Kitchen is a novella by Yoshimoto Banana, a Japanese writer. Before that, the words of Japanese writers left me with the impression of depression and despair. This novel gives me a completely different feeling. It is like a beautiful moonlight in a dark cloud, which casts warmth and hope on our hearts.
Meiying Sakurai, whose parents both died young, has been living with her grandparents. After that, grandparents also passed away. Meiying is extremely lonely and insecure. Only in the kitchen can she sleep peacefully. At this time, Tanabe Yukio, who had been cared for by his grandmother, and his mother Keiko took her in. In my opinion, it's always miserable to be dependent on others. Even if it's not like Lin Daiyu's, "36 days a year, the wind and the sword are pressing each other hard", it will certainly swallow a lot of loneliness and grievances. However, Meiying was lucky. She felt the warmth of her family again in Tanabe's family. You should love the energy of Huilizi, even if life slaps you hard every day. In her heart, the seeds of hope were planted.
Keiko, Tanabe's so-called mother, is a transgender. In fact, he was Tanabe's father before he changed sex. When he was a child, something happened in his family and he was adopted by Tanabe's real mother, the family. Keiko and mom, childhood friends. Naturally, when they grew up, Huilizi fell in love with her mother, unless she didn't marry. I ran away with my mother despite the kindness of my adoptive parents! Foster parents, as well as all relatives, broke off relations with them. When Tanabe was very young, her mother died. Huilizi felt that she would never like others again in the future, so she simply had sex-change surgery. I quit my job, opened a nightclub and hired several transsexuals. After Keiko's transsexuality, adoptive parents and relatives heard about it, all gnashing their teeth, and there was no possibility of restoring relations.
originally, like Meiying, Huilizi lived in loneliness, helplessness and misery, but Meiying didn't see any complaints and decadence from her. When Meiying sighed, "Nine times out of ten, life is unsatisfactory, and the future is difficult and difficult, which makes people unwilling to face it", Huilizi seems to love life forever. She always wears exquisite makeup, elegant manners, and exudes touching colors all over her body; When she comes home from the nightclub at dawn, she will always hear her standing on high heels and humming a moving tune; She always waters the flowers and plants in the room with her slender fingers in the package of dusk and sunset.
The bravest person in the world, who I admire most, is such a person. They have experienced all kinds of hardships, helplessness, pain, unbearable and despair in life, and found the truth of life, but they can still believe in themselves from the heart and love life. Huilizi is undoubtedly such a person. She once said, "Some people live in a dark mire, deliberately doing disgusting things to attract attention, getting worse and worse, and finally pushing themselves into a desperate situation. I really don't understand their thoughts. No matter how powerful or tragic they are, they are not worthy of sympathy. I worked my ass off to live optimistically. I am beautiful and moving, and I am radiant. "
Hui Lizi's words won my heart. People who have experienced some hardships and shouted that they have broken the world are the least worthy of sympathy. The so-called "seeing through the world" is just a synonym for escape and cowardice. For example, Xi Chun in A Dream of Red Mansions is passive and fickle, and she always says that she will become a nun. The attitude of another character in The Red Chamber is very similar to that of Keiko. This person is Jia Mu.
As the oldest and wisest elder in Ningrong, Jia Mu has naturally seen countless storms and experienced the impermanence and difficulties of the world, but she still lives in high spirits. She will sit in a small sedan chair when the young students are roasting venison around the stove, and rush over to have fun; She will happily tell you about her childhood fun when she fell into the water next to the pillow Xiage. Jia's mind is more exquisite and resourceful than that of Xi 'an. Does she really have no idea that Jia's family is going downhill? I don't think so. She just understood it long ago, just as Meiying learned from Huilizi: "Although there is indeed luck and misfortune, it is too capricious to dwell on it all day. Although this idea can't alleviate my pain, it has benefited me. Since I realized this, I forced myself to grow up and at least learned to make misfortune and ordinary life peaceful. This makes my life less difficult. "
Meiying is subtly influenced by Keiko. She studied cooking every day and got a job as a cooking assistant. After her life gradually got on track, she moved out of Tanabe's house.
But not long after, there came the bad news of Keiko's death. A man with mental disorder met Keiko in the street and fell in love with her at first sight, so he followed her and found her working in a gay bar. Then, he wrote a long letter saying that such a beautiful person was a man, which greatly stimulated him. After that, he began to soak in bars every day. The more he is so soft and hard, the more indifferent Keiko and the people in the bar are to him. Until one night, the man shouted "Don't treat me like a fool" and suddenly raised his knife and stabbed Huilizi.
Tanabe has finally become an orphan. He fell into the abyss of loneliness, and he wanted to escape from it. He left. Meiying found him through the night. Two lonely and frustrated people found the most touching warmth from each other.
even if there is a high wind, life will never give up. Let's face it together.