The draft of this text was listed in the notebook after attending Jun's brother's funeral, and I haven't started to sort it out until now.

It seems arrogant and shallow to talk about "death" when you are not old enough, have never been seriously ill, or have experienced other things that pass by death.

But it was the first time that I took a deep and serious look at the word "death" at Jun's funeral.

Brother Jun met him a year and a half ago. I participated in several activities organized by him, so I got to know him. At the farewell party, with the eulogy of family members, I couldn't help crying when I recalled all kinds of things with my handsome brother in the past. Brother Jun is very talented. When attending activities, he always takes good care of me. I am introverted and don't like to talk. Daily private communication always treats me like a big brother, reminding and nudging me, encouraging and supporting me.

It happened suddenly. When I was crossing the street and waiting for a red light, I saw the news in the group. A group friend asked Brother Geng if he had seen Brother Jun recently, and asked if his story was true. Then he sent a screenshot, which was a photo of his friend's handsome brother, with the caption that he was still working yesterday and has gone to heaven far from his family and friends today.

staying up late and working overtime for a long time, sudden death. I was on the side of the road and gave a sigh. Last night, I sent him a message on WeChat. I contacted him a few days ago. Brother Jun said that he would help me write an interview and help me find a good boy.

it's my first time to go to the funeral home, so I have no intention of enjoying the scenery and buildings, just thinking of seeing my handsome brother off for the last time. Seeing my sister-in-law and his sister, my eyes were red with tears, and I couldn't stop crying when I opened my mouth. There were many colleagues and friends who saw Brother Jun off, and the front of xx Hall was filled with wreaths and people. Looking at the words on the elegiac couplet, I can't help thinking, if I die, how many people will come to see me off for the last trip and what will they write?

when I was 13 years old, I was in Grade One. In winter, my grandfather died suddenly. When my father called to tell me, my mind was blank, and I seemed to be trapped by the outside air and couldn't move. Neighbors said that people died after three days without going out. Look ...

When the Wenchuan earthquake in 28, they were still studying in Shandong, and most of the country felt the earthquake, but Shandong was really far away, and there were no high-rise buildings in dormitories and teaching buildings, so there was no special experience of death and panic. When I heard the news, I was shocked at first, but I didn't believe it. Students from Sichuan and Xi 'an came to hear all kinds of news from their respective schools, and then they became worried. When I called home, my mother said that the wall of Sanpa's house had collapsed.

Later, Gansu earthquake, earthquake news in various regions ...

When I heard it for the first time, I was shocked and worried. Looking at those pictures in the news, I was very sad and sad visually, and I felt helpless. Helpless and helpless about natural and man-made disasters. Feel the smallness of people.

Later, I heard a lot, and the death toll was reported on the news, just a number, a distant number. Is the heart cold, or is it really too far away?

I have seen a French film, The Elegant Hedgehog. There is a line in it: Everything comes to an abrupt end. Is this death? Never see the person you love again, never see the person who loves you again. If this is death, it is really like everyone said, it is a tragedy.

yes, everything came to an abrupt end.

It is different from the natural law of birth, aging, illness and death, which makes people unbelievable and unprepared.

It is different from suicide with independent choice.

sudden death, there is no room for choice or negotiation-it comes to an abrupt end. It's too late to say "love you" to your wife, to look at you more, to hold your hand again, and to hug you again.

I really felt the existence and significance of the word "death" when my friend died suddenly. Although we have all experienced many ups and downs and natural disasters in our lives, in front of where will you go, they all seem very small, which is even more cruel to blood relatives. Crying and words can only express one in ten million grief. What you can't say is the crux.

A friend who once suffered from depression said that during his illness, he had many thoughts about ending his life. Later, after the treatment improved, he felt that dying was a particularly easy thing. It's hard to live. What's really hard is the living. I want to see Yu Hua's Alive again.

therefore, live in the moment and enjoy it. If it hurts, it's only for a while. If you are happy, remember to enjoy it and don't be anxious. Do what you want now; Want to eat food, hurry to eat; Those who want to love, love quickly, while you still have the opportunity and ability to love.

Do it now。

Life is bitter. If you eat a candy, you can be wonderful alone, and then you can embrace the world.