Wood rabbit found himself actually very timid. It was the first day of kindergarten. Of course, the word "coward" was not popular at that time.

At that time, the online terms "Er B" and "Stupid Que" were not popular, but when they were spread ceremoniously and became the necessary daily expressions of almost all young people, Mu Rabbit found that these words could fit perfectly on himself.

Fifteen-year-old wooden rabbit sighed sadly in front of the mirror one night not long after the start of high school, saying that the crooked building could be so crooked that the leaning tower of Pisa bowed before her.

As a little girl who has the potential to be crooked when she grows up, the wooden rabbit in her childhood is undoubtedly beautiful and lovely. Big eyes, round and bright, looking at people with stupidity,

Wooden rabbit was very courageous when he was at home. He dared to pile small stools on big stools and steal BearBiscuit from his mother on the top shelf in the pantry. Grandma said that bees have thorns on their buttocks, which stings people very much. She grabbed one on purpose and put it on the back of her hand. The result, of course, was that she was stung and burst into tears. She will also cut her hair with scissors when adults are not paying attention, and finally cut it into yin and yang heads; I followed my parents to the park more than ten kilometers away from home, and I got lost accidentally, and my family was blown up. All my relatives were alarmed and the police came. My mother even has a dead heart, and all the artificial lakes and public toilets nearby have been fished out. But at night, the wooden rabbit walked back by himself, and said calmly that I was a little scared when crossing the road. I lived alone for a long time.

No one can imagine that such a sly little girl is afraid of going to kindergarten.

Wooden rabbit actually created a record in the history of the third kindergarten in Ping 'an community. From the first day he entered the park, he cried all day for twelve days, which was really two weeks. Teachers turned a blind eye from initial patience to final indifference. Other children also quickly classified Wooden Rabbit as an unsociable freak, so the deepest memory of Wooden Rabbit growing up in kindergarten was the wooden pillar in the corridor at the door of the classroom, because she always cried with that pillar in her arms.

Wooden rabbit is a relatively withdrawn child, which has been completely highlighted since she entered the first group in her life.

After six years of primary school and three years of junior high school, Mu Rabbit is also very painful to go to school and can't make friends. Although everyone will eventually learn to face loneliness, wooden rabbits are obviously precocious and eccentric in this respect. She always lives alone. She has never received a card at Christmas, and no one will invite her to a classmate's birthday party. In the class photo, the wooden rabbit always shrinks in the corner, frowning, showing a world-weariness that never matches his age. The only thing worthy of praise is the academic performance of Mu Rabbit. Although Mu Rabbit really wants to choose the latter between entering a key high school and digging a hole to bury himself, real life has pushed Mu Rabbit into the first high school in the city.

The second is.

Wood rabbit thinks that he suffered from open space phobia in the summer after the senior high school entrance examination. She tried every means to avoid going out. The result of the dead house is soaring weight, and other girls are beginning to show graceful curves at this age. Wooden rabbits made inflatable balloons in a unique way. More tragically, because of endocrine disorders, acne has grown all over my face.

On the day when the freshmen reported for duty, Mu Rabbit was rated as the ugliest girl in the whole grade by unkind boys.

It stands to reason that a person who tries to escape from the outside world will not pay attention to the evaluation of the outside world at all, even in the most sensitive girlhood. Originally, Wooden Rabbit really didn't care much about those mean words. If she hadn't caught her eyes as bright as black gems, she could have spent the whole high school as an alien, stuck to her mysterious planet and carefully kept a safe distance from everyone.

The owner of Gem Eye is Fang You.

As a boy, he loves to laugh too much. When he smiles, his beautiful eyes bend into the shape of a crescent moon.

Beautiful as a dream.

Wooden rabbit feels that his heart is almost as big as his body.

Other girls are not blind either. They find Fang You's charm and affinity. They found an excuse to chat with him, talking and laughing, and soon became familiar with him.

"Hello, my name is Wooden Rabbit." Wooden rabbit also wants to introduce himself in this way, but he always doesn't care much about what others think of him. Wooden rabbit suddenly realizes that his looks are scary. If she just walks next to Fang Wei, he will be scared to run away by her appearance. what can I do?

When he got home that night, Wooden Rabbit drank a lot for his parents. "I want to drop out of school!" "

Wooden rabbit's parents didn't even bother to lift their eyebrows. They should read newspapers and TV. Anyway, Mu Rabbit has expressed his strong desire to drop out of school countless times since he understood the meaning of the word drop out.

At first, Mu Rabbit's parents would sit through the questions:

"Why did you drop out of school?"

"I just don't like staying with so many people?" The wooden rabbit replied.

What kind of bullshit reason is this? Of course, we must not indulge it.

"People always learn to integrate into the collective. Learn how to get along with others. " Parents have taught wooden rabbits this way.

Of course, the wooden rabbit is completely deaf. She just wants to be alone and doesn't want to be classified into some inexplicable group. What's the matter? Why should others divide her daily time into hours and stipulate when to study math and when to exercise?

She is a living person, not an ice cube. Why do you have to fix her in a square?

Wooden rabbit thinks it's a pity that her parents can't understand and support her. Why do people have to be assimilated? Must meet established standards. They never explained the problem to her in detail. Maybe they don't know the answer themselves. They only recognize one reason, that is, the eccentric character of wooden rabbits must be polished and corrected.

It's not people who live alone and are independent of the world, it's gods, okay?

"I am already very ugly. I don't want to embarrass myself in front of people! " Wooden rabbit dropped his schoolbag on the marble floor of the living room and sat down on the ground again.

Wooden rabbit's parents looked up at their daughter in surprise. In the past, she was always clamoring to quit school because she thought others hated her, but this time, she felt that she hated herself?

The third is.

The first time I had a close contact with Fang Wei was during my first monthly exam.

The wooden rabbit's seat was arranged behind the square fence during the exam. As soon as the wooden rabbit looked up, he could see the boy's elegant shoulders, naughty tail and even small meat beads on his earlobe. The topic is not difficult for Mu Rabbit, but Mu Rabbit is still fascinated by the exam all the way. She was keenly aware of every cough and scratched her head.

In the last exam, Wooden Rabbit accidentally dropped his eraser while rummaging through his pencil case. Fang you bent down to help the wooden rabbit pick it up, and she brushed it gently with her fingers before returning it to her.

"here." The boy who loves to laugh said with a lovely smile.

At the moment when he came into contact with Fang Wei's sight, Wooden Rabbit felt as if he had seen a meteor passing by. The eraser that Wooden Rabbit held in his palm suddenly gained weight. That delusional idea blooms like a flower in a wooden rabbit's heart. Maybe Fang Yi doesn't hate her as much as other boys. Even, maybe he doesn't hate her at all.

Wood rabbit believes that there are always some very good and kind boys. They are not superficial at all, and they don't judge people by their appearances.

They prefer to pry into other people's hearts.

Fang Wei must be one of them.

Fourth.

Fang, you really don't hate wooden rabbits. But he found that the wooden rabbit always looked at him secretly. Every time his eyes almost touched her, she would quickly close her eyes and pretend not to look at him at all. Besides, this girl's brain is really smart, but she is also very unsociable, with poor sports and looks. I'm really sorry for growing up. Those boys humiliated Wooden Rabbit and said that she looked like a pig, which really didn't mean anything to her.

Fang You doesn't hate wooden rabbits. He just thinks she's funny and weird. Maybe a little sad.

During the autumn outing, all the students were divided into groups in twos and threes, talking and laughing, sharing delicious food, and only Mu Rabbit was left.

A person fell at the end of the queue, sitting alone in the shadow of a big tree while eating.

The island that can only be reached by ferry has beautiful scenery. The girls are all dressed up, and people are more charming than flowers.

Wooden rabbit also specially wore a tweed skirt. Pink blue, very beautiful. It fitted me well when I bought it, but it was tight on this day and my face was sweaty.

I thought I could look better after I dressed up.

"hi."

When Fang You came over and handed over a bottle of drink, Mu Rabbit felt like a cockroach caught.

"Is it hot?" Fang Wei asked.

Wooden rabbit didn't know how to answer with his mouth open. When he moved clumsily, the wooden rabbit heard the crack and the skirt stretched out somewhere. Wood rabbit don't know what Fang Yi has noticed, someone called Fang Yi in the distance.

"Let's play together." Fang Wei suggested with a smile.

"no!"

Wooden rabbit flatly refused to let Fang Wei down, so he had to smile again and turn away.

The wooden rabbit bit his lip and scratched the soil beside him with his hand until there was wet soil under his fingernails. This may be the first time she realized how bad it was not to express herself properly in front of others. Why can't she easily say, "Thank you for the wine. I won't go there, so go ahead and have fun.

Fifth.

After lunch, it is time for free activities. Some students went to the raft together, others went to the orchard. Wooden rabbit saw Fang You and the most beautiful girl in the class walking towards the secluded beach.

There are tall reeds by the river. When Fang You and Yu walked back, Fang You found a wooden rabbit crouching among reeds.

I looked unabashedly contemptuous, but was indifferent to Mu Rabbit's rude attitude not long ago. I smiled and asked, "Mu Rabbit, what are you doing?"

"Catch, catch the butterfly."

Catching butterflies among reeds is really a ghost belief. Fang Wei did not expose the obvious lie of Wooden Rabbit, but still asked cheerfully, "Do you like butterflies very much?"

Before Wooden Rabbit could answer, Mi Fang had been dragged away by Yu Zhengyi. Far away, Wood Rabbit heard Yu say to each other, "Obviously, he is following us. This person is very strange. "

The wooden rabbit felt that he was blushing as fast as being baked on the stove.

"I think I have a crush on you." Yu's voice, full of disdain, just fell into the ears of Mu Rabbit. Meanwhile, Fang Wei replied, "Are you kidding?"

In the sixth place

The wooden rabbit, who was so depressed that it was going to be moldy and grow green hair, finally waited for the end of the day trip. The students boarded the ferry in turn and returned to the main city, and then each took a ride home.

Some parents specially drive private cars and wait at the ferry. Fang's house is. But Fang Wei just waved to his mother sitting in the car, and then caught up with the wooden rabbit walking to the bus stop.

"here."

A white butterfly is flying in a small transparent glass bottle that was originally used to hold plums.

From which girl did Fang Yi get the bottle? He wanted it, but nobody gave it to him. Wood rabbit thought, that Fang Yi to catch butterflies.

"Give it to me?" Wooden rabbit can't believe it.

"Yes, it's easy to catch one." Fang Wei said.

That day, Fang You got on the bus with the rabbit herder. There is no room, they stand together to pull the ring. When the car bumps, the wooden rabbit will approach from the main direction, and she smells the grass and soil mixed with him.

Even though the glass bottle has been tightly held in his hand, Mu Rabbit still can't believe that Fang You actually caught a butterfly for himself.

The wishful thinking that was once buried by the wooden rabbit was seriously resurrected in the heart of the wooden rabbit. Maybe Fang Yi really doesn't hate her at all. Maybe Fang Yi still likes her a little?

Because I couldn't bear to see the little butterfly suffocated alive in the glass bottle, the wooden rabbit let it go that night. She watched it flap its wings feebly and fly away under the starry sky.

"I let the butterfly go." Wooden rabbit finally got up the courage to call Fang you on his own initiative. "But thank you very much."

Fang Wei's laughter came from the microphone. It sounded a little tired, but it was still sweet and warm.

seven

At the end of the first semester of senior one, Fang You gave Wooden Rabbit a Christmas card.

When he was seen by many classmates during recess, he was sent directly to the wooden rabbit.

Fang You doesn't mind being known that he is good friends with a freak like Wooden Rabbit.

He is willing to be nice to this girl. This girl is bullied and rejected by everyone because she is not beautiful and has a strange personality.

Maybe it's just because of sympathy, just like the kind of sympathy when you meet stray cats and dogs on the side of the road. There may be something else, but 15-year-old Fang can't explain it yourself.

When Fang Wei sent the greeting card to Wooden Rabbit, all kinds of voices in the classroom decreased in turn, and finally became silent.

"Merry Christmas," Fang Yi confessed with a smile as if he hadn't noticed the change of atmosphere.

"Merry Christmas"

The wooden rabbit, whose heart was about to jump out of her chest, had a great effort to notice the surprised, puzzled and even jealous eyes that shot at her from all directions.

eight

Wooden rabbit gave Fang You a card that she drew by herself.

The sun is shining, the backs of two fat children are sitting on the green grass, and butterflies are dancing in the distance.

It snowed heavily during the winter vacation, and the roommate asked Mu Rabbit to go to the park to make a snowman.

On New Year's Eve, Wooden Rabbit received a New Year call from his roommate. Fang, look out the window. The wooden rabbit opened the window and poked its head out against the biting north wind. There is a bright lamp downstairs, which is held by a teenager who is on the phone. It is Fang You who lights a cigarette flower. Because it is too far away, Wooden Rabbit can't see Fang You's face, but she knows that he must be smiling, and his eyes are bent like a crescent moon.

She should never meet a boy with a brighter and more sincere smile. She shouldn't meet a boy who is nicer to her. The fifteen-year-old wooden rabbit is so convinced.

So, in the end, Wooden Rabbit confessed to Fang Wei.

I like you very much. I can't believe that I can like another person more than I like myself.

When firecrackers exploded outside the window, Fang Wei looked at this crazy confession message in her mobile phone, completely blindsided.

He can't help being nice to the wooden rabbit.

He doesn't hate her at all.

But that doesn't mean he likes her.

Fang You once saw photos of Jessica Alba's girlhood. At that time, he told himself that his future girlfriend should be at least so beautiful.

nine

Wooden rabbit, you are really an excellent girl. You can draw such a beautiful picture without a teacher's knowledge. Hum songs casually, and the sound is even better than that of nature. You can achieve such good results with no effort. But in the hustle and bustle of the New Year, Fang Yi had to rack his brains to consider enough and gentle refusal words.

It's not that I haven't turned down other girls before. Sometimes Fang Yi just smiled and shook his head, but Mutu always felt that she was particularly weak and pitiful. A lonely girl like her has almost no friends. If she is rejected, she probably doesn't even have someone to cry about.

Fang, you really don't know how to say "no" to a wooden rabbit.

At the end of the winter vacation, Wooden Rabbit sent another short message, "I know I am wishful thinking. People like me should be rejected even if they confess to a toad. I know. It doesn't matter. "

There is a smiling face at the end of the message.

Fang Yi breathed a sigh of relief, finally don't have to make up those hypocritical words.

A few days before school started, Fang Wei imagined with some trepidation how he would behave when he saw Wooden Rabbit, whether to greet him with a smile as in the past, or to keep a distance from him with a cold attitude.

Really wait until the day of school, Fang Wei found that he didn't have to be in a dilemma, because the wooden rabbit didn't appear.

ten

Wooden rabbit wants to transfer to an ordinary middle school, and the other school has promised to accept her, but now the school is still trying to keep her, and has been negotiating with wooden rabbit's parents, which is well-informed in the class.

You can't imagine what kind of revolution Wooden Rabbit had at home, but after two weeks of school, Wooden Rabbit finally reappeared at school under the escort of his parents.

A new round of rumors has been launched vigorously. What wooden rabbit has been autistic, depressed and mentally abnormal, and the school will easily forgive her for being absent from school for so long.

Fang Yi found that it was already dark, and the expression on the wooden rabbit's face, which was rarely as radiant as his peers, became more gloomy.

It's like a small cluster of tiny candlelight has finally been extinguished.

Even if he didn't mean to, he is also the initiator of this situation, right? Fang Wei can't help blaming himself.

But how does he solve it? You can't ask him to say to Wooden Rabbit against his will, I like you.

Come on, he's not a bodhisattva who loves all beings. He is just a kind big boy.

eleven

The wooden rabbit fainted while measuring 800 meters in physical education class.

The teacher was startled, and the students stood around in amazement or pointing. Some people even commented with malicious intent on how she could be so fat and empty.

Fang Wei slammed on the speaker, then bent down and tried to pick up the wooden rabbit. Originally, he really thought he couldn't hold a wooden rabbit bulging like an inflatable ball, but in fact, she was not as huge as he imagined.

How can I put it? The wooden rabbit is actually more like a doll filled with PP cotton.

When Fang You finally picked up the chubby wooden rabbit, he found that he didn't hate this feeling at all. Of course, this is just a momentary idea. Fang you didn't delve into the metaphor behind this idea.

The awakened wooden rabbit was savagely taught a lesson by the school doctor, because the wooden rabbit honestly said, "I didn't have breakfast at all."

"What's wrong with you girls now? Lose weight easily! Is health important? Is school important? Or is beauty more important? Regardless of priority! " Middle-aged female school doctors talk endlessly, and the more they scold, the more angry they get.

"You are not fat, you know a P!" Wooden rabbit suddenly retorted.

Not to mention that the school doctor was caught off guard, even Fang Yi couldn't believe his ears.

"You" are furious and are about to reprimand the wooden rabbit more severely. "Anyway, you should have some breakfast." The school doctor's voice suddenly softened.

Fang You's eyes turned from the school doctor to Mu Rabbit's face, only to find that she was in tears.

twelve

The wooden rabbit couldn't restrain his tears. She doesn't want to pour wine in front of the school doctor, let alone in front of Fang Wei. But she can't. Wooden rabbit remembered her long and record-breaking cry when she first went to kindergarten. In fact, she is really a born coward and can't use a pole. As long as she faces an environment or situation that she can't cope with, she will cry herself into a drowned rat.

But she is not Meng Jiangnv who can cry down the Great Wall. Will Fang You suddenly like her because she is crying on her face?

It will only make him hate her more!

"The fat wooden rabbit is also very cute." Fang You suddenly said.

"I like all kinds of wooden rabbits." Fang Wei went on to say.

thirteen

A few years later, when Mutu and Fang You's class hold an annual party, a classic topic will always be mentioned, that is, the relationship between Fang You, the school grass, and Mutu, the coward.

At that time, both Mutu and Fang You went abroad, so they couldn't attend these parties and participate in this topic.

The wooden rabbits in high school are getting timid, at least on the surface. After the most embarrassing stage of development, the acne left the scene, the weight dropped, and the wooden rabbit gradually became more human. However, with the growth of age, Fang Wei has become more and more handsome, so the difference in appearance between them is still so shocking. So many girls always hold the cruel idea of dragging the wooden rabbit into the dark and beating her up or killing her directly.

Later, Mu Rabbit joked with her boyfriend that if she hadn't given up her good luck in time, she would have lost her bones.

Yes, Mu Rabbit finally broke up with Fang You.

"I like all kinds of wooden rabbits." This is definitely the most thrilling sentence that Wooden Rabbit has ever heard in his life. And nothing else can overcome the shock it left in the heart of the wooden rabbit for the rest of his life.

However, the wooden rabbit knows that this sentence is not true.

Fang You said that only because he was too kind.

He never liked her. At least I never liked her as a girlfriend. Even if she tried to change herself later, she became gregarious, normal and cheerful.

But a boy with a dazzling diamond like Fang You can only be worthy of a smart girl like him.

She doesn't deserve it

fourteen

Fang Yi thought so himself. He said that he liked the rabbit against his will just because he couldn't bear to hurt her.

If he can make girls happy by pretending to like it, then there is no reason why he can't. Anyway, he didn't meet anyone he really liked.

Long-distance running with wooden rabbits in the early morning.

Persuade her to take part in the school singing contest.

Drag her to his friend's party.

These things are not more difficult to do than catching a butterfly when the heat is still hot in early autumn. But the change that happened to the wooden rabbit is so great. Originally, it seems to be a moss-like girl who can only live in a dark and humid place, and there is a little beauty that a teenage girl should have.

Gradually, the boys who used to joke about wooden rabbits most often mentioned wooden rabbits in a more polite tone.

She has become so excellent, all related to him. Every time I think about it, Fang Youxin will be inexplicably filled with a sense of accomplishment.

But that doesn't mean he likes wooden rabbits.

The mood of liking a girl should obviously not be like this.

fifteen

After the results of the college entrance examination came out, Mu Rabbit applied for a school different from Fang Wei.

"Fang Wei, it has never been your responsibility to be nice to me." When the other party asked, the wooden rabbit said this.

The campus that has started the summer vacation is empty. There are only two of them on the plastic track in the playground.

Take off the school uniform, put on the thin chiffon skirt wooden rabbit, looked at Fang Wei with a smile on his back.

"Do you dare to swear that you really like me? Liars can't find true love in this life! " The wooden rabbit gave the cube a difficult problem.

Fang Yi opened his mouth and smiled.

Wooden rabbit don't face, "I knew it."

You can't see clearly Mu Rabbit's expression, but listening to her voice, she doesn't seem to be angry or lost.

"Fang Wei." Wooden rabbit will face back. "You hugged me here once, but I fainted and didn't feel anything. Can you hug me again? " With that, she spread her arms like a bird that just took off.

Although I have been a nominal boyfriend and girlfriend for more than two years, there is little intimacy between my roommate and Mu Rabbit. Holding hands is the limit, and it can also happen under special circumstances such as slippery roads in rainy and snowy weather, or someone accidentally being pulled back by the other side when crossing the road.

It was nearly evening, but the weather was still very hot. But when Wooden Rabbit was really held in her arms, Fang Wei somehow felt a chill in his heart. Because of the height difference, Wooden Rabbit's face just stuck on his chest, and Fang Yi felt a slight shock in his chest. Wood rabbit seems to say something, Fang Yi didn't catch it.

Wooden rabbit took the initiative to step back, and the other party gave a hand. "Goodbye." She said.

Maybe it was deliberate avoidance, maybe it was fate, and they never met again.

sixteen

After entering the university, Mu Rabbit soon made a new boyfriend. When Wooden Rabbit told each other frankly that he was actually a potential hypochondriac, her boyfriend didn't believe it at all.

Wooden rabbit explained that this is actually a congenital recessive disease, just like some people are born with diabetes. She is born with fragile nerves and strange psychology.

My boyfriend still doesn't believe me, saying that the wooden rabbit just loves the cloud mountain fog cover and the address is unknown.

No wonder he doesn't believe that the adult wooden rabbit has become a very cheerful and laughing woman.

Only the wooden rabbit knows, but in fact he has never changed. She will never get rid of her fear of the crowd and her contempt for the established rules, but she will try her best to suppress restraint.

She will try her best to face life with a sunny and positive attitude.

If nothing else, just for Fang Wei. This boy who obviously doesn't love her but is willing to be kind to her at all costs. If there is such a beautiful person in this world, then this world must be worthy of her intervention and participation, rather than deliberately avoiding it.

seventeen

After many years, Mi Fang finally found a girl who meets the standard of beauty in his mind. The girls in the Conservatory of Music, with their lithe figure and better skin than snow, are really like fairies who have strayed into the world.

If Wooden Rabbit has the chance to meet this girl, Wooden Rabbit will say it's her. She is as smart and perfect as Fang Wei.

However, when Mi Fang held the girl in his arms as he always dreamed, his mind crossed the face of Wooden Rabbit. Fang you suddenly heard what the wooden rabbit said on his chest that he couldn't hear many years ago. He still likes you, Fang, and always will.

The pain spread in Fang Youxin's mouth like a crack in broken glassware.

How to really like a girl?

I always feel that she is weak and pitiful, and I am willing to treat her well, help her and love her.