When wandering in the city, Xiaogang felt that he was a mermaid who stepped into the human world for the sake of ethereal love, endured the pain of his legs and danced on the tip of the knife step by step, generally in this colorful world.

Wandering in the neon light and shadow, wandering in the towering buildings, Xiaogang is a princess who went to sea, but now she is an unknown ordinary person, lying in the rental house outside the Fourth Ring Road, listening to the symmetrical breathing of the girl she shared, and falling asleep silently. Xiao Gang is calculating his salary of 4,000 yuan. Apart from rent, utilities, meals, travel expenses and occasional dinners with colleagues, shopping and clothes, he can also have 500 yuan.

When the city is surrounded by tomorrow's Mercedes-Benz, who can care about the soul with nowhere to put it? People hold high the heads of nobility and poverty, and still struggle for a living in this rumored city.

Many times, Xiaogang is reluctant to look back on his recent life. He hasn't changed a bit. He goes to work and works overtime. Recently, Xiaogang hates this kind of life, and hates this wandering, lonely and helpless life.

The troubles of life, work and emotional dryness make her eager to return to her hometown. She doesn't want to be a passer-by all the time.

So Xiaogang took his annual leave and went back to his hometown with great difficulty. The skin on my mother's face was slack, and the last black hair on my grandmother's head fell off. My father is not at home, my brother is not at home and my sister is at school. I didn't get up to wash up until 9 am. After breakfast, I moved a small chair and sat in the sun with my mother picking vegetables and gossiping.

Xiao Gang's tired body and mind were nourished by the village where she was born. She is already considering whether to go back to her hometown to find a job.

It happened that the children of Lao Wang's family next door got married.

At noon the next day, Xiaogang and his mother went after money together. The villagers who should be familiar with the village became strangers next door, and the dishes served on the table were humbly put into their bowls. Mother carefully put the bones and leftovers around the table into her plastic bag. Xiaogang didn't want to be dissatisfied with her behavior and hurt her face, so she helped her dump the leftovers and fat on the table into plastic bags. Mom is still looking at the bones on the table next door, smiling and telling others: "You put the bones.

Maybe it's because she has to take away a lot of leftovers, and her mother doesn't want to move chopsticks any more, so she tried the newly supplied rice crispy rice and steamed pork ribs with flour. When someone said that no one ate it, her mother scooped out the soup bag in the bowl with a spoon in her trembling hand, and then poured the remaining dishes back into the bag in her hand.

When his mother bent down to the next table to pick up the discarded chicken bones around him, Xiaogang's tears were already in his eyes. Xiao Gang and his mother whispered, "Mom, just let it be. Our dog can't eat much. "

Mother seems to have no self-esteem and usually says, "Do you know how much dogs eat?"

Unwilling to continue arguing with her mother, unwilling to endure this insatiable practice, and ignoring her mother's cry behind her, Xiaogang returned home with mixed feelings, but for an instant she regretted whether her behavior had hurt her mother. After all, her walk away was a silent resistance to her mother's practice, but Xiaogang didn't want to stay in that environment because he was uncomfortable.

Hearing the guests leave the door, Xiaogang saw the scene before leaving. Xiaogang was afraid of the hardships of sitting at the table in the hot sun and picking up bones. She was afraid that any guest would give her a little embarrassment, so she put down her computer and ran away in a hurry. Sure enough, she shuttled between tables, picked up all the soft bottles of mineral water drinks on the ground and carried a big bag. Xiaogang took something and followed her footsteps to continue looking for the baby, but she

Xiao Gang knows what she just did. She was afraid of being looked down upon by others and being embarrassed by her neighbors, so she repeatedly urged Xiaogang to go home first.

After returning home, Xiaogang turned off the TV series played on the computer. She decided to go back. Her hometown is still the original hometown, but we didn't understand it when we were young and looked down upon it when we grew up.

In spirit and words and deeds, Xiaogang has become a wanderer in his hometown. The hometown that can't be integrated will eventually bring you a sense of alienation from Lu Zhen written by Lu Xun. Therefore, leaving, only leaving, Xiaogang's tired spirit will not be hurt. Only by leaving can she change her life one day, not integrate into it. Only leave, only leave.