View Garden school, the relatives school and the subordinates school. Fortunately, this composition has been handed down to this day and occasionally turned out, as if it had gone back to twenty years ago. Excerpts from today are as follows. Don't laugh at officials.

Talking about one or two characters in the red chamber

A dream of red mansions has a grand opening, a huge project and a magnificent momentum. So the characters in the book are dizzying and even a little confused. Many early readers were unwilling to give up what they wanted because of this obstacle and failed to keep reading.

In fact, it is not difficult to clear the main line of characters. The characters appearing in the Red Chamber are mainly divided into the following four levels:

1. Compilation: headed by Jia Mu, followed by Jia Zhen, You Shi, Ning Fu Jia Rong, Jia She, Mrs. Xing, Jia Zheng, Mrs. Wang, Jia Lian, Wang Xifeng and other major figures constitute a huge compilation, which is mainly described as the feudal ruling class in the book.

Second, the Grand View Garden School: Jia Baoyu is the protagonist of the activities during the period and the only male. Lin Daiyu of Xiaoxiang Pavilion, Xue Baochai of Wu Heng Academy, Jia Yingchun of Zilingzhou, Jia Tanchun of Qiushuangzhai, Jia Xichun of Ou Xiangxie, Shi Xiangyun of Daoxiang Village and Li Wan of Daoxiang Village, together with Jia Yuanchun, the real owner of this garden, Qin Keqing of Ningfu who died in Tianxianglou, Wang Xifeng of Fu Rongjia, and Miaoyu who practiced in Cuiguan, constitute one of the main lines of this book-Twelve Women of Jinling. Get familiar with the confidants of the young ladies' sons, and the Grand View Garden will appear in front of you in an orderly way.

Third, the school of relatives: In the fourth chapter of the book Hub, I mentioned the "official protection symbol" given by the door to Jia Yucun, so I named the contact person of this school. Focusing on Jia's second house, the four families of Jia Xue were married and related to each other. Mrs. Shi is the spokesperson of "Abang Palace, 300 Li, can't live in the history of Jinling". She has Shi Ding and Shi Xiangyun's uncles. Mrs. Wang, Mrs. Shi Laojun's second daughter-in-law, is a good girl, her son is Jia Baoyu, her eldest daughter-in-law, and Xue Baochai is her second daughter-in-law and daughter. Aunt Xue, Xue Pan and Xue Baochai were members of the Xue family and later married Baoyu. For Xue Baochai, Mrs. Wang is both a mother-in-law and a menstrual period. In addition, Mrs. Wang and Aunt Xue's niece Wang Xifeng are the wives of Jia Lian, the son of Jia She, which is equivalent to her brother-in-law's niece marrying her uncle's son. For Jia Baoyu, Wang Xifeng is both a cousin and a cousin. In addition, Lin Daiyu is the only daughter of Shi Taijun's daughter Jia Min and son-in-law Lin Ruhai, Jia Baoyu is the son of her second uncle, and Wang Xifeng is the daughter-in-law of her uncle. Coupled with other relatives, such as Mrs. Xing Yanfu's niece, Li Wan's cousin Li Qi CoCo Lee, Xue Baochai's cousin Xue Ke and cousin Xue Baoqin, it can be said that A Dream of Red Mansions is a wonderful book describing family feuds.

Subordinate faction: Starting from Lai Sheng, the great housekeeper of Ningfu, and Lai Da, the great housekeeper of Fu Rong, their mother, Sister Lai, was a slave who served the older generation of Grandmother Jia, so she was respectable in front of young masters such as Li Wan and Wang Xifeng. The Lai brothers and their wives and children form the second master below the first master. They have a series of housekeepers, such as Lin Zhixiao, Wu Dengzhu and Zhou Rui. In addition, ladies and gentlemen's wet nurses, wives and grandmothers' wet nurses, and prominent maids all have wonderful descriptions in the book. A Dream of Red Mansions is a response to that sentence, presenting a true social portrayal for us.

How can a vast and magnificent work be discovered in a few words? Such superficial talk is just to attract jade, and the mystery of Qian Qian is in it, waiting for you to interpret it one by one.

In the last ten years, I have only one creative impulse to the Red Chamber. I vaguely remember that around 2005, blogs were popular, so I wrote a series of essays in my blog called "The Girl in the Red Chamber". The first article was written by Jia Yingchun, with thousands of words, but I just couldn't stick to it. I stopped blogging much later. The year before last, I remembered to write an article about the Spring Festival, which I especially wanted to include in my computer. So I searched the article on my blog, but I couldn't find it. Maybe I gave up halfway and deleted it with one click. It is even more difficult to rewrite it now, because the original idea no longer exists and the written words can't be reproduced, so I feel very sorry.

The saddest thing is that ten years ago, it was not 1997, but 2007. As time goes by, I feel uneasy. Fortunately, there is a red building. I hope I can write more this time and not waste my sighs and sighs for more than 20 years.

(4)

Jiang Xun said A Dream of Red Mansions is a book that can be read for a lifetime.

As Bao Dai said at first sight, this person in front of her and this sentence in her ear seem to have been seen somewhere. Where did you hear that? Let's call it acquaintance. Jiang Xun said it to my heart.

Jiang Xun added that we are not just reading A Dream of Red Mansions, we are reading our own lives.

"I don't know the true face of Lushan Mountain, but toward which corner of the mountain." Jiang Xun's words woke me up. Why have I been studying in the Red Chamber all these years? The reason is actually very simple. Reading the red chamber is reading yourself.

Many people have misunderstandings about me, and always feel that I am trapped, mistakenly thinking that I am Mr. Bao, and I can't help myself for my sister. In fact, from the beginning, I always felt that what was surging in my heart was the sound of being with the author-my cognitive level at that time and the recognition and understanding generated by various characters and details written by the author. With the improvement of cognition, this singing method is also strengthened, and every time you read it, you will get new gains. Therefore, I am sincerely impressed and convinced by Jiang Xun's statement that "the most attractive part of a dream of red mansions lies in the details of life, not in the plot".

After reading A Dream of Red Mansions for a long time, you will find yourself in a Dream of Red Mansions-Jiang Xun.

In the face of loneliness, I am Daiyu, agile and capable, I am Tanchun, timid, I am Yingchun, I am stubborn and determined, I cherish spring, I care about success, I am Baochai, I am straightforward and naive, and I am Xiangyun. Listening to the rain by the window is like being in the Xiaoxiang Pavilion on an autumn night. Looking at the moon in the breeze is like a concave crystal hall in the Mid-Autumn Festival; Watching the snow around the stove is like Lu in winter; Reading among flowers is like being at the gate of Qin Fang in spring. Different characters and different scenes reflect our feelings at different stages of life.

What kind of wealth has A Dream of Red Mansions brought me these years?

First of all, I think it is self-confidence. After all, I am a particularly insecure person, and I hold a negative attitude towards myself most of the time. I have also observed many students from rural areas, and most of them are branded with this sense of insecurity. I remember once, the Chinese teacher asked who the twelve women in Jinling were. More than 50 students, only I dare to raise my hand to answer-although I was particularly hesitant and even nervous at that time, I was afraid that my head would suddenly short circuit and my heart would suddenly be blank, but I still felt that I should raise my hand. After all, this question is as simple as answering my last name and how old I am! The teacher asked me to write it on the blackboard. In addition to Qin Keqing's clear words, I was uneasy for a while, and the other eleven names were almost at your fingertips. Although my teachers and classmates didn't evaluate my performance at that time, from that moment on, I suddenly felt how wonderful self-confidence was, which allowed you to show it to your heart's content, even if it was not perfect or flawed. Later, I gradually got used to this way of showing myself. I dare to speak on the stage, even dance, share what I wrote with my friends and express my thoughts. .................................................................................................................................

Secondly, I think it is acceptance. I used to think it was a pity that I didn't finish writing a dream of red mansions, but now I feel very good. Many things don't know what they will look like when they are done, so they will be very exciting because the result is unknown. If you know the result in advance and go straight to the point with this result, the middle process could have been enjoyed, but it turned into suffering. It's like watching a very good TV series, and the person who finished watching it in advance suddenly tells you who is the good guy and who is the bad guy. Who's with Who .................................................................................................................................. Dream of Red Mansions taught me to accept trifles, bits and pieces, process, results, ideals, reality, others and myself.

Finally, I think it is appreciation. Personally, I think it is very worthwhile for the author to write a book for ten years and then to be popular for hundreds of years. Looking at a dream of red mansions over the years, I learned a word-I am happy with everything. In Cao Gong's works, you can't see the so-called likes and dislikes, even the most humble characters are greatly tolerated in the book. I have read an article before, and the author said that the person Cao Xueqin hates most should be Aunt Zhao, because the prototype of Aunt Zhao may be his father's concubine, and now she is a mistress, so Aunt Zhao is one of the few characters in the book who always stands on the opposite side. I used to agree with the author, but now I beg to differ. The author created Aunt Zhao because of his pity for such people, not his disgust. The author only described the existence of such characters, without any contempt or criticism. There are many similar characters, such as Xue Pan and Jia Rui, who have fallen or fallen. When you see them, you will think about who lost hundreds of thousands of gambling, and you will also see what you have done. Many people who study A Dream of Red Mansions like to associate the author's narrative with the rise and fall of history, life and family, and give birth to some stories out of thin air. I don't quite understand why. The only thing I believe is that Zuo Gong didn't think so much when he wrote it.

What are your expectations for studying in the Red Chamber in the future? To borrow Jiang Xun's words, learn to be tolerant and compassionate. Each of us is like those characters in A Dream of Red Mansions, shouldering our own destiny and heading for our own destiny. One day we will have a real resonance and stop saying who we like and who we don't like. Read the Red Chamber like Jiang Xun, read the Red Chamber like Buddhist scriptures, and be compassionate and enlightened everywhere.

I am grateful to Wei Peng, who is far away from Shanghai, for sending me this set of "Jiang Xun Reading the Red Chamber", which made my dream trip to the Red Chamber enter a better place. The same is true of books, and even more so of people. Look at yourself and study all your life.