“The thinner you are, the more beautiful you are” is the creed I pursue throughout my life.

There is a saying in English: You can never be too rich or too thin. Translated into Chinese: the more money, the better, and the thinner the person, the more beautiful. I don’t feel deeply about the first half of the sentence. I like money, but not to the extent of being passionate about it. I just occasionally feel depressed for Li Ka-shing from his perspective, because there is always Bill Gates ahead of him who is richer than him.

As for the second half of the sentence, "The thinner you are, the more beautiful you are," this is the creed I pursue throughout my life.

When I was a child, I was chubby and cute.

My eldest uncle is 70 years old. Every time he sees me, he always smokes a cigarette and squints his eyes to recall the past: "You were chubby when you were born, which is so fun." . "Everyone in the neighborhood would like to bite you if they see you!"

You are in the third grade of elementary school, and you are recruiting for the dance major of the People's Liberation Army Art Academy. Teacher Du always hoped that some of her students could become professional dancers, so she took us to take the military art exam.

At that time, it was difficult to test military skills. First, you need to get the admission qualification. This requires candidates to have sufficiently slender legs. The standard is that girls’ legs are at least 14 centimeters longer than their upper body. Leg length refers to the top of the heel to the bottom of the hip.

As a result, none of the girls in our juvenile home met the standards.

This exam made me notice my figure for the first time in my life. Children are very practical and don't understand how to compare with one's superiors, one's own shortcomings, and one with more than one's inferiors. I was preoccupied with the 14cm gap, which made me quite frustrated.

When I entered junior high school, I began to grow and my appetite became surprisingly good.

I have always longed for myself to have the ladylike temperament of a jade tree facing the wind and not eating the fireworks of the world. Unfortunately, I have been a glutton since I was a child.

In the three years of high school, I ate myself until I was fat. Reviewing for the college entrance examination was so tiring that I didn't even lose weight. Even my dad was amazed: "Daughter, you worked so hard on the exam, why don't you lose weight?"

I don't care. Looking at the female classmates around me, after the third year of high school, all of them are gray and have no trace of youthful charm. I don't care so much about body shape and appearance. What's more, I also had the support of my idol. At that time, my favorite movie star was Yamaguchi Momoe. Her thick lips and narrow eyes looked so perfect to me. Even her round arms and thick legs are a comfort to me. "Momoe Yamaguchi is not thin either. If I am a little fatter, what does it matter?"

At that time, the only thing that made me feel mentally stressed was going to Shanghai to visit relatives.

Every summer, my appearance always makes the petite and exquisite Shanghai neighbors very excited: "Look at Ge Xiaonan, a model boss, and she looks good." Translated into Mandarin, it means, you see This little girl is so big and good-looking.

God knows, at that time I was just a chubby little girl with a face full of baby fat. After being yelled and praised by them, I really felt that I should make up my mind to lose weight.

The real weight loss started in my senior year

I really started to lose weight after the winter vacation of my senior year in 1992.

I am lovelorn, and it feels like the sky is falling. I don’t know if life can go on. While I was studying for the TOEFL exam and studying abroad, I immediately left Beijing, a sad place, and started to diet hard. That fierceness made me see the so-called perseverance in myself for the first time.

Now that I recall the canteen of Guangyuan, I can’t help but drool, but in good conscience, I cannot praise the quality of the food back then. I don’t know who I’m arguing with every day, and I only eat one boiled egg for breakfast. At noon, I always buy cheap and unpalatable stir-fried pork slices with tofu soaked in tofu, and I only eat the tofu soaked without even touching the meat, and I eat rice by the grains. This way, you can save money and lose weight, killing two birds with one stone.

After lunch, I didn’t take a break and ran to the classroom alone to do TOEFL exercises. Around 4pm, my stomach starts to rebel. I usually eat a piece of fruit and then do my English homework. Night is the hardest part, my stomach is so hungry that I can't sleep. In this way, life became much easier. I spent all my energy every day on TOEFL and hunger issues, and the pain in my heart became much lighter. Why I started losing weight I don’t know. From a psychological point of view, this may be a pain transfer method. By transferring the pain of the soul to the body, the most difficult moments can be overcome.

Two months later, my weight dropped from 110 pounds to 90 pounds.

Since then, losing weight has become a very important thing in my life.

1993 and 1994 were the most unhappy years for me. Eating became my only way to relieve my depression at that time.

Hua is my classmate in high school, my friend through thick and thin. It's rare that she was also experiencing the most hesitant and unsatisfactory moment in her life, so the two of us found the same interest: eating!

We visited the Pizza Hut in Dongsishitiao at least once a week during those two years.