Sometimes, people can’t help but fall into some negative emotions and become dependent, especially sadness.

Before I went to bed last night, I don’t know whether it was because my eyes were swollen from crying after watching "Ghosts" or because I saw the trace in space again. I was immersed in a kind of sadness. in the mood. It doesn't hurt, I even feel a sense of security. Everyone needs a place, a kind of support. At that time, it was like relying on sadness, feeling lonely but having someone to rely on. Everything was calm, and even wanted to keep oneself in that state. With this mood, I let myself fall asleep quietly.

When I got up in the morning and had breakfast, I felt as if the lingering lingering feeling was still lingering. I remembered that there was a bottle of wine in the refrigerator. Watching the show, the short happy ending seemed to be unable to make people get over the tears. Close the curtains, feel dizzy and calm, and it really becomes a dream, so does the TV series, and so does myself. When you wake up, you will find that the past is the past after all.

When I woke up, it was almost four o'clock. I was groggy and not clear-headed. My rational mind told me to cook a meal for myself and restore my condition. Let’s make a dish. Prepare a pork rib soup in the pot. It’s a recipe I had planned when I came back last night.

A sense of ritual, setting the table and having dinner. After packing, I took out the winter clothes from the suitcase. It has been really cold in Guangzhou these two days, so I packed the wardrobe into the suitcase and tidied the wardrobe again. There are more and thicker clothes, but the space seems to be larger. I made a patchwork skirt for my washing machine out of two skirts I no longer wore. The dust on the balcony was really too dusty and it didn’t look that good, but I was still satisfied with it. I don’t know why, but I thought of my grandma and mother at this time.

I had just finished making the skirt, and the soup was ready. I set the table to have some soup, and it felt very comfortable after drinking it. After cleaning, I tidied some things on the floor, wiped the mat, and mopped the floor. It was rare for my back to sweat in this weather. The moment I came out of the bathroom after washing the mop, I felt that the floor was so clean that it shone hahahahahahaha. Maybe it's an exaggeration, after all, I procrastinate once every three or four days at most, so my mood may be different.

While mopping the floor, I had boiled water, cooked a medicine pack, and soaked my feet comfortably. Then I took a shower, applied a facial mask, and leaned on the bed, using an instrument to simply beat my back. There is no need to say or think about anything, just sort out one thing at a time and let yourself heal slowly in a calm mood.

Therefore, don’t let yourself get trapped in an inextricable emotion. That sense of security may slowly swallow up the sunshine in our hearts. In the days to come, don’t drink alcohol but drink soup. These words seemed to give yourself no way out. You must drink wine, you can drink it when you are happy. When you are sad, it is better not to drink. Drinking will drag you deeper and deeper into that emotion. Drink more soup. A warmer stomach will make you feel better, and a fuller stomach will make you feel more at ease. and contentment.

Take good care of yourself, wish you and wish me good night!

———Written at 22:53 on December 5, 2020, the massage just ended