Deep blue, an intellectual woman and writer, with the support of her husband and daughter Qi Xiaoyu, rightfully extended her hand to her ideal lover Qi Xuanqing, hoping that he could end his marriage in name only.
Qi Xuanqing also really loves deep blue. He and family of origin have lived for 20 years, and everyone has been struggling in pain. Unfortunately, although his original partner was a sick patient in bed, he no longer had love with Qi Xuanqing, but in the face of Qi Xuanqing's desire to leave, he chose to commit suicide, leaving a heavy mental and moral burden on the living.
This makes our readers unconsciously look back and re-examine their family background and personal current living conditions.
After several years of reading, I have a deeper understanding of the female writer's description of love and the pursuit of pure love by the hero and heroine. What should women want? This is a question that many people have to answer all their lives, and it is also a multiple-choice question with different answers.
China people pay more attention to emotional expression and advocate the golden mean. For example, "I live at the head of the Yangtze River and you live at the end of the Yangtze River; I don't see you every day, drink the Yangtze River water. " But even the high-profile expression that matches the fiery love and emotional firmness is full of aesthetic feeling.
From the Book of Songs, we already know the declaration of free love of "My Fair Lady, Gentleman is Good", and the oath made by women in the "Evil" chapter of Han Yuefu folk songs is equally touching: "I want to know your husband and live a long life. There is no mausoleum in the mountains, the river is exhausted, there is Lei Zhen in winter, and there is rain and snow in summer. Heaven and earth are in harmony, dare to be with you! "
In Qu Yuan's Songs of the South, the image of Shan Gui is a girl who is passionate about her lover. She happily goes to an appointment, but she doesn't see her sweetheart. She complained in her heart that she was entangled, but she still seemed to excuse her sweetly: "I'm sorry for my son's forgetfulness, but I can't be idle."
However, the times have changed. In contemporary society, living in a modern city, facing the reinforced concrete urban buildings, more and more people seem to no longer pay attention to the inevitable connection between marriage and love, but just live, while others don't seem to need it. Some people choose their marriage partners according to the matching degree of conditions, while others consider nothing, including feelings. Now it seems that people who choose to enter marriage purely for love are rare. The only living condition of many people can be summed up in the following words: maintenance, numbness, indifference, injury, no longer considering their attitude towards marriage, and perhaps the inevitable influence of family background on their children after becoming parents soon.
However, at this time, Pan's novel Andrographis paniculata quietly made people realize the particularity of family structure-home should be a place of love.
Just like this, this work has been published for nine years, but it has entered the readers' hearts more and more. This is the charm of Pan's Andrographis paniculata.
Cleverly expressed the theme and connotation of the work.
Shen Lan's boyfriend and close friends of the opposite sex have been evaluated and displayed in her simple family writing life. Readers watch Shen Lan's material life rise step by step with his own personal efforts, and Shen Lan can't wait to stay away from his family. She feels that she can only rely on herself, work hard on code words, and novels are published one after another, gradually bringing more and more sense of security to herself. She bought a house and her career was in full swing.
It is precisely because of deep blue's high popularity as a female writer that she has the experience of working abroad with Qi Xuanqing. This experience ended the night before returning to China. Two people get along closely and relax on the lighthouse, and both of them feel the taste of love.
This seemingly innocuous love finally made Qi Xuanqing's wife commit suicide, and Qi Xuanqing left home to heal. On the contrary, the daughters of Deep Blue and Qi Xuanqing, Qi Xiaoyu, are increasingly affectionate with the support of * * *, and live together every weekend, like a pair of unrelated mothers and daughters or sisters.
Deep blue feels that she wants to help Qi Xiaoyu, because the cruel life is not just a chicken feather to Qi Xiaoyu, but this sunny and transparent girl has become the spiritual pillar of Deep blue when Qi Xuanqing hides and heals herself. This beautiful girl puts adults to shame in many places. I have to say that Qi Xiaoyu's rationality, tenacity, beauty and health are so rare and pure in the face of some thorny problems.
Gorky once said: "If a writer can extract the most representative class characteristics, habits, hobbies, beliefs and speeches from the bosses, officials and workers of hundreds of small shops, and then integrate them into the bosses, officials and workers of a small shop, then the writer can create a model in this way-and this is art."
Deep blue, a female writer in Pan's Andrographis paniculata, is an out-and-out talented woman, a stay-at-home woman and a leftover woman. She is a typical intellectual woman who lives on code words. Such an intellectual woman can become a good friend of IKEA, and it is not easy to become an older woman. She is generous and harmless to her friends. Even in the most difficult time of her life, her manuscript could not be sold, and she was at the end of her tether. My ex-boyfriend flew to Europe to travel abroad, asked her to borrow 500 yuan, and she also gave it, and then decided not to talk to her until he came back.
An intellectual woman like deja vu, generous and decent, and deep blue, "I never wanted to spend a man's money." Deep blue, a newcomer in the workplace, desperately saved money until she decided not to go to work and write at home, provided that the savings could support her through two years without work and income. So such a woman is independent, beautiful, and unconsciously has a sense of superiority that she doesn't even know. Unless you meet someone who loves her, you can usually live like a princess.
Auricularia auricula is the person that Deep Blue once loved. She is crazy about buying him presents, which are the best things she sees. "Armani suit, Saint Laurent shirt, dozens of Italian and Japanese ties, all kinds of famous brand belts, and the best leather shoes I can see ..." While shopping for auricularia auricula, Deep Blue felt happy and grateful because of love. Even many years later, because of the injury caused by breaking up with Auricularia, Deep Blue only accepts gifts, and she doesn't know how to buy gifts for men or how to pay for them. Seeing good things, she still felt it was a pity that she could never buy agaric again.
This contrast shows that Deep Blue really loved Auricularia auricula at that time, so she was in a hurry to pay, and because she was affectionate with her children, she was full of happiness when she paid. But Auricularia auricula doesn't love deep blue, or he is a loving lover. Sooner or later, there will be problems in getting along, so it is not surprising to break up.
In this common mode of getting along in real life, who can say that the author is not digging deep into human nature?
The self-exposure of Mint's homosexuality is surprising. I think his move hurt his self-esteem. However, after seeing Shen Lan living with him as boyfriend and girlfriend for four years, Shen Lan bought a house with his pure personal income without thinking about telling him, which made him feel that there was no love between them, so he broke up. Deep blue felt guilty and thought that she had hurt him. I didn't expect this mint to finally have a conscience. She volunteered to write and tell me that she was gay. She is waiting for the right time to leave her, which also solves the doubts in Deep Blue's heart and avoids the punishment and demanding of Deep Blue in the long years to come.
Qi Xuanqing is a typical middle-aged man living in Shanghai. He likes deep blue, and both of them have a rare feeling of soul singing, but Qi Xuanqing still avoids deep blue. For a middle-aged man like Qi Xuanqing, it seems more important to maintain the stability of life and the original appearance of the family. But he still can't hide the joy and happiness in his heart. The whole person looks radiant, but he was discovered by his daughter Qi Xiaoyu. Qi Xiaoyu's follow-up is not to blame, but to see his father's illness getting worse and worse, so he wants to help his father and aunt Shen Lan with his innocence and purity. She even said to Shen Lan: I only passed the Shanghai exam in college. I will take care of my mother and you will love my father. We will all be fine.
However, the situation suddenly changed, and Qi Xuanqing's wife committed suicide by jumping off a building. Qi Xuanqing can't get rid of his guilt. He couldn't face it, just walked away.
Literature is human studies. The plots in literature all come from life. Many plots and scenes written in Andrographis paniculata are actually familiar to us, or deja vu. After all, love and friendship play an important role in everyone's life, but everyone looks at emotions from different angles and weights, leading to different endings.
Many stories in the book are calm and seemingly uneventful, but in fact, the parties either have to face a life full of holes and persevere, or self-anesthetize themselves and comfort themselves, saying that most people's lives are the same, and self-deprecating love is actually just a fresh hormone. ...
It is in this narrative that gradually opens with the personal experience of the female writer Deep Blue that readers often get lost in thinking when they look at countless trivial storylines that seem to happen around them. Especially the influence of family background on personal emotions has been recognized by more and more adults in recent years. In the process of reading, readers will naturally be moved and rethink the close relationship between their family composition and emotion, which is the significance of the existence of literature and art.
In contemporary life, the so-called success and fame and fortune are too tempting for people. For these reasons, there are few people who can "a gentleman loves money and takes it from the Tao", and the idea of sacrificing one's life for righteousness advocated by ancient books is extremely pedantic, so the impetuousness and anxiety of the whole society are obvious. Just like a distant relative of Deep Blue's father in the works, he is still unmarried in his early forties. Deep blue's father asked him, "It's time for you to get married! What's the matter, until now? " Deep blue's father's question is well-intentioned, but he probably doesn't know how much influence his marriage and family situation has on his daughter's deep blue.
The distant relative opened his mouth several times and closed it again, as if he had a great grievance, and then replied loudly: "Cough! I don't know what happened. I also want to get married, but it's not hard! " This answer made deep blue's parents and her laugh. The following sentence is: "If I remember correctly, this is the only time our family laughed together."
This is the blood of the deep blue family. Why do marriages like parents exist? Don't you love each other and spend the rest of your life together? However, many people in society don't know this, just like Qi Xiaoyu later asked Shen Lan: What would happen if she lived with Uncle Dou Sha? Xiao Yu said, maybe they won't communicate as deeply and tacitly as her father, but as the hostess, Deep Blue will be safe, able to control the situation and save effort. In fact, this may be the marriage that Deep Blue needs as a woman.
What she said made Shen Lan very sad. At first, the child seemed to be the only one who supported Qi Xuanqing and Shen Lan. Now 19-year-old girl seems to see that after the failure of her father's love with Shen Lan, her view on marriage and love has become particularly realistic. Shen Lan felt very sad and sorry. However, in fact, many contemporary people think that marriage doesn't matter, such as "I have lived with anyone" and "this guy is good, with a house and a car"
But they don't know the taste of love, and they don't know that "losing a person who loves wholeheartedly can't be recovered." That's not a disease, that's death itself. Part of you is dead. "These people who have nothing to do with marriage and love are alive, but in fact, the part about love has never lived, which is even more tragic.
Pan's narrative in Andrographis paniculata is relatively calm, more like the narrative style of current online novels, which combines the hot words that people pay attention to in the real society, and also adds the deep blue first person's life sentiment of one build what did not build. This narrative style is different from that of traditional omniscient and omniscient novelists, such as Mo Yan's "Red Sorghum Series" novels and Wang Anyi's academic writers.
Naturally, Pan, a doctor of literature from a scholarly family and editor of a literary magazine, as a first-time female writer, seems to have nothing to compare with these writers in this literary journey, but this difference actually caters to the needs of readers and society.
Just like the coexistence of Manchu-Han banquet and fast food in the catering industry, in Pan's works, the real marriage and family life is very alarming, and the picture sense appears from time to time, which is very clear and cold.
For example, when Deep Blue was a child, his father was in a particularly bad mood, and eating New Year's Eve was very picky and disgusted. My mother said, "... don't be picky about eating ready-made. After a busy day, my daughter also made a selfish attack on her father, shouting, "Dad, don't eat if you don't want to!" How can you be so selfish! "Facing the reaction of mother and daughter, my father lifted the whole table without hesitation. A pot of boiling duck soup poured deep blue on her daughter's face. On the way to the hospital, my daughter thought that if she was disfigured, she would commit suicide.
This picture is reminiscent of many similar social news scenes, and it also proves that my father is like a gloomy tyrant at home and my family is like his slave.
Looking at these cold words, I imagined a girl growing up alone in such an environment, watching her mother secretly bear the care given by her father because she felt sorry for herself. The girl Shen Lan vowed not to get married and have children when she grew up. Isn't the family and city at this time the reinforced concrete forest in the eyes and hearts of desperate girls?
Later, Deep Blue was suddenly surprised to find that some of her classmates' parents were very loving, harmonious, affectionate and willful. At this time, Deep Blue knew that love is an unspeakable pleasure and tacit understanding. Deep blue felt that she and her mother were really miserable and unlucky, and even cried in the bathroom for a long time and couldn't get out. This painting is like a hand-painted picture several meters long, which is simple and easy to understand and easily move people's hearts.
Literature should be "a hundred flowers blossom". Shouldn't a flawed life like this be expressed in this narrative way to inspire more people to think? Therefore, Pan's Andrographis paniculata is not only a novel with extramarital love stories as the main performance object, but also allows many readers to see their own inner trauma, so as to decide whether to completely cure or muddle along in the future and sprinkle salt again and again.
"Beautiful scenery is hard to find, more like running water."
Suddenly I remembered the digression in the movie "Big Fish Begonia": "All living human beings are a huge fish in the sea; At birth, they set out from this side of the sea. Their lives are like crossing the ocean, sometimes meeting and sometimes leaving ... When they die, they go to the other side and go to their own world. "
At the end of the novel, Deep Blue saw Qi Xuanqing, who paid at the cashier's desk in the bookstore, standing in the same place three meters away, staring at the disappearing figure of her beloved, waiting for everything in her body to churn and slowly settle down. ...
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I am a "ten-mile lotus pond", recording and sharing a beautiful life with words.