My son and I have lived together for three years. The child's mother died of illness, and I never remarried. On the one hand, I lost my longing for love, on the other hand, I was afraid that my children could not accept it. My son is still in kindergarten. Although he has begun to understand, he naturally feels insecure because he has no mother. He cries every day when he comes home from school, and he will feel at ease when I walk around the kitchen.

I have been trying to play the role of a mother for years. When my wife just left, I really hated her. Why did you leave me and a young child so cruelly? But later, I gradually stopped hating it. I understand that hate is actually a kind of reluctance and helplessness. After my wife left, the whole family was in chaos. Later, I began to learn to do housework, learn recipes and take care of children.

Although at the beginning, I was always very clever, not only did I not do my housework well, but I also took it out on my children when I was bored. Even my best job in the past has become a mess, but now I can keep my house in order, and my children have gradually changed from being afraid of me to relying on me. Thinking about me at that time, I really felt sorry for my children. I always vent my resentment against my failure on my children and beat and scold them at every turn. Every time I scold them, I feel extremely distressed.

Many times, I saw a child crying to sleep with a photo of his wife. My heart really hurts. I swear to cheer up and treat my children well. Although my life has improved now, I still feel that I owe my children forever, and no matter how I make up for it, I can't make up for it. Perhaps because there is no mother, the child's heart is very sensitive and sensible.