I dare not cry, for fear of scaring the children, nor dare I say it, for fear that my husband will feel more guilty. For more than half a year, my white hair has been growing from the back of my head to my forehead. I lose a lot of weight every time I wash my hair.
This photo was taken a year and a half ago. My husband was in stable condition. A year ago, creatinine suddenly rose rapidly, his face turned black and his lips were black and purple.
I have been seeing a doctor for 10 years, and no one cares, and his parents are even more afraid to look for it.
A few years ago, I did WeChat business, earning small money at a time, buying a suite, buying a new car and raising children. I feel that life is quite good.
My child is two and a half years old and can't talk. Doctors in major hospitals say there is nothing wrong with him. Because we don't communicate with him much. I'm busy all day. Basically, I just let him play by himself, give him a mobile phone or watch TV and play with toys ... for my son, I gave up my career and took care of my children wholeheartedly.
After the children go to kindergarten, they speak better and better. I think it's worth it, too
When I wanted to return to my old job, I found that the bonus of WeChat business had passed, so I invested in the canteen window of the school.
The catering was only done for three months, and then it was transferred, losing 40 thousand. I didn't do it because my children's school time overlapped with my window meal time. I didn't have time to pick up my children from school, so I asked his grandfather to pick them up for me for two hours in the afternoon.
Children are not familiar with grandpa (because they don't associate with them at ordinary times, and children have never seen them), crying in various emotions, and falling asleep and dreaming at night. During this period, two grandchildren of his grandfather's friend's family beat my son once. He was a little scared and always cried at night.
Children are always sick, have a cold, have a fever and pneumonia, and are hospitalized once a month. I couldn't bear it anymore, so I adjusted the window.
The child is better this year, and the husband's body has changed again. I have no money and am heavily in debt, so I can't go out to work to earn money. I'm anxious. I've thought about dying many times, and when I die, I feel relieved, but I don't think so. What about my children?
Just hold on and don't show the pain on your face. It's really painful.
I am sorry for my parents. I want them to worry about me when I get married far away. I am sorry for my children because I want to die. I feel sorry for my husband, because sometimes I really regret marrying him. ...
Is this world really a good person rewarded? It feels so hard to live.
First degree anxiety
Many reasons
Go to the hospital every month for anxiety.
Anti-anxiety and depression drugs.
Go to the hospital because of headache and swelling
I looked at all the departments.
Finally I saw the psychology department.
Took medicine for three years.
It started in October this year.
Automatic exit
Because I found a way to overcome it.
Is to do everything according to your own wishes.
Do things with heart
Instead of using your brain.
The brain can cheat, but the heart can't.
Sometimes the mind thinks it should be done.
However, I feel uncomfortable.
At the same time, don't fill your heart with useless things
The past is no longer disguised.
Don't think about the future
Focus on today, time and now.
Never before, never after.
The world is peaceful.
I am a mother with postpartum depression. Baby, one hundred days later, my husband's non-blood brother came back and played outside every day, only five days a month at home. From the first quarrel to the hysterical quarrel behind, I gradually became a stranger without feelings. I spend every night in anxiety and crying, and small reasons will be amplified. I can't help myself. I like to throw things to ease my mood. Later I realized that I really had a problem.
2/kloc-entered the society at the age of 0/,met her husband at the age of 22, got married at the age of 24, and gave birth to a baby at the age of 26. I walked along the seemingly flat trajectory of life, but found myself trapped in endless anxiety. In the eyes of others, my life is beautiful and contented, but the trivial things in life, the maintenance of the relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, and the constant changes in my work all make me feel anxious day after day. I'm a little bored. Don't want to go home after work, don't want to go to work at work. . . I didn't know myself at first. [tears]
I will answer: I am anxious. I'm anxious. I'm tired after a day's work. I really can't sleep at night. I felt insecure since I was a child. Married, I just want to find an honest and reliable person to live a stable life. It's not about love, so my husband's family condition is not good.
My anxious question is 1. The house has been built at home, and now it needs to be decorated. At the same time, I bought a car and got a car loan of 3,000 yuan per month. 2. Husband's income is only enough to pay off the car loan. My income is unstable. I didn't make any money this year. I basically bear all the expenses at home. Because it is not easy to find a job with children, I can only do temporary work and push work, so sometimes I feel anxious when I think about it.
There was a time when I was particularly anxious, that is, when the investment failed, I lost one million at a time. Although 1 million is only a suite in second-and third-tier cities, I may not even be able to buy it, but it still makes me sad. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I am almost depressed. Later, I enlightened myself that money can always be earned again, and then it gradually got better. Try to make money now!
I have been in a state of anxiety in recent months.
Anxiety about changing jobs, anxiety about improving academic qualifications, and anxiety about boyfriends.
Contradictory personality makes me more and more entangled, so I am more and more anxious.
1993, 26 years old, seems to have a lot to do, a lot to get, but not enough time, too few things to do …
There are many things to consider, so I feel less and less secure now. I think about saving money and making money every day. At present, I'm really crazy about money.
If I had an anxiety level from low to high 1 to 10, I should be at level 8 now.
I saw a hot topic recently. More than 80% of working women have experienced anxiety and depression. Some surveys show that about 85% of working women have experienced symptoms of anxiety or depression in the past year. In addition, the trend of psychological problems of women in the workplace is more obvious. The younger generation of women are particularly concerned about their appearance and figure, while most women in the workplace are depressed during pregnancy, and postpartum depression is the most common. Sometimes, people will unconsciously be in a state of extreme depression and depression. You don't know what's wrong, but you think this damn life is too bad. I feel like crying, but I can't shed a tear.
In fact, most adults are used to showing their happy side in front of others, hiding their sad emotions, and then finding an empty corner to digest quietly.
How did modern people collapse?
I am very anxious now.
I am originally a person with low material desires and am optimistic. However, when people reach middle age, the pressure of life is too great, and there are many things to take care of and they can't be calm. All I think about all day is how to improve myself, how to make more money, and worry that my children will fall behind other people's children. How can I not be anxious in this environment and mentality?
Now I am too anxious to settle down and do a troublesome and time-consuming thing. At home, I always urge my children to hurry up. In the company, I am always afraid that I have missed the opportunity. I want to leave for a while, and I want to stay. I'm worried about being swayed by considerations of gain and loss. I often can't help sighing, but not many people can talk.
I thought I had passed the confused period of my youth, and I would not be so anxious and depressed if I had a deep understanding of myself. But in the middle age with many thieves and multiple pressures, I once again fell into a deep pit of anxiety.
My career is at a bottleneck, and people don't have much foresight. I can't have a clear plan to look forward and backward.
My family is in a period of great economic pressure. The monthly mortgage and various expenses basically consume more than half of my income, and there are a lot of foreign debts. If my income can't be greatly improved, my family will be easily crushed by an accident.
I don't know how to live or die, and I gave birth to a second child. The two babies have a lot of affairs, and every day at home, chickens fly and dogs jump. Dabao has reached the important third grade stage again. She has many problems: passive study, out of control, jealous of her brother ~ ~ ~
It's really "a bitter tear"! My anxiety is growing amid all this fuss and uncertainty, and I can't get rid of it.
I often feel that I am the mother in the cartoon below, pushing the cart behind me, taking care of this and that, being whipped and rotated by life like a top every day, but forgetting myself.
I seem to have lost myself.
I know my mentality is wrong, but it is difficult to correct it in a short time.
I can only face the problems given by life with a positive attitude. I hope that one day after this, I can look back and smile: what can I do with these problems? That's all!
Anxiety, I like to buy books when I am anxious, but I don't want to read them after I buy them (it's not that there is no time, there will always be crowded times, but I am the kind of person who refuses to read them from the heart), and then I am more anxious when I look at those books, and I continue to buy books and fall into a vicious circle.
In this way, books will occupy one-third of the place when they move.
Typical anxiety in the era of knowledge payment