1

Four years later, Ye Xin did not want to recall that winter night in C City when she was nineteen years old. Memories are sometimes like dandruff growing on the scalp. Every time a certain season comes, they stick to the scalp unconsciously, pulling everything in the past back to the depths of the mind.

Ye Xin drifted to City C because of a college notice. The winter in C City is extremely cold. The wind is freezing and the north wind is howling. It is so cold that everyone on the road shrinks their neck into their coat and walks with difficulty. In the afternoon, thick goose-yellow clouds piled up, getting thicker and thicker, as if they were about to fall. Sure enough, in the evening, the goose-feather-like snow began to shake off in large chunks like torn cotton wool. In the blink of an eye, the sky and the earth suddenly became a piece of pure white.

After receiving a text message at that time, Ye Xin wrapped herself in a striped dark scarf, closed the door with a bang, and walked out. The place Ye Xin went to was a student shopping market not far from the school. When he walked straight into the Internet cafe he often went to, he looked up at the sky. The snow was falling more and more rapidly, and the thick yellow in the distance seemed to be mixed with snow. The hamburger with white butter seems to wrap up the whole city.

After Ye Xin bought the card at the cashier, she ordered a bottle of Sprite, which she did in a corner near the window of the Internet cafe. He hung up his headphones, logged into his game account, and fell into a fierce battle. The night is getting darker, especially in this deep winter. At seven or eight o'clock, the world is wrapped in silver and looks even more lonely and cold.

Ye Xin rubbed her sore eyes, took a sip of Sprite, felt chilled, and logged into QQ. Countless avatars flashed on QQ, all with blessings such as "Merry Christmas", and Ye Xin suddenly realized that today was Christmas. He looked for "Zhong Yu"'s name in the fixed friend group, only to find that she had already deleted him. Ye Xin's eyes suddenly felt swollen and sore. He took out his phone, trembled slightly, and pressed the delete button.

Ye Xin continued to drink a few more sips of Sprite and looked out the window. The window was covered with a thick layer of fog due to the indoor air conditioner. Ye Xin took a few deep breaths and stretched out his fingers. After writing a few strokes on the window, she could vaguely see the cold world outside through the glass. Ye Xin stood up and took a look at the window.

"Love is dead", Ye Xin read the words on the window, turned around, and went out through the back door, diving into the wind and snow.

2

The shopping market where Ye Xin is now is considered bustling in H University, especially on Christmas Day. There are milk tea shops, KTVs, and fruits everywhere. The supermarkets were all lit up with twinkling colored lights, creating a lively atmosphere of feasting and feasting, as if to dispel the chilling atmosphere between heaven and earth.

When Ye Xin passed by a KTV with neon lights, Ren Xianqi's "Sad Pacific" was playing deafeningly inside, "My waiting boat hasn't come yet, and the person I'm waiting for doesn't understand yet." , Lonely..." Ye Xin shrank his head and speeded up his pace unconsciously. Not far away, several food stalls set up tents in a cluster. Ye Xin suddenly felt a little hungry, so she walked towards the food stalls.

At this time, it should be the peak period for student gatherings. When Ye Xin got into the food stall, under the smoke of several steaming hot pot tables, a group of students were drinking and mingling, guessing and swearing. Huh. Ye Xin found a corner and sat down. He only focused on filling his stomach and had no intention of paying attention to other people. He ordered a portion of egg fried rice, two skewers of chili peppers and two chicken drumsticks. After a few breaths, the fried rice was served.

On the way back to school, we need to pass through a ruins with overgrown weeds on both sides. At this time, it is covered with white snow, as if the heavy snow can bury all the messy, dirty and sinful things, Ye Xin, thinking, thinking , I wish I could bury myself in the snow.

Through the ruins, there is a calm lake. At this time, the dark green lake surface occasionally rippled slightly in the chilling air, and then quickly spread into the distance.

Ye Xin, who was standing on the roadside, stopped and looked into the distance. The lake was in the wind and snow, as peaceful as an old man from this world. The trees in the distance had snow-white silk ribbons hanging down, as if the entire lake was decorated. Ichiban.

A colder wind blew over the lake, and Ye Xin couldn't help but shudder. At this time, he seemed to think of Yu Dafu, "Silver Death" and "Sink", as if he was thinking about it at this moment. Becoming the "surplus person" in Yu Dafu's works, another chilling cold wind blew. Ye Xin covered her cheeks with her hands, turned around and quickened her pace.

It must be around nine o'clock at night. There are fewer people and footsteps on the campus. In the distance, under the street lights, a few people are holding umbrellas and selling food under the street lights. The little girl holding Christmas fruit was shivering from the cold. Ye Xin looked at the closed shops around her, but the newsstand was still brightly lit. Ye Xin pushed open the glass door and saw the newspaper seller, wearing a pair of glasses, heating an electric stove, and holding a book "Reading" in one hand. "The World" was read quietly. Ye Xin turned around and took two cans of beer from the refrigerator, forced a smile, exchanged a few words with the boss, turned around and went out.

In the dormitory, several roommates were still fighting in the game. Ye Xin poured a pot of hot water to wash her feet, kicked off her shoes, poured two cans of beer into her stomach, and fell into a daze. He fell on the bed, and his roommates didn't pay much attention. Ye Xin vaguely heard that one roommate was holding a mobile phone and making an intimate call to his girlfriend who was not in another place.

Ye Xin only woke up in the afternoon of the next day. After waking up, Ye Xin looked out the window. The snow was getting more intense and showed no intention of stopping.

The snow fell for three days. Three days later, Ye Xin caught a cold, and December of that year ended with Ye Xin coughing.

3

Ye Xin met Zhong Yu purely by chance. But for Ye Xin, who was obsessed with Shen Congwen at the time, he always liked to use Shen Congwen's words to remind himself, "Everything is a coincidence, but the result is fateful." In this way, Ye Xin and Zhong Yu met in a fateful way. .

It was in the third year of high school. On an ordinary afternoon class, Zhong Yu and several people at the table suddenly appeared in the classroom where Ye Xin was teaching. Later, the teachers said that they were doing it to cope with the inspection because the number of people in the next class was too large. If there are many, they need to be moved. After the inspection period, they will move back to the original class.

At first, Ye Xin did not notice these new unfamiliar faces under the desks piled high on the floor. He was listening to the class with rapt attention. Suddenly, a pile of books fell down in front of her eyes. Ye Xin didn't react for a moment. The girl standing in front turned around and apologized sheepishly.

Ye Xin raised her head and glanced at Zhong Yu in a panic. She was wearing a floral plaid shirt, a pair of blue jeans, and her hair was combed like a doll. Against the backdrop of neat bangs, she looked like a girl. A face as delicate as a cherry is ready to appear. Ye Xin's heart skipped a beat at first, then she quickly came to her senses and packed up the books that had just fallen down.

In this way, Zhong Yu naturally sat in the front row of Ye Xin. At first, Ye Xin did not have any communication with Zhong Yu. Zhong Yu was just apologetic. Gradually, Zhong Yu and Ye Xin gradually became familiar with each other. Zhong Yu would turn to Ye Xin from time to time to ask for answers to questions. Ye Xin would also occasionally look up at Zhong Yu. Xue's neck, with a faint smile in her dimples when she smiled, Ye Xin suddenly felt her face flush and lowered her head in a hurry.

A week after Zhong Yu met Ye Xin, Zhong Yu moved out of Ye Xin’s classroom. In the afternoon after class that day, Ye Xin helped Zhong Yu move things, and he was reluctant to leave until the end. Goodbye, finally, Zhong Yu ran into the classroom to find a piece of white paper and put a phone number into Ye Xin's hand.

From then on, Ye Xin would rush home after studying in the evening and send text messages to Zhong Yu, chatting about what happened throughout the day. At that time, Ye Xin suddenly felt that this boring and boring senior year life in high school suddenly changed. Some new ideas came out, but he knew that it was because of chatting with Zhong Yu.

Gradually, Ye Xin began to run to the door of Zhong Yu’s classroom after self-study, calling her to come out with her, and take a quiet walk on campus. On the campus in the summer night, the cicadas were noisy, the heat wave floated, and the leaves Xin felt that the wind in the shade of the trees made people feel cool, while the wind in the summer night was a little sticky, like honey, making people feel sweet.

At that time, while Ye Xin was preparing for the college entrance examination, she sent a text message to Zhong Yu on time before going home to go to bed, then plugged in her headphones and listened to Joey Yung’s singing from her MP3 player:

"Reminiscing like a storyteller / Using a tone full of local accent / Jumping over puddles / Going around small villages / Waiting for the fate of meeting...

There is a person living in my heart from now on / You are indispensable The part... I was so little, waiting stupidly..."

At that time, Ye Xin was often fascinated by such singing and fell asleep. Sometimes in his dreams, he could see Joey Yung's face, and she smiled Looks a bit like Zhongyu.

4

After graduating from high school, Ye Xin tried to go to J Town to find Zhong Yu. After graduation, the strings that were originally tense for the college entrance examination suddenly relaxed. In addition to surfing the Internet and singing karaoke every day, Ye Xin hangs out with friends and walks through the streets and alleys of the county town, like a group of idle hooligans looking for new ideas in this commonplace city.

Yesinto High School classmates found the residence of Zhong Yu J Zhen. That day, the sky was clear and the morning breeze from J Town made Ye Xin feel refreshed. Accompanied by her classmates, Ye Xin spent the whole morning hanging out at Zhong Yu's house. Near noon, Zhong Yu happily set off to the polder in J town with a group of people.

That day, in a restaurant in J Town, after ordering and sitting down, Ye Xin unexpectedly confessed her love to Zhong Yu in the presence of everyone. At first, Zhong Yu blushed for a while, and then the five or six people sitting there started cheering together. Zhong Yu's face turned even redder. Seeing this, Ye Xin had no choice but to rescue Zhong Yu and excused herself from buying something to drink. After saying that, the two of them walked downstairs giggling.

While Ye Xin and Zhong Yu were waiting for the mung bean smoothie, Ye Xin, who was close to him, touched Zhong Yu with his hand. Zhong Yu shuddered and dodged as if in panic. Xin grabbed Zhong Yu's hand and held it tightly. When they returned to the restaurant, Ye Xin and Zhong Yu came back holding hands. Later, everyone started to toast and cheer.

The restaurant that summer has always been lingering in Ye Xin’s memory, as if the secrets between him and Zhong Yu were hidden in that narrow private room, and there was a warm and welcoming atmosphere between them. Over the course of the meal, secrets were broken down and exposed.

After lunch, only Ye Xin and Zhong Yu were left wandering on the polder in J Town. In the evening, Ye Xin accompanied Zhong Yu to her residence. On the way back to Zhong Yu’s house, they had to pass through A large area of ??buildings under construction was smudged by the evening glow, lazily like ink spreading on rice paper. It was spread on the brand-new buildings and rendered on the shadows of Ye Xin and Zhong Yu holding hands.

Tired of walking, Ye Xin took Zhong Yu and sat down in a row of pavilions behind the building. Outside the pavilion, newly planted trees had just sprouted and were swaying in the wind. Ye Xin hugged Zhong Yu and secretly touched Zhong Yu's chest with both hands. At first Zhong Yu felt strong resistance and trembling. Gradually, Zhong Yu's whole body seemed to be filled with the fragrance of green grass leaves blowing in the wind, or like water plants soaked in water, and a delicate blush floated faintly on her face.

Suddenly, a burst of rapid barking woke up Ye Xin and Zhong Yu. Zhong Yu hurriedly pulled up his clothes, lowered his head and walked away with Ye Xin. In the second half of the evening, Ye Xin and Zhong Yu had been walking in tandem. Zhong Yu lowered his head, and Ye Xin also lowered his head, as if two criminals were walking towards the execution ground.

That evening, outside the wall of Zhong Yu’s house, Zhong Yu put on Ye Xin a red rope bracelet that was popular among lovers at that time. Ye Xin suddenly blocked Zhong Yu in the shadow of the sunset and kissed Zhong Yu hard. Then, he turned around and left on the way back.

The wind under the setting sun passed through the rustling branches, faintly blowing the red rope bracelet on Ye Xin's hand, and the air was mixed with crisp crashing sounds. Ye Xin sped up happily. pace.

5

Ye Xin went to Guangdong to work in an electronics factory during the summer vacation of that year. Every day, Ye Xin came back from work, fell on the bed, and sent text messages to Zhong Yu. At that time, Ye Xin didn't know where the energy came from. She sent long messages every day, and then anxiously waited for the reply from the other end. , every day is like a duplicate day, Ye Xin is immersed in it and never tires of it.

There are countless young people like Ye Xin working in factories. Like Ye Xin, they are busy and then fall asleep in the dormitory after get off work. Next to Ye Xin was a petite girl with delicate features, like a farm girl who had just walked out of the mountains. Ye Xin didn't pay attention at first, but gradually started to talk.

The girl’s name is Yang Xi. Like Ye Xin, she is also a high school graduate. Later, they gradually became familiar with each other. They began to talk about the days of the college entrance examination, Shen Congwen, and "Border Town", which made Ye Xin He suddenly felt a lot of affection for the girl next to him.

A month later, during the factory holiday, Ye Xin and Yang Xi went to the park in D City to play. It was the first time Ye Xin went out to play after arriving in D City. The busy traffic in the big city made Ye Xin Dizzying. Ye Xin and Yang Xi came back too late and the factory was closed. Later, Ye Xin and Yang Xi stayed in a hotel near the factory. Most of these hotels are for young lovers and temporary couples in the factory. set. Although the facilities are dilapidated and there is an unpleasant smell floating in the air, the price is cheap, and workers come to live here in an endless stream.

That night, Ye Xin made love to Yang Xi tremblingly. After Ye Xin finished hastily, he hurried into the bathroom and washed himself for half an hour before coming out, as if he had experienced a bloody Ling Chi in his heart. Yang Xi, who stayed aside, quietly walked into the bathroom to rinse his lower body, and tears slipped down unknowingly.

That night, Ye Xin and Yang Xi lay on the bed, looking at the flickering ceiling under the light, without saying a word all night. Ye Xin turned over and sent a text message to Zhong Yu.

"The factory has a holiday today and I slept in the dormitory all day."

"Have a good rest and remember to have dinner."

Ye Xinru From then on, lies gradually filled Ye Xin’s cell phone text messages.

6

Two months later, Ye Xin and Yang Xi parted ways. Like a small boat floating in the city of D, they accidentally got together and supported each other. , experienced the ups and downs brought by life, and after a short period of shelter, they left D city one after another and went to other places, hometowns or cities with roots and destination.

However, Ye Xin and Zhong Yu gradually became more distant. Ye Xin began to send text messages in long and long paragraphs to slowly becoming perfunctory. Zhong Yu, who was far away in J Town, seemed to have noticed something, but they never let this intense undercurrent come to the surface.

In September of that year, Ye Xin and Zhong Yu still did not return to J Town to meet each other. They both went to school in their respective cities. Gradually, Ye Xin and Zhong Yu slowly lost contact. Occasionally send a few greetings through text messages or chat on the phone. The words between them seemed to be squeezed out like toothpaste. Every chat or call would go through a long silence and then end hastily.

Until one day, Ye Xin suddenly received a text message from Zhong Yu, "Let me knit you a scarf. The winter in C City is so cold. I will send it to you when it gets cold."

Ye Xin replied directly without thinking, "No, I will buy it myself if needed."

Just as Ye Xin sent the text message, the phone rang. On the other end, Zhong Yu seemed to be pleading and said that he wanted to knit a scarf for Ye Xin, but on the other hand, Ye Xin was determined as if he was being coerced by something. In the end, the phone call ended unhappily. .

Later, Ye Xin gradually discovered that Zhong Yu never called or sent messages again, and their relationship suddenly seemed to be frozen. Everything seemed to come to a screeching halt.

Until December 25th of that year, Zhong Yu once again sent Ye Xin a text message, "Yexin, let's break up. Thank you for your companionship during those years. Goodbye." Ye Xin opened the text message and froze indifferently for a few seconds, then opened the door and left the dormitory with a bang...

7

Three days later, that was One year on the third day after Christmas, Yesin received a package. Inside the package was a brown scarf and a lavender-colored notebook. Ye Xin opened the notebook and found that there was a large notebook full of text messages he sent to Zhong Yu. Zhong Yu copied every day's text messages in the notebook. Ye Xin's hands trembled and he hurriedly opened the notebook. On the last page, there was no text message on that page, but a letter written by Zhong Yu to Ye Xin.

Xin:

Xin, do you still remember that dusk, the dusk when you came back with me? That day, not to mention how happy I was, I suddenly felt that I was the happy and jumping little sparrow in the forest, and happened to appear under your protection in the summer of that year, not to mention how happy I must have been.

However, Xin, the opposite of happiness will exist all the time, so I am deeply afraid that one day I will also stand on the side of the opposite, so I treat every text message you send me. Copy it down. Whenever I copy down those words, I suddenly feel that I am the happiest person. But when I think about it, these words are like evidence of this life. If one day you and I are really speechless. At that time, I could read it to you, but later, every phone call ended on bad terms. You must not know that on the other end of the phone, my tears had quietly wet the notebook.

Remember the scarf I told you before? In fact, I knitted that scarf early in the morning, but you gradually ignored me at that time. I just wanted to confirm it through that phone call. Check to see if I have been foolishly insisting. That day I knew that the relationship between us was like a torn thread that could never be restored.

Xin, recalling those wet and youthful days, I gradually understood Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Wood" and the subtle feelings between Watanabe, Naoko, and Midoriko. I think only those who have experienced it will know that those things will always belong to the age of seventeen.

And you know that only the dead are seventeen forever.

Okay, Xin, do you still remember the graduation song request activity launched by the school radio station when you graduated from high school? Then you must have heard that a classmate who did not leave his name ordered a song for you. In fact, I just liked the song at that time, so I ordered it for you. Looking back now, I feel a little embarrassed. The taste is gone.

"You said that holding hands constitutes an agreement/But my dear, it is not love/It's like an elf living in the wrong forest/The wrong love is very transparent."

Xin , when you see this notebook, it should have snowed in City C. I am sending this scarf to you as a commemoration and companionship of the feelings of the past days.

Xin, I wish you happiness!

Zhong Yu

8

Ye Xin, holding the notebook, sighed slightly, took out the scarf from the closet, along with the The scarf was thrown into the trash can.

Then he searched out the book "Norwegian Wood" on the bookshelf, stuffed it into his schoolbag, and walked to the library. In the corner of the library where he usually sat, he opened it again That book "Norwegian Wood". At that moment, he suddenly realized that the seventeen years that belonged to him really could not go back.

The next day, Ye Xin returned the lavender-colored notebook to the post office. When Ye Xin walked out of the post office, she suddenly felt the rising sun shining on the white snow on the campus. Sparkling and dazzling.

Ye Xin lowered his head, his feet became lighter, and suddenly he quickened his pace.