Everyone doesn't like changing flowers, some avoid her, some insult her, and even insult her, but as a member of the village, everyone must accept her existence.
Gai Hua walked around the village with a big bag on his back all day. The wax gourd hanging on the wall, the corn piled at the door, the green cucumber and the red tomato in the yard will all be secretly put into the bag by her. Of course, when she met the gray family, someone hit her with a stick, and she protected her head with one hand and the sack with the other; Sometimes it's a dog, barking wildly. She ran away screaming, running too slowly, and her thigh was badly bitten by the dog. She would never let go of the sack, as if to protect her life.
When I met a kind family, I sighed, "It's that slow woman again, poor thing, forget it."
I don't wash my face or comb my hair. My hair is more messy than my henhouse. I have cornstalks or naked oats on my head. I can't see my face. I'm wearing a broken sweater and a broken cotton-padded jacket. The cuffs are so black that you don't even wear pants. I feel like I'm going to fall at any moment.
Some people pity her, so they send her rice, cornmeal nests, and put flowers into their baby sacks without hesitation.
"Hey, the sack is full of soil, and the goods are goods." People exclaimed.
We often meet Gai Hua, and children are particularly snobbish. When they saw Gaihua in rags, they threw stones at her and spat, but Gai Hua just ran away. Sometimes she will smile and chat with us. She is obviously stupid, but she has an amazing memory, knowing which child's name and who her parents are.
"You are the third child? I am your mother! "
"How old are you? What grade are you in? "
"10? You are the same age as our family Zhiying. "
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According to my mother, when my grandmother was young, she worked as a wet nurse for the flower changer for a few days. When she met her parents, she called herself "sister-in-law". In principle, I should call her mother. But I don't want to admit this sloppy and stupid mother. She often talks to me, but I avoid it.
One noon, after school, we went home with a sack. Her eyes are glassy, one foot deep and one foot shallow. In summer, she wears a big and unseemly sweater, and the red autumn trousers are dirty and loose, which makes her look uncomfortable.
At noon, the sun shone brightly on her, and all the people who worked in the fields went home one by one, riding bicycles, carrying hoes, driving donkeys, pulling mules and leading cattle, and passing through Gai Hua one by one. In the scorching sun, Gai Hua has a small shadow, but he is bloated.
"Change flowers, where are you going?" Someone stopped and asked with a smile.
"Oh ..." Gai Hua looked up and saw a familiar face in the dazzling sunshine. She smiled shyly and said, "I went to my mother's." Then hold the sack tightly and walk away in a flurry.
Several students saw Gai Hua's unkempt appearance, spat at her and ran away in disgust. I don't care about changing flowers. She smiled at the children.
Walking, Gai Hua suddenly stopped, her eyes became anxious, and she began to run forward. I followed her curiously and saw several children pushing and shoving, mixed with familiar cries.
"Go away, we won't play!"
"Your mother is an idiot!"
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Zhiying was pushed to the ground by several children and was crying.
"What? What are you doing? " Gai Hua shouted, looking terrible. The children dispersed in a hubbub, and Gai Hua pulled Zhiying up.
"Eat, eat." Huahua took out the dusty steamed bread and oatmeal from the sack, paused, patted the soil on it, and handed it to Zhiying regardless of the grass on it.
"Mom!" A little girl younger than me ran out of the door, her face flushed. She was the second daughter, Zhixia who changed flowers.
Zhiying wiped her tears, wiped the steamed bread with her sleeve, broke it in half and handed it to Zhixia. Zhixia saw the steamed bread flashing and immediately grabbed it and ate it. Watching children eat instead of flowers, godless eyes sparkle, as if they were not so ugly.
Although Gai Hua was not the kind of woman who was particularly alert, Gai Hua later became crazy. Gai Hua is the daughter of Shan Yan village, my grandmother's village. She is several years older than her mother and the same age as her sister. At that time, no one was poor, but compared with ordinary girls, the day of changing flowers was more bitter. Gai Hua died when I was three years old. Gai Hua's mother took Gai Hua and her two sisters, Xinghua and Bianhua, and married in our village, Heigtava Village. The mother who changed flowers is not a good woman. After she got married, she had four children in succession. When you are old, you have no ability. It is a problem for seven children to have enough to eat. When Huanhua was six years old, she followed her parents to work in the fields, feeding pigs and herding sheep, pulling weeds and collecting dung. She is the dumbest of the seven children because of her inflexible mind. Sometimes her parents said that she didn't understand for a long time and was beaten a lot. She doesn't like dressing up, her clothes are always tattered and her hair is always in a mess, which inevitably makes people look down on her, even her brothers and sisters. She envied other children's playmates very much, but the heavy work soon made her forget her loneliness, slept wearily every day and started working as soon as she woke up.
However, Huahua grew very smoothly. 18 years old, she is married, and the man is a dead man. It was her most beautiful day, with her hair neatly combed. I'm wearing a red cotton-padded jacket, a small red flower pinned to my chest and a string of red beads on my head, and I smile at everyone.
"Oh, change flowers and get married!" Men and women always play a joke when they see the change of flowers. Gai Hua has a vague desire in his heart. This marriage started a new life, and she was finally no longer lonely. The shabby cave, the warm heatable adobe sleeping platform, and the change of flowers sleeping in a bed with a man made her feel that she had something to rely on in her life.
Men have very low expectations for flower change, they can cook and have children. If the family was not too poor, no one would take such a woman in. Although sometimes they lose their temper, most silent and honest men are not bad to their wives.
Changing flowers will make simple meals, one meal and one bowl of noodles. Whether it's delicious or not, men can eat hot things when they come back from the fields. It's not easy to change your brain, but your stomach doesn't live up to expectations. You gave birth to a son in your first child. Relatives are carrying baskets and eggs, and everyone is boasting that flowers will be born. It was the first time in her life. Huahua feels that she is valuable in the eyes of others. She worked hard and gave birth to three more children.
Watching four dolls running around on the ground, I can giggle for a long time.
Four children have brought a heavy burden to this family, but the man who changed flowers is not afraid of suffering. He planted dozens of acres of land and worked in the fields year after year, and the children could hardly eat.
Zhihua's eldest daughter, Zhiying, is the same age as me and was born in 1986. However, one of us grew up in school and the other grew up in other places, so our lives parted ways. Zhiying said that when she was a child, she felt that going to school was not good, and she didn't feel that farming was hard. But now, being illiterate, it is difficult to go out, and she is eager to know a few words, so life will not be so difficult. I thank my parents every time I think of it. Even though I borrowed money everywhere, my sister and I were sent to college.
Gai Hua's family is very poor, and all four children grew up in the fields. Only the eldest son successfully went to primary school, but a bad news interrupted the successful road to study, and also made Gai Hua embark on a more tragic fate.
On the 25th day of the first month of 2000, the flower changer drove the mule, packed the car and went back to the cylinder room to send charcoal to his mother. At the entrance to the village, the mule was frightened when he saw the tricycle, which overturned and the flower changer was pinned under it. There was no one at the entrance of the village in the first month, and he died.
I didn't cry when I sent a man away.
"I'm not smart after all, and I don't even know how to cry." With the help of relatives and villagers, the man who changed flowers has also been buried.
It's just that one person was suddenly missing from home, and that person suddenly disappeared. I don't know what to do if I change flowers.
She can't farm, and she knows she is incompetent. What should I do?
It is easier to change her mind. She can't solve this complicated problem. After four children will depend on her, she can't afford it.
During that time, regardless of the children, she walked around the village every day and didn't go home until it was dark. 15-year-old Zhiying and his 20-year-old brother, with their younger brothers and sisters, are crying for their mother.
People say it's crazy to change your mind.
Zhiying took her mother home and prepared to cook, but Weng Li had no rice and no noodles in the bag.
"Mom, I'm hungry." Zhixia still doesn't understand. She just shook her hand and said over and over again, "Mom, I'm hungry."
This meal, the family simply ate a pot of corn paste. Zhiying is sensible. She can't sleep at midnight. Looking at the sparse starlight outside the window, she felt deeply scared. What should she do tomorrow? Relatives are hiding from this house like the plague. It's not spring yet, and it's far from autumn. Will they starve to death?
It hurts to watch children cry when they are hungry.
The next day, Mad Flower wandered around the village as usual, but she was carrying a bag in her hand.
There are good people in the village who come from time to time to help, change flowers and starve children to survive the spring.
When summer comes, Gai Hua takes Zhiying and Zhixia to steal things in the fields. She puts beans, corn and pumpkins into bags as long as they can fit in her stomach.
It was Sanhan's father who looked after the fields, grabbing the bags again and again, but there was nothing he could do. She is a fool.
"Don't steal from others next time!" Three sweat Torre charged.
But next time, change the flowers and steal them.
People are more or less tolerant of Lengzi. However, changing flowers is not tolerance for yourself. She knows that it is not enough to eat. The eldest son won more than 20 and is going to marry. I am too lazy and my family is poor. No one will marry victory, and I can't even afford a dowry.
I don't know who paid attention, so I asked someone to find someone in the village and said that I could apply for a minimum living allowance by changing flowers.
Go 20 miles instead and apply for subsistence allowance in the village.
Standing in the courtyard of the village commune, Nuo Nuo, who was passive in Nuo Nuo, carefully put forward his own ideas.
"You can apply for subsistence allowances? Get out! " Township cadres 20 years ago were different from now, and their shelves were bigger than the emperor. I heard that most of the subsistence allowances at that time were distributed to relatives of officials.
She was scolded for the first time.
In the evening, she casually found a haystack to sleep. The next day, she came again.
"Roll, who let the goods in? Drive out! "
She won't leave when people scold her. She had lunch at noon. She's starving. She saw steamed bread in the canteen and grabbed it and ate it.
How can village cadres stand her smell? This time, she was dragged out.
On the third day, she still came.
"Ah, this crazy woman zha again? Quick, quick, get out! "
"Don't give me a minimum I don't go, I don't go! My child is starving, I won't go! " She didn't go anyway. At noon, she had dinner. She rushed to the commune canteen, and when her black hand stretched out, every steamed bread caught a black mark.
This time, she was beaten out, and a group of men punched and kicked the poor crazy woman.
"The afterlife, hey, you're right. Fight hard and kill my aunt. I don't want to live long ago. You better kill me. Four dolls are gone, and so are the dolls. Better kill our whole family. Let's go and see the devil! "
No resistance to change flowers, curled up on the ground, endured the pain, crying about the injustice of fate. The young man who hit her dared not do it.
What if you are really killed?
The village leaders discussed it, but in desperation, they gave this crazy woman a low-income household.
Finally, she can get money every month. Although it is not much, she feels that there is still hope in life. She wants to save money to marry her son.
Wisdom won a total victory. The two children planted 60 acres of land and worked hard in the field day and night. They turned to flowers to raise chickens and sheep, which is a sideline. In order to live an ordinary life, they changed their lives and spent their whole lives.
Zhiying/Kloc-got married at the age of 0/8, and Zhixia/Kloc-went to restaurants in the city to serve food at the age of 0/5, and the children gradually grew up. The family finally got through the most difficult time.
Change flowers to tell everyone: victory can be diligent. Tell victory a daughter-in-law. I have saved some money.
On the day when the wedding was successful, Huahua smiled sweetly and was happier than when she got married.
Victory daughter-in-law is like changing flowers, a little mentally ill, but the expectation of changing flowers is very low. She can cook and have children. The victorious daughter-in-law gave birth to two grandchildren to peanut and laughed from ear to ear all day. Victory also put all the enthusiasm into the work, so that the two children have food, clothing and school, and never follow their own footsteps.
After getting married successfully, I just caught up with the tide of working and went out to work. He does everything, helping people herd sheep, moving rails and bricks, and resisting cement on the railway ... Now, Shengli works in Fengzhen Sun Ferroalloy Factory.
The second son didn't farm in the village, but also went to Fengzhen to work. She moved to the city. Both daughters are married. She thinks she is stupid, but she is also a successful mother.
"Ah, I know everything in my heart. What will the children do if I don't pretend to be crazy and steal? If I don't go to the village repeatedly, if I don't haunt that township cadre every day, people won't give me a minimum living allowance. You said that now my son has a wife, I am worth it! " Every time I see my mother, father and third aunt, Gaihua holds hands and talks endlessly. A few days ago, Sanyi opened a shop in Fengzhen, changed flowers and often went to the door to start washing himself. She wants to tell people that although she is a little confused, she is not stupid or in a daze, and finally she doesn't have to lose her dignity for a meal.
"Well, I don't think it's embarrassing to change flowers. People have brains and courage. " Third aunt often says this, but Huahua heard her praise and laughed so hard that she couldn't find her eyes.
"You come to my sister-in-law's house to see, FengZhen big. I don't know what a street is. It's on the street anyway. I am afraid that I will admit my mistake. I have hung three pairs of red autumn trousers on the post at the door. You must come! " One day, my third aunt and my mother met her in the street. She is very enthusiastic. She said that she rented a small house and cooked for her second son. She showed her the way carefully and invited her mother to visit.
"I saved some money. Can you say that 50,000 can marry a daughter-in-law for the second child? The second boss (Wumeng dialect, divorced woman) is also ok. Our family conditions are not good and we can have children. " Change flowers and ask Third Aunt eagerly. Third aunt said she would interrogate with torture. She seemed to see hope and was very happy.
However, fate did not care for this miserable family, and a car accident once again tore up the simple exchange of Hua Meng.
At 8 o'clock on the morning of August 27th, he got off work after a night shift. He was riding an electric car on National Highway 208, and a dump truck came head-on. The driver didn't see the victory, so he dragged the electric car and Victory directly into the bottom of the dumper, and the whole leg and hand of Victory were crushed.
In the hospital, the victory of amputation of all left limbs is still dying. All the savings were only 50 thousand yuan, and the marriage of the second son's wife fell through. She cried and prayed that God would bless her eldest son and not disappear from life again like her husband, leaving two young children and a mother who was delirious.
After amputation, the wound was infected and the catheter was broken, so another round of operation was needed. Relatives and friends have borrowed everything they should, and the savings of the fourth brother's children have been hollowed out, which is still a drop in the bucket.
"Hey, turned out to be a bunch of poor relatives. All borrowed, 50,000 is not enough, and the operation needs 300,000. " Changing flowers is really desperate. For the sake of her son, she once again put down her hard-won dignity.
"Huahua went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to find relevant departments every day, and she wore a vest and cried on the ground. Hey, it's useless and nobody cares. " Mom said.
She doesn't know the laws of the country, and she doesn't know which departments in China can help her. She can only make trouble without reason, pretend to be crazy and sell stupidity, and get a dirty look, disgust and disgust.
In fact, many times, we don't know that there is a painful story behind every crazy behavior. She is too old to support two grandchildren, and her daughter-in-law is sicker than herself. She's scared. The panic of her husband's death many years ago once again gripped her fate, but she couldn't give up and was still struggling in despair.
Note: This article is true. Some things may be different because I can't remember clearly, but they are generally true. Changing my love for flowers for my children makes me cry. She has paid something that ordinary people can't pay for her four children, and that is the most precious dignity. Some people say she is stupid, some people say she is stupid, some people say she is crazy, and others, such as my third aunt, think she is brave and resourceful. In any case, this love is true and great.
It has been two months since the car accident. I didn't hear about it until I went home on National Day. I wrote this story. My aunt, who is a bit silly in changing her life, has been working hard all her life, that is, she is eager for her children to live a normal life and her sick mother to give her children normal love like a normal mother. However, she is really in pain. No sooner had her life improved than she had an accident. She has suffered too much. I don't think she is afraid of these sufferings. Now her only hope is that her son will survive. Live, even if you only have one leg, you can talk to her. She has lived and died. Although she was shocked, her fear was deeper than ordinary people and her love was stronger than ordinary people.
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