Since high school, there have been all kinds of boys around me. Even in the days when I rushed for the college entrance examination, I was still chatting with different ambiguous objects.
After I went to college, my love rat nature was completely released, because I came to a strange city alone and no longer had to worry about being scolded by my family at night.
I haven't come to class since my freshman semester, and many teachers can only see me during exams.
And all my time is spent playing games and board games. These two hobbies can make me know more about the opposite sex, and at the same time make me the object of their pursuit.
After all, which boy doesn't like a girl who can play games with him every day?
In this way, I spent four years in college, although I didn't fail in the exam, but in these four years, except for countless predecessors and ambiguous objects, my gains were almost zero.
I was going to stay in this city all the time. I prefer modern life to that small place at home.
What's more, in this big city, many of my ambiguous objects can help me solve most of my survival problems, so that I haven't worked seriously for two years after graduation.
Unfortunately, in June, 2020, my days of leading a drunken life were over.
During that time, my mother was very ill. As I am the only child in my family, I can't refuse to go home to work when I hear her crying.
Before going home, I slept at home during the day, and at night I either went to the Internet cafe or flirted with boys in the board game shop.
After returning to China, this small place completely restricted my nightlife, and basically I had nowhere to go except the Internet cafe.
However, when I saw those shiny keyboards and stained mouse pads in the Internet cafe, I also gave up this kind of entertainment.
After chasing all the dramas I wanted to watch at home, I had the idea of "going to work" after being bored.
It's just that this place is too small. There are only a few decent companies, and the employees in them are basically related households. It's a little difficult for me to blend in.
Just when I was worried about my work, an advertisement in my circle of friends attracted me.
Of course, this advertisement has nothing to do with work.
This is an advertisement for a script to kill a shop. In this slightly backward place, I was really surprised that there was a script to kill the shop.
In the following days, I became a frequent visitor to this script killing shop.
Soaking in this shop, I soon got to know a lot of the opposite sex, and C is one of them.
C is three years younger than me. When I met him, he was in love with his girlfriend. Of course, this does not prevent us from getting to know each other soon.
A few days after we met, C would always sit next to me when playing werewolf killing. When others are talking, he will talk to me about something, and occasionally make fun of the way a boy looks at me.
One night, I was chatting with C. He suddenly said to me, "I have a friend who is very handsome, but he is a bit difficult." Are you interested? "
As a scum man, when I heard the word "difficulty", my desire to win or lose burned in my body.
So I readily agreed, and even made a bet with C, saying that as a friend, I would definitely beat him.
The next night, C took his friend Z to the script-killing shop we often went to. I pretended to meet and sat down to play cards together.
There were few people in the shop that night. At about nine o'clock, the boss is ready to close the door and leave. In order to get familiar with Z again, C suggested going to KTV for a while.
To tell you the truth, looking back on that night, I still feel full of frustration, because Z sat next to me and didn't say a word to me.
Everyone is robbing the wheat, only he looks down at the mobile phone with a serious face.
Playing until about twelve o'clock, we were all sleepy. C and Z went home separately, and so did my friends and I.
On the way, C asked me if I wanted Z's contact information. I thought about it and refused. I said, "He doesn't seem interested in me, and I don't take the initiative to ask for WeChat."
C immediately saw through my thoughts. After a while, he said to me, "I asked Z, and he said he wanted your WeChat, so I pushed you to him?"
After adding WeChat to each other, Z said a few words to me every day, neither too hot nor too cold, which made me wonder what he was thinking.
It was not until he asked me to go to the movies that I was sure that he really felt lost in me.
Once there is a first date, there will be a second time and a third time. ...
About the fourth date, in Z's car, we kissed.
Before that, Z didn't confess or say anything ambiguous, but I didn't resist his kiss and even enjoyed it a little.
After that date, Z didn't declare sovereignty like others, and didn't even mention the word "communication" to me.
At this point, it's almost a month since I bet with C.
C told me categorically, "If a man is interested in you, he will definitely do it within a month. After that, you two can only be friends. "
So, I used a little trick to force Z to confess to me and naturally became his girlfriend.
After Z took me to see his primary school, C was stunned. He can't believe that I can win z in such a short time.
Every time C regrets this, my vanity will swell to the extreme. At that time, I thought Z was dead set on me, and even wanted to restrain his playfulness and seriously talk about his last love.
A few days later, Z calmly broke up with me, and I became the one who collapsed. He said, I cried.
Z said that he knew who I was from the beginning. Even if I pretended to be serious in front of him, he could still see from the details that I was not his ideal girlfriend.
Z said that since the first meeting, he has been grading me, and from beginning to end, I have never scored.
At this point, he broke his fingers and began to count my movements.
As a girl, fooling around with a group of boys in KTV until the early hours of the morning, and my family didn't even call, which shows that this kind of thing happens very frequently.
Every time I play a script, I go at night, and it is common to go home in the early morning.
Once I dragged him to play werewolf killing with me. He found that I was the only girl among the twelve people present, and my relationship with those boys was still very harmonious. He doesn't think serious girls will have my social skills ...
Originally, he just wanted to experience the feeling of falling in love with love rat, because C told him that I was a very interesting girl. As a result, no one expected that I began to get serious, and repeated quarrels made him completely lose patience with me.
I had a quarrel with him the day before we broke up.
That morning, he didn't say good morning to me, and I sent him a message, which never came back. It was not until afternoon that he asked me what I was doing.
So I called, cried and scolded, and severely criticized him.
Maybe I should have known that he didn't like me that much, or that he didn't like me at all.
Every time we quarrel, he doesn't coax me. He always said to me, "calm down first and wait for us to meet."
After meeting, I will forget why I was angry before, so it becomes an ordinary date.
It was not until he broke up with me that I realized that he had been able to control my emotions for such a long time, but I never let him have any mood swings, except that he couldn't help kissing me in the car.
Z is a particularly rational person. After we broke up, he never spoke to me again. No matter how pathetic I am, no matter how weak I am, he will never respond to me.
In the days without Z, I shut myself in my room and forced myself to remember what he said when we broke up, so that I could remember his cold eyes when he looked at me.
When I made up my mind to write this article, I still didn't get out of this lovelorn love, but I was already trying to get my life on the right track.
I know very well in my heart that Z will never make up with me, but I still want to be a better person and get rid of Z's evaluation of me.
Before I met Z, I was always proud that I was love rat, which was very cool. It was he who made me understand that the life of leading a drunken life is not enviable, but the life of nine to five is worth yearning for.
At first, I didn't like Z. I didn't know how to play games and I was not interested. His only entertainment is fishing by the sea.
Now, I quit League of Legends and werewolf killing, and concentrate on finding a job while preparing for the title exam.
Before, he always hoped that I could cook him a loving meal, but I never cooked since I was a child and always forgot his request.
Now, I have also learned recipes, and occasionally I can toss in the kitchen for half a day.
For me, this relationship is both a bad result and a kind of redemption.
Without Z, I might still be a love rat and even be proud of it.
Fortunately, I met Z. He broke me down and made me re-examine everything about myself and let me know what I really want.
Note: The pictures in this article are provided by the author.
Today's tip:
If you want to have a sincere love, you must ensure that you are a sincere person. If the beginning of a relationship is full of deception, the final result will not be happy.
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