After seven or eight minutes, Qu Yifan's voice suddenly came from the earphone: "Dai Suwei, happy birthday, I hope you can get married early and have a baby. Girls still have to get married before it's too late. Is it always good to have personal care around? "
Hearing the familiar voice, Dai Suwei suddenly wanted to cry. It was recorded quietly by Dai Suwei at her 26th birthday party two years ago.
Until the plane took off, Qu Yifan's voice still echoed in Dai Suwei's mind, but there was only one voice in his heart: he didn't like me.
Speaking of it, Dai Suwei and Qu Yifan have known each other for 2 1 year.
Both of them graduated from primary school to high school in the same school. Qu Yifan went to California to go to college, with a gap of several years. Later, Qu Yifan returned to China and they worked together in the same city. Dai Suwei felt that all this was like a sweet and bitter dream. She likes Qu Yifan, but Qu Yifan never lacks people who admire him.
1995, Dai Suwei is 7 years old. After her parents died in a car accident, her aunt took her from Hangzhou to Nanjing.
On the first day when she came to her aunt's house, Dai Suwei was scared to cry by a stray dog in the community. When Dai Suwei was afraid to move when she saw the dirty dog approaching her, a little boy ran over and drove away the stray dog, and Dai Suwei stopped crying.
That was the first time Dai Suwei met Qu Yifan. They live in the same community and unit.
Throughout primary and secondary schools, Dai Suwei is a favorite of Qu Yifan.
Dai Suwei refuses to accept, "why should I listen to you? Obviously I was born two months before you. "
Qu Yifan smiled and said, "But my grades are higher than yours, and my grades are better than yours."
Dai Suwei lost confidence in an instant.
Qu Yifan is right. Growing up, Dai Suwei couldn't catch up with Qu Yifan no matter how hard she tried.
So when he got full marks in the math exam, she almost failed; She was in the regular class when he entered the Orsay class; When he went to America, she stayed in Nanjing. Even after work, she worked hard and stayed up all night, but he became her boss.
Every time I think about this, Dai Suwei will smile bitterly in her heart. "Maybe this is destiny takes a hand."
She is a dim star, and he is a bright moonlight. No matter how hard she tried to shine, she still lost to him.
Dai Suwei discovered that she liked Quyi in the third grade.
During Dai Suwei's physiological period, the last class in the afternoon ended. Dai Suwei packed her textbooks and was about to take up her schoolbag and leave. Qu Yifan, who was sitting behind her, suddenly stretched out his hand to hold her shoulder.
Dai Suwei is puzzled. Qu Yifan blushed and said fluently, "I'll tell you a few math problems later." Dai Suwei believed it.
After all the other students left the classroom, Qu Yifan quietly took off his school uniform coat and gave it to Dai Suwei. "Well, your pants are dirty."
The sensitive girl immediately understood Qu Yifan's words, blushed and took the school uniform. When Qu Yifan turned his back on himself and walked to the door of the classroom, he tied his clothes around his waist and tied a knot.
On the way home that afternoon, both of them were silent.
When approaching the door of the community, Dai Suwei said, "Thank you, I will return your clothes as soon as possible."
Qu Yifan smiled and said nothing.
It was a slightly cold late autumn. Qu Yifan only wore a thin T-shirt. Dai Suwei felt guilty and moved, and the warmth in her heart continued to spread.
After returning to menstruation, Dai Suwei changed her clothes, but she was worried. Qu Yifan's school uniform is two sizes bigger than her own. If you hang it directly on the balcony, you will be found. After careful consideration, Dai Suwei decided to send it to the dry cleaner.
After washing clothes, Dai Suwei was in a daze with Qu Yifan's school uniform. "It turns out that he is wearing such a big dress."
Dai Suwei finally realized that Qu Yifan was a head taller than himself, and he was no longer the little boy as tall as himself.
Later, in high school, Quyi was recognized as a top student in the whole school, but Dai Suwei was still stuck in the crowd, so it was very ordinary that it was difficult to recognize her. Maybe she is slightly different from other girls in development.
But this is not an advantage in middle school.
Qu Yifan's only fight in high school was because of Dai Suwei.
It was the second semester of senior two. A boy in Dai Suwei's class is chasing her. Dai Suwei doesn't like him at all. The boys became angry from embarrassment and gave Dai Suwei many ugly nicknames, such as big-breasted sister, goblin and Qu Yifan. When they found out, they found the boy and had a fight.
Dai Suwei saw Qu Yifan's dark face and scolded him for meddling.
Qu Yifan looked at Dai Suwei after hearing the word "mind your own business" and said coldly, "Then I will leave you alone."
At that time, he didn't understand that Dai Suwei was actually sorry for him when she said this.
After graduating from senior three, although Qu Yifan also helped Dai Suwei with her homework, Dai Suwei still felt Qu Yifan's deliberate alienation.
Dai Suwei wanted to express her feelings to Qu Yifan more than once, but rationality suppressed her sensibility. When she was ready to confess, Qu Yifan had gone to America.
Some people say that to miss a moment is to miss a lifetime. Dai Suwei used to think this sentence was very melodramatic, but after Qu Yifan left, she realized that her study life had become colorless and tasteless, and the days were like years. Qu Yifan used to be the palette of her gray childhood and adolescence.
The bravest thing Dai Suwei did in college was to go to America.
In her sophomore year, Dai Suwei bought a plane ticket to America on the eve of Qu Yifan's birthday. She wanted to give him a surprise. When she arrived in America, Dai Suwei found her very romantic.
Qu Yifan already has a beautiful girlfriend in China.
The girl and Qu Yifan came to the airport to meet Dai Suwei. Qu Yifan naturally put her arm around the girl's shoulder and told Dai Suwei that this was his girlfriend. Dai Suwei tried to keep smiling and say hello to the girl.
After staying in the United States for less than three days, Dai Suwei returned to China, and the feeling of threesomes was always embarrassing.
In the remaining two years of college, Dai Suwei spent all her thoughts on professional courses and social practice. Every day is very busy and full, but she still secretly tears when she thinks of Qu Yifan. She never got it, but she was more sad than losing it.
After graduating from college, Dai Suwei went to work in Shanghai, and Qu Yifan continued to study in the United States.
Two years later, Qu Yifan returned to China. Coincidentally, two people actually became colleagues.
Even though I haven't seen her for a long time, Dai Suwei couldn't help her heart beating faster when she first saw Qu Yifan.
What about Fan Yi? Has he ever liked himself, even a little?
Dai Suwei is still immersed in the past memories with Qu Yifan, who has attended the party with his new girlfriend. Dai Suwei laughed at herself and thought too much.
His girlfriends are all noble and temperamental women. How can they value their ordinary self?
In the following days, Dai Suwei did not dare to entertain foolish ideas, and the relationship between the two people was always tepid.
In the company, it is a superior-subordinate relationship. In private, just like friends. Occasionally talking about the past, Qu Yifan only felt that it was a very difficult day.
Dai Suwei realized that their youth was really different. She has a crush on him, and all he cares about is learning.
Qu Yifan also came to Dai Suwei's 26th birthday party.
In the gift-giving session, when it was Qu Yifan's turn, Dai Suwei quietly turned on the recording button of the mobile phone. When Qu Yifan told her to get married early, Dai Suwei's tears kept spinning in her eyes. If it weren't for several other girls, Dai Suwei was really afraid that she would lose control in front of Qu Yifan.
After the party, Dai Suwei came home and opened the gift from Qu Yifan. It's a necklace with her name engraved on it and a handwritten greeting card. Although there is only a short line, Dai Suwei is still red-eyed.
Qu Yifan said, "No matter how long it takes, I hope you can be really happy."
Memories of that night flooded my mind, and Daisy lost sleep.
At two o'clock in the morning, Dai Suwei did something she will never forget. She skillfully pressed Qu Yifan's mobile phone number.
Su Wei, are you awake?
Qu Yifan's voice was full of tiredness. Even if she was disturbed by Dai Suwei, she still asked with a good temper.
"Qu Yifan, I like you."
After Dai Suwei finished this sentence, the conversation between the two fell into silence.
"Su Wei, you?"
"Don't talk, I just want to tell you that I will wait for you to be 30 years old. If you are not married, I want to marry you. "
Dai Suwei said and hung up the phone quickly, suppressing her own heartbeat. She didn't know that Qu Yifan at the other end of the phone was also sleepy.
The next day, I met Qu Yifan in the company. Dai Suwei pretended that nothing had happened, but almost knocked over the coffee on Qu Yifan's desk when delivering the documents.
After work at noon, Dai Suwei received a message from Qu Yifan with only three words: I'm sorry.
Dai Suwei sighed, which was the expected answer. She had guessed that he would refuse her. Even though I was single at that time, it was an indisputable fact that I didn't love her, so I wouldn't even give her a spare tire.
A month later, Dai Suwei resigned and left Shanghai to return to Nanjing.
Qu Yifan sent a WeChat to Dai Suwei, but still apologized. Dai Suwei only replied, "There is no right or wrong and debt in love", ignoring Qu Yifan.
After returning to Nanjing, Dai Suwei found a new job and worked as a teacher in a training institution. Although the salary is not as good as before, her heart is slowly settling down.
Although menstruation often talks about his love and marriage, he has introduced several blind date partners one after another, and then it goes away.
Qu Yifan will go back to Nanjing during the holiday. At this time, Dai Suwei will try to avoid meeting each other.
She still can't pretend that nothing happened. Some things, once started, are hard to end. Qu Yi is a hurdle in her life, no matter how long it takes, it is difficult to get over it.
Until one time, two people met in the supermarket. Dai Suwei just wants to avoid it. Qu Yifan stopped her. He asked her, "Why have you been avoiding me?"
Dai Suwei said, "Because I am embarrassed to see you."
Qu Yifan didn't say anything, since the childhood, he was most ashamed of her.
On April 20 16, Dai Suwei quit her job in Nanjing and went to Lijiang alone. Originally, she just wanted to travel and find a new job, but unexpectedly she fell in love with Lijiang. This relationship lasted for several months.
If Dai Suwei's aunt hadn't called to say that she was ill, Dai Suwei might have stayed in Lijiang for a long time.
The plane arrived in Nanjing at seven o'clock in the evening. As soon as Dai Suwei got out of the airport, her mobile phone rang, and a strange number in Nanjing was displayed on the screen. After Dai Suwei answered the phone, when the other party spoke, Dai Suwei's head was a little hypoxic. It's Qu Yifan.
Before Dai Suwei could react, Qu Yifan came up to her and said, "I'll pick you up."
Dai Suwei was still in the dark until Qu Yifan moved the suitcase into the trunk. "So you and your aunt teamed up to lie to me?"
Qu Yifan spread out his hand. "No way, who told you not to answer my phone, not to return to my WeChat and hide from me for so long?"
"Then why did you come to me?" Dai Suwei is somewhat helpless.
"Come and marry you, didn't you say you would wait until I was 30?"
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Looking at Dai Suwei's innocent face, Qu Yifan couldn't help laughing. "Do you know why I don't promise you?"
"Because I don't like it." Dai Suwei blurted out.
Qu Yifan shook his head. "It's not that I don't like it, I dare not like it."
Dai Suwei was startled.
Qu Yifan went on to say, "I always thought that love can go far without friendship, because once two people break up, it is impossible to be together." I don't want to lose you, so I dare not start. " It was not until you left that I thought for a long time to understand that if you all want to lose in the end, you might as well choose to be together. "
After Qu Yifan finished this passage, he fell into a long memory.
After Dai Suwei left Shanghai, Qu Yifan stayed at home and played games every day after work for a while, and didn't go anywhere. Just like breaking up with your first girlfriend in America.
It was also during that time that Qu Yifan began to think about his relationship with Dai Suwei. In his mind, Dai Suwei has long been an indispensable part of his life, not that relatives are better than relatives, but when she fled from herself, she vaguely realized that it was not just relatives, but also the love and admiration between men and women.
After learning about Qu Yifan's blind date, Dai Suwei didn't know that she was drunk in a pub.
In those later days, Qu Yifan heard many girls tell herself that some were gorgeous and romantic, and some were simply moving. He only remembers what Dai Suwei said to him in the middle of the night, I will wait for you until you are 30?
Many people are like this. You have to lose it to understand your heart.
After Dai Suwei left, Qu Yifan felt that his life had lost more than a little.
When Qu Yifan said this, Dai Suwei seemed to see herself and Qu Yifan more than ten years ago. At that time, they had not experienced parting and missing.
"I thought I couldn't wait for you."
Dai Suwei's voice was very light, but it was still heard by Qu Yifan.
Su Wei, marry me. Qu Yifan suddenly magically took out a ring box.
Dai Suwei was stunned for a long time. "Is this it ... too soon?"
Qu Yifan picked his eyebrows and covered the ring box. "Don't forget."
Dai Suwei quickly reached for the box. "How can I take back the gift for others?"
Qu Yifan conveniently held Dai Suwei in her arms, and both of them calmed down.
For a long time, Qu Yifan murmured, "Don't go in the future, ok?"
"Well, don't go, don't go anywhere, it's right next to you."
At that moment, all the thoughts and regrets intertwined in their lives left one after another. Lonely people crowded together. Wechat official account Josie Qiao ID: Josie Story