There are many delicious things, and my mother won't let me touch many things. It will always be "when you grow up."
So I always look forward to growing up, wanting to see the answers to those absurd and bizarre questions, and wanting to do things that can only be done when I grow up.
But when I really grew up, I realized,
"Loneliness is a true portrayal of growth."
Near the end of the year, I packed my bags and set foot on the train home.
In the moving carriage, there are children laughing and passengers talking. I feel like I am alone.
So I put on headphones and tried to stay out of it.
Looking back on this year, I feel much faster than in previous years. I am busy every day, but I don't seem to be busy. I seem to be busy with my three meals and four seasons.
For the convenience of going to work, I rented a small house near my company. There is a small bedroom, a small kitchen and a bathroom in the small house.
Although the house is small, it gives me a sense of security.
One night when I don't work overtime, I look out of my bedroom window, and the scenery in autumn is always beautiful. The fiery red sky warms the earth. This beautiful scenery is not like the earth, but like a fairyland.
I picked up my mobile phone to record such a beautiful scene, but I didn't know who to share the photos with.
Looking at the pedestrians coming and going downstairs, there will really be a sense of loneliness abandoned by the world.
I believe many people feel lonely more or less every day, whether in a noisy downtown or a quiet library.
People define a person's going to a supermarket, a restaurant, a coffee shop, a cinema, a hot pot, a KTV, a seaside, an amusement park, a moving house and an operation as the "Top Ten Loneliness Levels".
How about spending the New Year alone?
Just last year, because of the epidemic, I had to choose to stay in Sichuan for the New Year.
On New Year's Eve, I turned on all the lights in the house. There is a happy camp on TV and my own New Year's Eve dinner on the table.
Even one second I was videotaping with my family and talking to people all over the world, but the next second I hung up, and loneliness flooded my mind.
As the lyrics say, "There are thousands of lights, but none of them leave me."
My paranoia is not over yet, and my destination is here.
I pushed the suitcase and followed the people to the exit. The bustling exit made me a little at a loss. I haven't been back for a year, and I feel that everything has changed.
Suddenly, I saw my brother waving, and my mother stood beside him and smiled at me.
Suddenly feeling lonely has nothing to do with whether there are people around you. Loneliness is also the normal state of life, which is no different from happiness and excitement.
"Growing up means signing a decent agreement with loneliness."
In fact, everyone is growing up alone, but so what? Loneliness will not prevent me from having a cup of emerald jasmine with pearls in the next second, and it will not affect my killing in the King's Canyon.
Maybe I will be sad for a little while because of loneliness, but I will be happy for a whole day because of something.
For example, I ordered a delicious fried rice noodle one day after working overtime. For example, I saw a puppy wagging its tail at me on the road. For example, when it rained one day, I happened to bring an umbrella. For example, I get together with my family to enjoy delicious food. ...
I won't remember those scenes that made me feel lonely, sad and sad, but I will remember many happy moments.
For example, my brother is pushing my luggage and chattering with me about interesting things that happened at school. My mother was introducing me to the menu for tonight, and my father drove slowly from a distance.
Whether children or adults, no matter where they are, people are always full of enthusiasm for tomorrow.
Happy will think about what will happen tomorrow, sad will want to make tomorrow come soon, this is growth, lonely but simple.
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Author | Orchestral Cat