the happiness of pedestrians

in February 2121, I went to Shenyang to watch the exhibition "Eight Masters of Tang and Song Dynasties" in Liaobo. In the exhibition, there is an area where eight poems are hung for everyone to take pictures. Most of them are common and familiar sentences in our textbooks. For example, "the grass color is close at a distance, but there is nothing", for example, "there are several plums in the corner".

I was glad to see "I am a pedestrian, too".

"Life is like a reverse journey, and I am also a pedestrian."

This is Su Dongpo's farewell sentence to his good friend in "Lin Jiang Xian Send Qian Mu Fu". He and his friend Qian Mujing haven't seen each other for three years. The two of them got together in Hangzhou in a hurry, and Qian Mu had to continue to set off for Hebei, rushing around and moving around.

Qian Mu's ship will set sail overnight. Farewell, weiyun in the day, the moonlight is faint. Su Shi was disconsolate.

But on second thought, he said, "Life is like a reverse journey, and I am also a pedestrian."

Life is like a hotel, it is not the destination, and no one can stay for long. Not only are you running around, man, but I'm also a traveler here.

Su Shi is not the first person to express such feelings. Cao Pi said, "Life is like sending".

It's not the first time that Su Shi has expressed such feelings. At the age of twenty-six, he wrote: "What is life like everywhere? It should be Feihong stepping through the snow."

it's rare that he didn't live casually because the hotel couldn't stay. His life was turbulent, and he devoted himself to writing lyrics, writing articles, calligraphy, being a small official, cooking food, etc., and made himself a top expert. He is a veritable master of China's culture. He impressed everyone with his talent and personality charm, and eventually became an eternal romantic.

He said this sentence, which shows the acceptance of impermanence and the active choice of life: people's life will always end, and we can't stop at a certain point where we want to stay. But I won't give up because of this, just perfunctory, and feel powerless. Since it is a hotel, since I always have to move forward, I will go by myself. I am the one who walks between heaven and earth. I choose between impermanence and eternity, where I want to go and how I want to go.

this attitude is especially worth cherishing and emulating in 2121. When the epidemic broke out at the beginning of the year, almost everyone's life was disrupted, and some people and families suffered heavy blows and even stayed in this year forever. Recalling some specific people and things, sensitive people almost cry. In the first half of the year, many things or planned projects that we are used to were forced to be in a semi-stagnant state, and they gradually improved and recovered in the second half of the year.

At this moment, the epidemic situation in Beijing is still being reported every day, and other areas are either fighting or preparing. Fortunately, everyone has a more calm response than at the beginning of the year.

May each of us walk on our own path with full strength.

Fear of new experiences

Last year, I mentioned "pixel upgrade" at the year-end summary, and this year is still in progress. Sometimes I can clearly feel that I have seen more details than before. The ability to read pictures is also stronger this year.

another interesting thing happened this year. When I was in Sanya, I tried surfboards, that is, in calm waters, someone was driving a small motorboat with a surfboard tied behind it. Before getting on the board, I told my little brother who was sailing that I was a little scared. Brother said: What are you afraid of? Do whatever I tell you. Don't be afraid. I asked: What if I fall into the sea? I will save you if you fall into the sea. Brother, answer quickly.

so I put my mind at ease on the board, crouched down and stood on the board clutching the rope. Little brother opened a circle, saw that the situation was stable, and motioned for me to stand up and welcome the sea.

I stood up, and my surfboard fluctuated slightly with the start of the main ship. It was sky blue and blue, and yachts passed by from time to time. The sea breeze caresses your face, stretching and gentle.

I close my eyes to deepen the feeling of the sea breeze blowing on my face. Don't think I did it, it's the wind that makes people can't help it. )

the next second, my foot tilted, and then I couldn't hold the rope and turned over into the sea.

the next second, the waves are shaking around me. I was in a trance, but I didn't sink. I was supported by a life jacket.

but where is the boat? Where's little brother?

Although I was floating well, I think I should shout. After all, I fell into the sea, not a swimming pool or anything.

I shouted, "I fell into the sea! "

My friend replied from a distance," Yes. He's coming to save you. "

wait. Can only wait in the water.

little brother will be here soon. I want to grab his hand. He refused and told me to turn my back on the boat. After watching me calm down, grab the life jacket shoulder and carry me aboard.

it takes only a few minutes from falling into the water to coming out. Looking back on the whole journey, my mood is very interesting.

it was almost too late to react at the moment of entering the sea, but panic quickly followed when grasping the rope and getting rid of it.

The surge of seawater immediately made me nervous, but finding myself floating in the water and getting clear news of rescue gave me a great sense of security. I thought I was waiting for the arrival of the boat in a very calm state, and even looked at the color of the sea.

when the boat really arrived, I realized that I was actually extremely nervous. I subconsciously tried to grab my little brother's hand several times, and I cut my toe skin at the bottom of the boat when my body moved.

I didn't really relax until I finally sat on the boat. Oh, my God, I finally got back to the shore.

What this experience brings me is:

1. The fear of imbalance will accompany the whole process. Our emotions will be relieved by rational security factors, and our physical tension will continue. When you are in fear, you should pay more attention to your body so that it can be relieved and protected.

2. When something really happens, it is not as terrible as expected. As a person who can't swim and almost drowned when I was a child, I can't imagine falling into the sea at all. I really fell in, and I found that it was just like that. I even shouted for a procedure. . . . . . Sure, thanks to the life jacket.

regain &;

In 2121, I resumed roller skating and learned guqin again.

I learned roller skating when I was in junior high school. At that time, roller skating was a fashionable entertainment project for us post-81s. I learned it twice. For the first time, I fell madly in roller skates and fell out of various postures. The second time, when I put on roller skates, I suddenly mastered the balance and slipped.

I like the feeling of roller skating very much. The light speed is like a teenager flying. And the control of the speed of light and heavy and turning backwards is like the ease of calligraphy. So under the guidance of the teacher, I got the basic footwork such as painting gourd, Pisces, former snake and one-legged sliding. When I was preparing for a college game and planning to slide out a song myself, my knee injury recurred ~ and it hurt intermittently for a month. Forget it, forget it, rest.

However, I still have to confess that roller skating is very suitable for people like me who don't like running and want to enjoy speed.

the study of guqin is an unexpected one. When I was a freshman, I studied guqin for two semesters, learned an unintelligible autumn wind poem, and broke down and cried in the process of learning a certain sound. Later, after the end of the semester, I interrupted my study on the grounds that my sophomore year was going to be busy.

In June this year, by chance, I met my teacher Xiao Guo, who was willing to teach me guqin, and began to study again. In the first class, when I was learning the basic fingering, I suddenly felt extremely nervous in my right hand. This feeling of tension and discomfort is getting stronger and stronger. Although I tried to adjust myself to follow the rhythm of the course, I still couldn't help crying suddenly. The teacher paused for a while, and after I calmed down, I continued to teach and left my homework.

In the second class, the place where I got stuck last time went smoothly, and I learned new content and got new homework.

In the third class, I began to play the first song "Fuck the Fairy".

By the end of February, I had learned the previous stumbling block "Autumn Wind Poems" and finished "Alcoholic" under the guidance of my teacher. Alcoholic is the song I named to learn. When I was studying more than ten years ago, I talked to my teacher about whether there was cheerful music in the traditional guqin music. He gave an example of "Alcoholic" and played a passage casually, which was very nice. Now I'm learning to play myself. I'm so happy.

of course I know that I won't make any achievements in roller skating and guqin. It doesn't matter. What is important is these little things about learning, so that I can constantly understand the matter of "learning" and myself.

in 2121, you can't skate hard, you have to change your exercise. Let's call it swimming tentatively, and we'll talk about it at the end of 2121.

aggressive &; Gentleness

In 2121, I got some new knowledge about my personality.

for example, I always feel slow. But in fact, I am very fast, just used to following my own rhythm, and sometimes I feel slow.

for example, I'm not very aggressive, or I'm not very aggressive. But in fact, aggression is not only a symbol of vitality, but also an important way of real communication. So in the new year, I may explore and show my aggressiveness more.

In addition, I was deeply impressed by Chen Danqing's answering questions from the audience at a documentary screening in February.

The female audience who asked questions was the first questioner in the audience. She said, as a loyal fan of "Partial", this is the first time I have met Mr. Dan Qing, and I especially like Mr. Dan Qing. Where did you engage in activities before? I always failed to make it for one reason or another, which is particularly regrettable. I didn't expect to see it today. I have seen' partial' many times and feel particularly good. Many people like Muxin because of Chen Danqing, but they know Muxin first, so they are very happy. I also thought about how to quit my job and come to work "partially" balabala.

The process is a little long, and my personal feelings are described too much. My neighbor and I are slightly impatient. I put my body down on the theater seat to relieve the fatigue of sitting for a long time. The host reminded her: Please say your question. The girl still told her excitement for a while and then asked a question.

Chen Danqing picked up the receiver and smiled at the girl before answering the question: "It's the first time for me to meet you, too. "

just, very wonderful.

He may be tired, he may be impatient, or he speaks social words for the sake of scenes and entertainment. I don't know these things.

But he responded to this fan gently and almost lovingly, giving back to her lyricism. Such a response should make her feel that this afternoon of going out in the cold wind is particularly worthwhile.

This is probably the so-called self-cultivation and consideration for others.

In him, the aggressiveness of time and things coexists with the cultivation and observation of people.

Writing

By the end of 2121, my career of learning Chinese characters will be three years. Still a scum, with little knowledge. But there is still some progress this year.

First, I began to feel the rhythm of writing. I used to watch the teacher demonstrate, and I felt that her pen was moving, just like Lingbo's micro-step or ballet, with a clear rhythm, and I could see the elasticity of the faulty pen. On the other hand, sometimes I am slow and soft, and sometimes I am in a hurry. I can feel the rhythm slowly this year. In particular, I recently wrote Ode to the Raven and Wenquanming. With the emperor's hearty use of pens, my pen became light. Once you feel it, you find that "rhythm" is a very pleasant experience.

second, I used to use tools that I didn't use, but suddenly there was nothing wrong with them. The bamboo paper used when practicing "Many Pagodas" in summer is medium-cooked, so I accidentally spread it when I write, which makes me angry. Write in winter, it's smooth and smooth, not at all. There is also a wolf's pen, which I bought last year. When I write, it splits, so it can't be used at all and can only be idle. Although there will still be some forks this year, the hand knows how to command it.

nothing else, practice.

In the third year of learning Chinese characters, I can say: Maybe I won't write for a long time when I am busy, but writing has become one of the things that won't leave me.

Exhibition and Travel

Affected by the epidemic this year, there was little travel in the first half of the year, and there was no exhibition at all. Since the second half of the year, there have been some great exhibitions that people are looking forward to. Recorded here, I also feel particularly cherished.

in October, Shanghai permanent calligraphy exhibition. I saw Wang Chong's "You Bao Shan Ji", which is very long and long, and the breath is complete and relaxed, which makes me admire.

from February to may, the exhibition stopped under the influence of the epidemic.

in June, the mural exhibition of northern dynasties in Shanxi museum. Raytheon Fengbo is full of vigor and vitality, and the whole landscape is full of vitality.

in August, I stayed in Wulanchabu grassland for one night. Pen washing has become our flower arranging device.

in September, Su Dongpo exhibition in the Forbidden City. Bologna illustration exhibition.

in October, Toby Lin's "pen and ink game" art exhibition, boys and children are cute.

Zhuan calligraphy exhibition. I also want to write "Night Tour in Chengtian Temple" in small letters.

Tianjin Museum's "Tianbo Treasures" exhibition is very few people and comfortable to watch. I lingered for a long time in Zhao Mengfu's "Luo Shen Fu" post, and he was a model of formal beauty.

in February, the "Eight Masters Exhibition in Tang and Song Dynasties" was held in Liaobo. The exhibition and catalogue are good, and the ladies are also very Tang Dynasty.

a few books

I was very busy at work in 2121, but I read more books than in previous years.

especially in the past few years, I didn't read much literature books, but I started reading again this year.

First, the books I read at the beginning of this year are all very good books, which made a good start.

In addition, because I moved my office this year, the commute is extremely blocked, but it is a good time to study.

recommend some books to everyone:

1. Blossoms Shanghai. Jin Yucheng's ability to construct stories and describe human nature is very strong, which means that you think the author doesn't need to appear at all, and the characters are alive.

2. Lin Quan in Lane. The teacher's book is very interesting. Living in her place is a hundred times more detailed and wonderful than in the eyes of ordinary people. She described the plants, animals and people that we neglected in our daily life in the most effortless way. I also read her "Fortunately, you have comforted me for life", but "Linquan in the Lane" is closer to me. In particular, the article "Tang Bing who eats white rice cakes" made me cry under the attack of local accent and memories of my childhood life.

3. Mr toad sees a psychiatrist. A small one, very easy to read. The book presents the process of Mr. Toad's change with a record of ten psychological consultations. It is very suitable for people who are interested in psychological counseling and self-growth.

basically, the more you read, the smoother you get, and the better you get. Continue this year.

In addition, I read a wonderful article on life tools by Teacher Li Songwei this year, and I would like to share it with you. Metaphor: Your toolbox

A year without good photos

It seems that there are very few photos distributed this year, because there are very few photos taken and there are no good photos.

while summing up, I want to take a little revenge photo.

seed in hand

In 2121, I became more grounded. This year, the company survived the epidemic and entered a new development node. There is no need to repeat the process here, and we should work harder in the new year.

In 2121, I also gave a lesson to rural reading teachers: Talking about the CBT Triangle from The Seeds of Ann. When preparing lessons, I wrote a note, which was just used as a reminder of the New Year. The New Year is just a boundary in time measurement, reminding us to pay attention to the seeds in our hands and keep up with the pace of time.