Love is gone, but the memories of the past are always lingering, locking each other firmly in the dark room and seeing the sunshine. With the passage of time, my heart is like a pendulum, shaking periodically for a long time. I don't even know if I am afraid or miss my persistence.
I saw the movie I can't forget more than ten years ago. At that time, I just thought Cecilia Cheung was so beautiful. In the evening, I read pornographic novels in the school dormitory, all of which are from Cecilia Cheung. It is still fresh in my mind, as if it happened yesterday.
Looking back at this movie now, I feel that everything has changed, only the helplessness of life, the pain of losing my lover, the entanglement of nostalgia and the release of new love. Everything disappears in time.
1, he is gone, and she wants to live like him.
On a stormy night, a little girl named Xiaohui (Cecilia Cheung) waited for her boyfriend Arvin (Louis Koo) with an umbrella at the bus stop in the rain. Waiting for your lover in the rain is a romantic and happy thing, and waiting in the torrential rain indicates that good things will eventually end. Xiaohui doesn't know this is separation yet. The minibus in Arvin had a serious accident on the way back. Before he could contact anyone, he lost consciousness and died before the hospital arrived.
Before the accident, Gao Jiawen and Xiaohui were getting married. They live in a new house and make plans for a beautiful and sweet life after marriage. But in an instant, all the good things no longer exist, and happiness has become the bubble of dreams. She can't cry anymore. It's only a blink of an eye to go from heaven to hell.
She numbly handles daily chores every day. Mao Mao does housework rashly and sends Arvin's son to school. I forgot to withdraw money from the ATM; I went to the laundry to get clothes, but I went to the wrong store, which made me embarrassed ... life went on, but Xiaohui changed.
When mother heard the news, she saw her thin daughter and her poor situation, and she was very sad. Persuade her daughter out of her sadness. But no matter how my mother advised me, it didn't help. Xiaohui said: "Great sadness is held in my heart. I can only say that at that time, everything can be released and let go. "
After taking care of Arvin, Xiaohui will decide to raise Li Bei and Lele, the son of his ex-wife. This decision was strongly opposed by my sister and father. For this reason, I quarreled with my parents and sisters, and gradually alienated from my relatives. Dad has always opposed Xiaohui's falling in love with Gao Jiawen. He doesn't want them to get married. After all, dad has experienced it, and he knows that stepmother is difficult. Now that Arvin has passed away, she must take the initiative to raise children that have nothing to do with herself, and her future life can be imagined. My life experience and financial ability are big problems, and it is still difficult to take care of myself, let alone another child.
The stubborn Xiaohui decided to take care of Lele. Despite the opposition of her family, she persisted without hesitation. She had Gao Jiawen's minibus repaired, sat in the driver's seat and drove. In others' eyes, he tried to feel the life in Arvin by driving a minibus, and remembered and remembered their happy life by raising children in Arvin and taking over the job in Arvin. She didn't think so much about Xiaohui. He's just taking the initiative.
Driving a minibus is not easy, especially for people who have never driven a bus. If you drive slowly, passengers will complain. If you drive too fast, you will be caught by the traffic police and issue a ticket; If you are not careful, you will sometimes receive fake money. Sometimes they are harassed by drunken people; Customers who rob others will get hit by cars in retaliation. ......................................................................................................................................................................
Even so, Xiaohui is very stubborn and refuses to bow to fate. Whether arguing with others or begging for help, she never wanted to give up. Even if it was difficult, she tried to move forward. Whenever Lele picks up the phone and pretends to call her father, her heart is fragile and her eyes are wet with tears. The muddled days left her no time for nostalgia. Lacrimosa really felt the pain when time ran out and by midnight, the city was no longer noisy and insomnia.
When she feels lonely, she will pick up the phone, dial the phone that will never be answered, tell Gao Jiawen her dissatisfaction and grievances, coquetry him and ask for his help. Dependence on men has become a habit. When she lost it, her inner helplessness was magnified many times. She thought she could be him, but in the end, she found that she couldn't live without him.
It's no use crying, but you should live strong.
The minibus driver Da Hui (Liu Qingyun) is a colleague of Gao Jiawen. He was a witness to the car accident in Arvin, and also witnessed Xiaohui's helplessness and pain after Arvin's death. After that, he helped Xiaohui again and again. He always sympathizes with Xiaohui and cares about orphans and widows without paying back. He didn't realize that Xiaohui was actually reluctant, and his concern had other purposes, because the authorities were fascinated, and when he felt it, he had fallen into it.
Once, Xiaohui asked Dahui, "Did Gao Jiawen leave any last words before he died?" Dahui thought for a moment and said, "Gao Jiawen wants her to be strong, not sad, and live a good life." Hearing Arvin's last sentence, she was full of courage. With the motivation to persist, she made up her mind to make money and take good care of Lele.
Persistence is simple, but it is very difficult to do it. It really takes a strong will. In order to earn more money, Xiaohui has to drive two buses sooner or later, which bears a greater workload than men. Every day, she drags her thin body to work. Her delicate little hand made many blisters, drove, and fell asleep at the traffic lights again. Sometimes she leans against one place and falls asleep. Her life with Lele is also a mess.
Xiaohui was overwhelmed by the heavy life. This is Arvin's last words-no, it should be Dahui's lies, which made his thin body burst into great energy and inspired her potential. Even stealing guests without permission, she dared to challenge her eldest brother in society, and her tough tone revealed bitterness.
The rules of the game in society have been determined. No matter how painful and sad you are, no matter how hard your life is, you can't break the rules and rob others of their territory. Even if you have the strength, one thousand people will be hurt and eight hundred people will be hurt, not to mention a weak woman. No matter how Da Hui intercedes and how Xiao Hui pretends to be strong, if you break the bottom line, you must bear the consequences for your mistakes. The director's handling here is not ideal. Maybe he can't bear to push things to a more difficult predicament.
A lie is a lie after all, and even a white lie can only cover it up for a while. When the lie was exposed, the strong Xiaohui suddenly collapsed to the ground and the whole person completely collapsed. In a rage, she slapped Dahui, slapped Dahui and slapped herself, pretending that she was strong and gave in to life. She cried, was cheated, was destroyed by life, and was left out by her relatives, so she fell into the trough of life and could not face life again.
The bud of love comes from the heart.
Xiaohui's father said that she looks strong, but in fact she is very fragile and dependent on others. The existence of Dahui gave her a dependence. Dahui taught her how to drive a minibus well, helped her get familiar with the route, told her how to attract passengers, and helped her take care of Lele. Like an angel who pays nothing in return, Dahui even takes care of some trivial tasks, such as cooking, repairing TV and running water.
Even so, thrift is not a long-term solution. Adults can pay attention, children can't. Can Lele send relatives home? Xiaohui began to seriously think about it. Lele's grandparents are old and sick, and their economic conditions are not good, so they can't take care of their children at all. Lele's mother has married someone else, and there is nothing she can do except give some living expenses; Send it to an orphanage. This may be the only destination that Xiaohui left for Lele.
Lele, 5 years old, is lively and lovely. At first, he didn't know what death was and what "death" meant. He just thought that dad would come back to her when he left home. As time went on, he also felt something was wrong and his life changed. Sudden delicious food, pieces of new clothes, many toys, endless ice cream ... When he was taken to the door of the orphanage, he began to cry and felt something was wrong. He cried and said, "don't leave me, I can't find my home." I will be fine in the future. Don't leave me ... "
Lele was dragged forward by Xiaohui, shouting the name of Dahui along the way. Da Hui, who is standing across the street, can't stand it. He flew to Lele, picked it up and said, "I'll raise it!" " "I raised him" sounds more touching than Stephen Chow's "I raised you" in king of comedy. With the help of Lele, the relationship between Dahui and Xiaohui gradually improved. Flying kites and barbecues in the suburbs seem to be an intimate and happy family of three. Dahui also invited Xiaohui to move to his home.
When Xiaohui was most helpless, difficult and painful, Dahui appeared in time, which made Xiaohui see light, hope and love. Dahui took on everything personally, regardless of the efforts in return. When we thought everything would get better, Dahui opened her heart. It turns out that Dahui is also a poor person who needs to find the opposite sex to rely on. He can't let go of the past and forget his old love.
He used to be a degenerate boy, eating, drinking, whoring and gambling. He lost everything, and finally his wife left home with her son in despair. In guilt and regret, he repented, gave up all bad habits, worked hard to make money, learned to cook and do housework, and hoped that after repentance, his wife could lead his son back, but contrary to expectations, his mistakes could not be made up after all, because there was no regret medicine in the world and a happy life no longer existed. All the furnishings in the room are still preserved, and his wife and children are still around him in his mind. He listened to the recordings of his wife and children over and over again, unwilling to move, change his job or change his phone. I'm afraid I won't find him when I come back, but he will never come back, and he knows it. I also know that persistence is useless. At first glance, he is an infatuated man. Actually, it's nothing, but I dare not face the reality.
4, let go of the past, to out of the dark.
If the lie is not exposed, it is also good for two people who are connected by the same life to live together. It is also a beautiful thing for two lonely people to hug and keep warm, but neither of them wants to live in confusion. Although they can't forget the past, they all want to seize the happiness in front of them.
On the surface, Xiaohui and Lele rely on Dahui. In fact, Dahui needs the sustenance of his mother and son. It was his mother and son who gave him a chance to make up for his mistakes. Dahui knows he can't miss it. Only the existence of Xiaohui and Lele can prove the significance of Dahui's existence and prove that he is a good man who can rely on others to bring happiness and happiness to his family and turn over a new leaf.
Both sides confessed. Dahui asked Xiaohui, "Do you appreciate me or like me?" Xiaohui just replied euphemistically: "You are a good man", which seems to be an understatement, but it is actually very important. Xiaohui affirmed Dahui, his "turn over a new leaf" and "the prodigal son returns". I also have a love for Dahui, but Xiaohui hasn't thought it over yet, and she hasn't thought clearly whether the growing intimacy between them stems from sympathy or love for each other.
Xiaohui was sitting in Arvin's car, and he died. He thought and thought, and he had hallucinations. He watched Arvin's back get farther and farther away from himself until he disappeared into the night. Xiaohui fell into thinking, thinking about the lost meaning, thinking about the meaning of living and thinking about the future. To live in this world, in fact, is to live in loss, losing the reputation and interests that one loves, friends, relatives and one pursues. Many people are passers-by in people's lives. No matter people or things, they can only accompany you for a period of time and spend a period of life with you, whether it is a life or a mission. This may be an experience. Even if we can reach the speed of light, enter the parallel universe, enter the past and the future, it will still be a thing of the past, and we will continue to advance on the established track.
Lost, some people still can't let go, put it in their hearts, in their minds, and in their memories. Put down your choice and start over. Xiaohui is wise to choose the latter. She decided not to be persistent, not to be persistent, to let go of the past and let herself go.
She sold the minibus in Gao Jiawen, packed Gao Jiawen's things, moved back home with Lele, and reconciled with her family. Dahui also bought a minibus, deleted the recordings of his ex-wife and son, released the fish in the aquarium and wanted to start his life again.
Dahui called Xiaohui at the place where the car was sold and told her that she wanted to sell the car. Where is Xiaohui? Xiaohui said she was in the garage, too, and the car had been sold. The two people who packed up their feelings met in the garage. Da Hui asked, "Do you like me a little?" Xiaohui replied, "Yes, a little". Dahui said, "A little will do."
Finally, Xiaohui smiled, how brilliant she smiled, just like the sunshine after the rain, colorful and dazzling! This is the end of the film ~