There is a small shop by the clouds, and there is an old lady in the small shop. The old lady is waiting for her grandson to come home.

Liu Shisan was born in Yunbian Town. He is the grandson of Wang Yingying and the heir to the small shop. The grandfather and grandson accompany each other and run a small shop to make a living.

There is always a scene like this in a small town: Wang Yingying picks up a broom and chases Liu Shisan down the street, cursing "you little bastard" while chasing. When he was in elementary school, Liu Shisan decided that he would definitely stay away from Wang Yingying and leave this mountainous place.

Since childhood, Liu Shisan has carried a sacred notebook. In fact, specifically, it cannot be regarded as a notebook, it was just pieced together by him using manuscript paper. Just because Liu Shisan will do his best to fulfill whatever is written in this book, this book has its own unique meaning.

The first page of the book is the words left to him by his mother who left far away: Don’t be playful and study hard. When you grow up, go to Tsinghua University and Peking University, go to work in a big city, find a girl who loves you, get married, and live a happy life. Starting from the second page, Liu Shisan wrote down his plan in childhood, line after line, like a poem that will never be finished.

Liu Shisan is very self-disciplined, not as self-disciplined as he should be at that age.

He has been very diligent and planned since he was a child, and knows what tasks he has to complete every day. However, his college entrance examination score made him understand a truth: It turns out that many things in the world cannot be solved only if you have a plan and perseverance. Did it.

Later, he went to an ordinary school and fell in love. After graduation, he found an ordinary job. Later, falling out of love and losing his job made him fall into the lowest point of his life.

Liu Shisan, who had been clamoring to stay away from Wang Yingying and live in a big city since he was a child, got drunk with two pots of rice wine from Wang Yingying and drove him back to Yunbian Town on a tractor overnight. Liu Shisan didn't know how the thin Wang Yingying carried him and the heavy luggage while he was drunk. What he didn't know was that Wang Yingying had advanced liver cancer at this time.

There is a line in "Returning Back": Ideals urge people to move forward, relatives pull people to look back, and then we spend our lives traveling back and forth between the front and our hometown. It’s just that Liu Shisan did not travel back and forth between his hometown and the frontier. From the day he left, Liu Shisan wanted to stay forever in the beautiful big city that his mother had described to him, ignoring that there was an old man in his hometown. Waiting silently for him to come home.

After returning to the small town, Liu Shisan still had to leave for the big city because he had a bet with someone else to sell one thousand and one insurance policies within a year. This is Liu Shisan’s responsibility as a man. As a matter of dignity, he must make a profit in this bet. If he loses, he will be nothing.

Wang Yingying supports him in keeping his idea, but Wang Yingying's only hope is that Liu Shisan can stay and proposes that he can also start business in the small town. Wang Yingying, who has always been resolute and strong, has her own fears. She is afraid that she will have to walk alone in the last part of her life. She is afraid that her grandson will have no home without her. She is afraid that Liu Shisan will wander the world alone. .

Death is the outcome that everyone will reach. It is not the most terrible thing. The terrible thing is that when you are not prepared for death and there are too many worries that cannot be let go, life is counting down. .

Later, Liu Shisan did not leave.

The town is still bustling, Wang Yingying will still chase Liu Shisan with a broom, and the fragrance of Liu Shisan’s favorite dishes will still waft out of the yard.

With the help of Wang Yingying, Cheng Shuang and Qiuqiu, Liu Shisan achieved the policy goal, but at this time he no longer cared about this number. The most important person in his life, the one who said there was Wang Yingying, who had a home in her home, left forever and could never come back.

The last words Wang Yingying said were: Thirteen, Xiaoshuang, you must live well and live beautifully.

The small town at the foot of the mountain seems to be hidden in the mountain, covered with the sky and covered with clouds, quiet and gentle. Yes, gentle. Wang Yingying left, and Liu Shisan was sitting on a recliner in his yard, thinking about Wang Yingying in the sky. Liu Shisan hoped that Wang Yingying could still chase him with the broom and scold him loudly.

Yes, he misses Wang Yingying, very much!

Close the book and this story ends.

For a long time, I couldn't calm down. The grandmother named Wang Yingying reminded me of my grandma, who stayed in their hometown all their lives.

I was not there when grandma left, so I didn’t see her for the last time. I heard from grandpa that grandma passed away peacefully. The disease had tortured her for many years, so it was a relief to leave like this. Adults say that grandma has gone to heaven to enjoy her blessings. I am willing to believe this.

It has been more than a year since grandma left. To be honest, I rarely thought of her during this time. Sometimes I feel that I am a little ruthless and cold-blooded, and my concern for my loved ones is so indifferent, as if it has passed by. I only suddenly think of it at a certain moment due to some related things, but it is not what I imagined. So sad.

I think it’s because I don’t love my grandma enough. Because the relationship is not deep enough, the memory is careless.

Logically, I should love my grandma very much. She accompanied me throughout my childhood. My brother and I have been left-behind children since elementary school. Our parents worked outside and our grandparents took care of us.

At that time, my grandma would prepare three meals a day. She would make delicious buns and potatoes that we would never tire of.

Maybe it’s because I always feel that my grandma favors boys over girls. She has been partial to my uncle’s son since she was a child and always treats her younger brother better. This is also a fact recognized by everyone, so no matter how long she has been with me, I Nor can I devote myself to love. There is always a thorn in my heart, firmly inserted there, reminding me that "grandma doesn't like you, she likes my brother."

People are so stubborn sometimes. Once you decide on something, it is difficult to change your impression of it.

Later, I entered junior high school and started boarding, and went home once a week; I entered high school, and my studies were stressful, so I went home once a month; I entered college, and the distance was further away, and I went home once every six months. . As time goes by, I go home less and less frequently, and I interact with my grandma less and less.

When I left home, my grandma didn’t tell me that she missed me, and I didn’t tell her that I missed her. I don’t know if it was because we really didn’t want each other, or because we couldn’t express ourselves. and people who show their emotions.

But all this is meaningless, because grandma is gone and she will never have the chance to say this in person.

I still remember last year, when I was getting closer to the land where my grandma slept quietly, my heart gradually became heavy. I didn’t know what to say, but I always felt that I wanted to say something. A pile of loess, a monument, the desolation all around, the silence of the mountains, and a mat in my heart. I wonder if grandma will feel lonely here.

After staring in silence for a long time, the words "Grandma, I'm here to see you" slowly came out of my mouth, and tears fell unconsciously. I always thought I would never cry. At that moment, I discovered that the thorn in the heart of that little girl was no longer there. She was just ignorant and only knew how to care after she lost her.

And now, when I read that Wang Yingying would chase Liu Shisan down the street with a broom, I suddenly remembered a scene from my childhood.

At that time, I was always very playful and played at my friend’s house until I had no sense of time. Every time it's meal time, grandma will shuttle through the village, calling my name and asking me to eat. At that time, some villagers would always say to me, Xiaowan, your grandma is calling you to eat. After hearing this, I quickly ran back. Grandma usually walks around and doesn't find anyone, so she goes back because she knows I must have gone back. When I was a child, I didn't let my grandma worry about it. I had to be scolded by her every time.

At that time, grandma’s call was like a tightening curse, and I was always annoyed by it as a naive person. Now that I think about it, it is actually a very happy thing. No matter where you are, someone will be looking for you and ask you to go home for dinner.

Liu Shisan hoped that Wang Yingying could still chase him with a broom and scold him loudly. And I really hope that grandma can still walk around the village, ask me to eat, and then give me a meal when I get home.

Yes, Liu Shisan misses Wang Yingying, and I miss grandma too.

The real death is that no one in the world remembers you anymore. Death is not the end of a person. Life does not really end until it is forgotten by everyone. Therefore, I believe that Wang Yingying is still there, and so is grandma. They just went to another distant place to guard us from a distance.

Wang Yingying lives in Liu Shisan’s heart, and grandma also lives in our hearts.