maple
Jay is coming to give a concert in my city. When I heard the news, I was watching the sunset under the wicker by the campus lake. It's the feeling of autumn. The maple trees across the lake seem to chase the sunset and form a piece with the red clouds on the horizon. It was Ye Zi who called to tell me. For a time, the news flew around the city like an arrow shot without warning. Round and round, just like our hurried year.
Against the wind, like a solution, it is easy to destroy. Walking along the lake in the school, the face is very cool and cool wind. Rather critical. It is really Wuhan in late autumn. Time is the most tormenting thing, neither soft nor hard, but it is uncomfortable.
I have known Zhang Luyan for almost five years. From that beautiful and warm town to the wider world of each other now, from autumn to autumn, it will be five years together. I never dare to sigh at the time, because it embarrasses me so quickly that we still can't catch up with it, even if we sit on the powerful Noah's Ark.
This is 20 14 years, and I am twenty years old. We are both twenty years old.
This year, Jay finally announced that he was getting married. In the same year, Lu Yan and I said goodbye.
Goodbye-never again.
The slowly falling maple leaves are like missing, and I light candles to warm the autumn at the end of the year.
Aurora plunders the horizon, and the north wind misses your face.
I burned my love into leaves, but I couldn't change my familiar face.
Give me time for a song
In November, 2008, Jay Chou's new album "Majie Block" once again set off a violent wind and heat wave in this small town. My name is Ye Zi, and I have been staying in this southern town since the moment I was born. Although it is in the south, it is still extremely cold in late autumn.
Pedestrians in the street began to curl up and walk with their heads down, and some fashionable women wrapped a silk scarf one after another, leaving the long black shawl hair and elegant silk scarf messy in the wind. In such a harmonious picture, I even feel that my appearance has ruined the whole picture. I saw all the people cast a gloomy look at me, with disdain, disdain and more incomprehension.
What's there to see? This girl is not an alien. Is it worth attracting public attention as soon as she appears? These days, it's really a natural beauty and easy to cause trouble. I looked at myself carefully again, from top to bottom, meticulous, but still didn't find anything.
"Classmate, your sweater is worn backwards. The internal trademark is still outside. " There was a burst of laughter in the crowd, and some of the jokes were low, and they were still holding their stomachs and blushing. I look around, I really don't understand what is going on in today's China society. Has the social atmosphere evolved to such a point?
No matter what, I don't want to change my name, and I don't want to change my name. I do things aboveboard, so I'm not afraid of a little inexplicable laughter from the public. I can't stand it.
"Hey, classmates, classmates in front."
"Same-learning!"
Finally, a huge roar split my chaotic brain. Finally, I began to link the subject of this sentence with myself.
Hurry back and confirm again, "is it-me-?"
"Yes, it's you." The other side of the brain also don't lift, a huge cold air attacked my whole body.
After a quick look at the man who told the truth, I fought my way out against the crowd in an unstoppable manner. Of course, not only because I feel embarrassed, but also because I have very important things to do.
Three minutes later, I stopped my steps. "Li Laoban, what do I want? Give it to me quickly? "
"Girl, it's really unfortunate that the last Zhang Gang was booked. You know, my business is small, and I dare not buy too much at once. That's the boy just now, just that, just left. "
Follow the boss's finger, I know, it's him. That mass of winter heating. Damn it!
My mood is like snow flying in the deep winter, and it disappears without a trace when the wind blows. Because of disappointment, but also because of the disappointment after expectation. JAY, who has been waiting for four months, just passed me by one step away.
No one understands my love for JAY. Just like no one knows that the spring breeze is ten miles behind you.
Secret/secret that can't be told
I feel like standing at the top of the world, watching people come and go, and thanking bloom for flowers, and then a grand loneliness fills my whole body. Oh, I forgot to mention that I have known Lu Yan for three years.
At that time, I stole his contact information from boss Li, then contacted him, and finally got the last album into my hands through various shameless means. Fate has always been a mysterious thing. No one knows when it will be born, let alone when it will end. It is the unknown that makes people so fascinated.
It was already 12 o'clock when I reached the "hand in hand", and the poor wedge-heeled shoes really made me suffer all the way.
Oh, damn it. Who made you so smug? If you don't die, you won't die.
"Hand in hand" is a very small coffee shop, and its most unique feature is that everyone who goes in must go in hand in pairs, and they can't be separated from each other all the time. Therefore, most of the people who come here are lovers.
And we should be just above friendship and under love.
The so-called ambiguity. And I, an ungrateful southern girl, don't like it.
Lu Yan wore a black coat with a white shirt inside, and a black Nike canvas bag hung lazily on his big head of 1.84 meters.
We left out the greeting, the greeting, and "tacitly" the tandem.
I put my hand in my pocket. In fact, it's not that cold in October. It's just my intention. Lu Yan, will you hold my hand?
"Yuyu, why are you here? You have to hold hands to get in. We like this, not so good ... "
"Lu Yan, let's go in hand, ok? I have something to tell you. "
Not allowing him to nod, I reached out and took his forearm. However, I am 1.58 meters and he is not the so-called "height difference" between 1.84 meters.
Does it mean that only when I stand on tiptoe can I hug you and the distance between us?
Lu Yan didn't break free, and didn't look down at me. He just pushed open the door and walked into the warm and silent coffee house as usual. I am meekly like a puppy following my master, and I don't talk contentedly.
A cappuccino took us all afternoon. Our Kan Kan talk, our sudden silence, we can't help but smile at each other, all melted in this unknown three hours. Everything, only I know, Lu Yan let go of my hand. So casual, but so hurtful.
Out of the coffee shop, suddenly found that the world began to rain. After a long time, I heard JAY's song "You are everywhere", and the lyrics said "In the rain with tears, you are everywhere."
"Cold coffee left the coasters, and I held back my emotions. The most beautiful thing is not the rainy day, but the eaves that escape the rain with you. "
"Yu Yu, I participated in our school's New Year's Day performance, but the guitarist of our band broke his right hand last week, and I can't find a suitable person at the moment. I heard that you play the guitar well. I wonder if you would like to help me?"
"What about my reward?"
"You will know when the time comes."
Let go, don't let go. In a moment, in an instant. Maybe I'm still obsessed with your answer.
go all the way north
Lu Yan, who likes JAY, really chose journey to the south. The official performance was wonderful, and when the first note of the music resounded in the auditorium, I also dialed the first chord at the right time. Standing on the stage, I looked at Lu Yan in the light, watching him wearing shiny fine clothes like a prince who accidentally fell into this world, as if time would stop in that one-second trajectory forever, and I was the only one in my memory, Lu Yan, and journey to the south who was with us.
The music stopped at Lu Yan's handsome ending pose, and then Lu Yan turned to look at us, ready to make a curtain call together. Maybe he didn't expect it. At that time, I would go to the stage, take the roses that my best friend ordered for me the day before, put on the princess crown, and then proudly appear on the stage again.
Indeed, I didn't even think that I would be so bold.
In someone else's university, under the gaze of nearly 6000 people, against the backdrop of gorgeous LED lights, I 18 years old confessed to Lu Yan, who I have known for several years.
The red rose instantly aroused the climax of the audience, and in a flash, applause and cheers from the crowd came to me like a tide.
Roses are so beautiful in the light that I can't open my eyes. I can't see Lu Yan's expression. I only know that if there is such a thing as telepathy, I'm sure Lu Yan is unhappy.
When the other members of the band saw me trembling with roses, they instantly understood what was going on and stepped aside with great cooperation, leaving me like a clown who attracted the attention of thousands of people to Lu Yan.
"Hello, Lu Yan!" Suddenly I heard my own voice coming from the stereo not far from the stage. I played the guitar for others countless times on the stage, but it was the first time I heard my own voice on the stage.
Finally, I saw Lu Yan's expression. He didn't look up, but the consternation and bewilderment on his face were instantly captured by me.
Lu Yan, if there is such a thing as mind reading, I think I must be the best technician. Can you believe it?
"We have known each other for three years, and what I did today should also drain my courage for half my life. But anyway, I just want to be with you. Yu Yu really likes you, likes you very much. Really. "
Tears suddenly fell inappropriately, in the winter when I first met you, when you told me that the sweater was worn backwards, in the spring when I secretly left your phone number and then asked you out countless times, in the 16-year-old you rode my bike with, in Jay Chou's white headphones that I listened to countless times together, in the two tickets for Jay Chou's concert that I cried and begged adults to buy, in your black sweater, in my white windmill and in your romantic mobile phone. The maltose that fell on me.
You said that Jay Chou's lyrics were ridiculously beautiful.
So you said that we should all practice his lyrics.
But you forget, I'm not a goldfish, and my memory lasts more than 7 seconds.
"YuYu, I'm sorry. Sorry, everyone, "Lu Yan, who insisted on apologizing to the public, just disappeared into my eyes."
At that moment, I knew that the spotlights all over the world were dimmed.
Later later, Lu Yan said to me.
The bigger the world is, the bigger the heart will be.
Time is even longer.
doomsday
It's been a year since we disappeared in each other's world. This is 20 12 years.
1February 2 1 day, the legendary end of the world, I finally dialed Lu Yan's phone in a faint voice.
"Hello, I'm Lu Yan. Who are you looking for? "
"Hey, it's me. Long time no see. "
"Are you all right?" It's still that slightly tired voice.
"I'm fine, and you?"
"I'm sorry."
"Lu Yan, do you believe the end of the world?"
"I don't believe it. ’
But Lu Yan, you don't know, I'd rather believe in the end of the world, because then there might be the so-called "parallel time and space" in Those Years.
Ke Jingteng said, do you believe in parallel time and space? Maybe in that parallel time and space, we are together.
Shen Jiayi said, I envy them! Thank you for liking me.
Ke Jingteng said, I also like me who liked you.
"Lu Yan, if the world really ends on this day, would you like to hold my hand at the last minute?"
"Yu Yu, don't be silly, there is no such thing as the end of the world."
I seem to hear JAY singing in tears, the sky is gray, will it make you forget who I am?
Lu Yan, the road ahead is long. Will you forget who I am?
step back
In 20 14, the release of the film "In a hurry that year" caused a sensation and also regretted the winter of a generation. Of course, I'm one of those people who don't know how many. Indeed, there are many people who have lost it. Perhaps the most regrettable thing in life is not not not not loving, but leaving for no reason.
Indeed, I am unwilling. I'm really unwilling.
Lu Yan's invitation to watch the movie in a hurry really surprised me.
Yes, everything should have an ending.
In the process of waiting, Lu Yan and I specially went to the audio shop we often went to. JAY released his first solo album 13, and we met because of JAY.
If it really ends, Lu Yan, we should say goodbye here.
Boss Li has moved away, and a young man has taken over. The business in the store is very bleak, and it will take a long time for a person to wander around.
Those people must be people with stories. I think.
Lu Yan and I walked side by side like this, and no one had the impulse to break this seemingly harmonious silence first.
"Lu Yan, can you tell me why we can't be together? I want an answer. "
Lu Yan's sudden stop still shocked my heart. After all, no matter how strong I am, I am still a girl.
"YuYu, I also want to say. You know, people who are too familiar with each other are not suitable for being lovers. If we have to take risks, the final result will definitely be sad. If I have to choose, I would rather not have started. "
"Lu Yan, I want to tell you that if I have a choice, I will start bravely. Because I am most afraid of regrets, I am afraid that regrets will be more than I am afraid that there will be no happy ending with you. "
I still cried during the movie. Because put it down. I finally don't love you, never. I will always remember what it's like to like you. I will also remember the deep pain when I cried for you yesterday afternoon. Really, it was a deep pain. I hope all my love for you in love will disappear forever with this tear.
In the 60th minute of the movie, I left under an excuse. Yeah, gone forever.
I know we're all right, but we just forgot how to step back.
Promises were made, but time lost them.
Travelers from all over the world.
? JAY released another album. I cut my long hair short, too.
I stayed for two years, and I was very, very sad.
I finally chose to say goodbye to my past, and I want to start my life well. May we smile and greet each other as we did when we first met.
Goodbye, Qilixiang. Goodbye, my Lu Yan.
The string is broken, the edge is gone, and you are gone.
Love and hate rise and fall, the story goes through, leaving only me.