First of all, as a mother, I really feel that my life has completely changed from the moment I found out I was pregnant.

Let me talk about my life before I got pregnant. First of all, I was an Internet-addicted teenager. I played QQ dance for three years in high school and League of Legends for four years in college. Haha, looking back on the past, I always feel that life should not be too enriching. After working and getting married,

It has not affected my various hobbies. After work, I play games with my team after dinner, watch anime, watch football, and taste delicious food with my husband.

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I will do what teenagers do before getting pregnant and talk about preparing for pregnancy.

The story is slightly longer.

We started preparing for pregnancy in the second year of our marriage. Since we were medical students, we were strict with ourselves. First of all, we did not stay up late. My husband and I got rid of many bad habits. For example, he quit smoking and stopped drinking drinks.

Eating junk food and so on.

After a year of hard work, there was still no success. In the third year, I started to gain weight and never looked back.

Personally, I feel that when preparing for pregnancy, you must relax and don’t be too deliberate. I was a bad example before. Since my menstruation was very regular, I accurately recorded the ovulation period. I can’t say that the ovulation period is useless, but it doesn’t matter here.

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Both of us began to doubt ourselves, and various large family gatherings were met with suspicion.

Until something happened during this period, my grandfather passed away suddenly. He was also a stubborn old man. He had heart failure for half a year and had not taken any of the medicine prescribed in the hospital.

I already had activity-related dyspnea, but I just started to exercise. It was one day in July 2017.

It was very sudden for me, because I had a very good relationship with my grandfather, and I couldn’t stop crying at the funeral. But it was really a sixth sense. On the way to the cremation, I suddenly felt that I would be pregnant soon. It felt very special.

It was so strong that I often dreamed about my grandpa during my pregnancy. I saw that he was living a good and comfortable life there.

I got off the night shift on August 23rd. As usual, my husband picked me up from get off work. I ate a bowl of cold noodles recommended to me by my colleague the day before yesterday at the back of the hospital. When I got home, I started to feel pain in my lower right abdomen.

I didn't take it seriously at first. I thought I had a bad stomach. My husband insisted that I had appendicitis. When I decided to go to the hospital, it was difficult for me to go downstairs. It didn't hurt too much.

After arriving at the hospital, I first consulted the emergency surgery department. After ruling out appendicitis and kidney stones, I checked the gynecology department last. Here is a knowledge point: My last menstrual period was July 31st.

The final diagnosis was rupture of the corpus luteum, and a posterior fornix puncture was performed to confirm pelvic bleeding, and I was hospitalized.

There were no beds in the gynecology department at that time, so I stayed in the corridor for one night. On the third day, the bed doctor checked my HCG again and it was 27.

The day I got sick was 13.

I clearly remember that it was noon, my husband went out to buy food, and I was alone in the hospital bed. The doctor suddenly came and said to me, ZY, I have to tell you two things. First, you are pregnant. Second,

, it is likely to be an ectopic pregnancy.

It was really a lightning strike.

Then she introduced me to the treatment plan. If I want to treat an ectopic pregnancy, I must take medicine immediately. If I want to wait, if it is really an ectopic pregnancy, I will have surgery as soon as possible. It is minimally invasive. By the way, she introduced this surgery to me.

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My mood at that time was that I felt like crying without tears. My heart almost jumped out of my chest during the whole process. All the knowledge I learned in the obstetrics and gynecology class at the university was gone. It was the first time since my fourth year of internship that

Being able to empathize with the patient's heart, the level of suffering during this period is really unforgettable.

I was really confused at that time, my fingertips were all numb, and I was in a daze. I said let’s take a closer look. I wanted to wait until my husband came back to discuss it.

Let’s talk about my husband.

Then I signed a lot of illness notification forms, which probably meant that I had to bear the risks myself.

Speaking of my husband, really, hey, he comes back after buying food.

I said the doctor came just now and told me I was pregnant, but suspected it was an ectopic pregnancy.

The elder brother directly filtered out the last half of the sentence and said, "Great, I have no problem." Then he asked me if ectopic pregnancy is so dangerous, do you want to wait and see? Then he said that he respects my choice, but still recommends that I take medicine directly.

Aborted, I probably can’t remember what it means.

Then I turned around and went downstairs to buy a bottle of classic milk tea. My husband especially likes to drink drinks. He hasn’t had drinks for more than a year, and his joy came out immediately, haha.

Relatives and friends came to see me in the afternoon, and they all advised me that I should not be so unlucky and that I would not have an ectopic pregnancy. They reassured me.

This is what makes me the most angry. They are completely mechanical in persuading me to keep the child. Except for my husband, no one thinks that if it is really an ectopic pregnancy, how much impact it will have on my body and the future.

Maybe everyone has different fragile and sensitive points. So many people advised me to relax, but there was no scientific explanation. The loneliness I felt at that time was really colder than a refrigerator.

I cried all night that night, covering my face and crying there, and then I felt that the whole world didn't care about me.

Now that I think about it, it might be the hormonal imbalance in the early stages of pregnancy, which is why I'm so sensitive.

The next day, my mother-in-law told the doctor to stop taking my anti-inflammatory drugs and hemostatic drugs, and the family’s final decision was to observe again.

Then I calmed down.