Text/Jian Chen Counting it seriously, I have spent more than half a year living without pressure or tasks.
Due to the epidemic, I rarely go out and almost experience the seasonal changes from winter to spring to summer at home. For me, these six months are truly my own time.
I thought I would have enough time to open my favorite books in college, but I didn’t expect that in four years, I would not be as enthusiastic about books and magazines as I was in high school.
Since January, I have gradually collected the books I want to read.
Each book in the "Naples" tetralogy really shocked me by the depth of passion and self-analysis in the author's words.
She did not shy away from showing the complexity of each person in the story, which made me suspect that this was not a novel at all, but an autobiography written by the author using the memories of his own life experience.
Lenon's erudition and ambition, Lina's intelligence and rebellious spirit, Nino's literary charm and hypocritical character, Pietro's scholarly demeanor and arrogance... This is really a novel that has not been overrated.
"Little Reunion" and "The Autobiography of Duncan" are both stories about famous women. They are talented and self-respecting artists who want to leave their works in this world.
Although they live in different backgrounds, the women in the story are often wandering far away, pursuing their love and realizing their own value with all their strength. When they cover up, I admire them in my heart.
Later, I also started writing the first draft of a new novel, Through the Looking Glass.
Since I have no experience in writing outlines, I am always unable to make continuous updates. I will write one paragraph after another, and sometimes I want to revise the previous content.
However, I finally took the first step of writing.
I really found a lot of talented authors online, and I really envy them.
I have always liked psychology, and during this time I also found many tests and scales to understand myself.
I found a MBTI test based on Jung's eight dimensions. The test results showed that I am an INTJ type (introversion, intuition, rationality, judgment), and I also met several friends in the community who were also interested.
I look back at the choices I have made, big and small, and find that I continue to draw closer to my own personality attributes.
The biggest significance of this measurement tool to me is to understand that I don’t need to refer to too many universal standards, but to choose a distance that suits me.
In addition, I know that "leveraging strengths" is more important than "avoiding weaknesses", and I want to spend more time in the areas that I am already good at.
In my eyes, the purpose of MBTI division is not distinction, but deeper connection after understanding the differences.
Taking more time to understand yourself is also conducive to building good relationships with others. I have always had the habit of marking movies I want to watch in my book, and this time is the perfect opportunity to turn "want to watch" into "now watching."
My favorite director recently is Rohmer from France.
He is a writer-type director, and the plot of the story is mainly driven by the dialogue of the characters.
In his movies, young people are always on vacation, in love, and traveling. They are far away from the cruel and unpredictable world, and they always live carefree.
Another reason why I like this type of romance film is that the emotions in the story are so natural and real. It seems that there are no cameras, and the male and female protagonists are just ordinary people around us.
I hope everyone will finally see the green light.
Two other movies that impressed me were "The Hunger Games" and "Parasite."
As class solidification gradually becomes a common problem around the world, the metaphors in these two films allow the audience to gain insight into this unavoidable topic.
The protagonists of the story have challenged the strict hierarchy in their own way, but they have not received the ideal ending, which is disappointing.
Fortunately, isolation during the epidemic has not caused real alienation between people, because there are ubiquitous communication tools.
From the roll call game in Moments that started at the beginning of the year to various online chat rooms, human beings are indeed social and unwilling to stay away from other people.
Not long ago, I received news from friends I hadn’t seen for a long time. Everyone has chosen their city for the next few years one after another, and is about to start a new stage.
It is unforgettable that Sister Xiaobin always comforted me on the phone when she heard that I was frustrated in applying to school. She said that the worst outcome is nothing more than nothing to lose compared to now.
I know that I can't control how things happen outside of my own will, so it's useless no matter how anxious I am.
Hearing a friend's perspective from another perspective can indeed help you to struggle out of the quagmire of internal conflict and look at your own affairs objectively.
I also met a neighbor on the forum who I hit it off with immediately, and they all like the same movies and books.
What was even more surprising was that the other person’s school was only a 30-minute subway ride away from the university where I started school. I was looking forward to meeting someone who was so similar to me.
I have always envied people who can cook delicious food. They can use delicious food to heal themselves, and they can also use delicious food to entertain people who are important to them.
If I want to start learning to cook, I first prepare a series of plates and cutlery. When I see beautiful things, I will think, "Such exquisite plates should match the food."
When I first started cooking, I did everything carelessly. Sometimes I fried the vegetables, and sometimes I spilled the sauce. In short, it was difficult to make satisfactory dishes.
Later, I gradually became more patient with myself. I started by learning how to make the simplest stir-fries, and then gradually learned a few home-cooked dishes.