There is probably a girl like this in everyone's life. She is beautiful, intellectual and humorous. The terrible thing is that she is "beautiful without knowing it" and has zero love history.

Zhiyu is such a girl.

she said, I am really a female classmate without stories. I said that you are too strict with your partner, which is why you have been single. She likes the kind of man who is as gentle as jade.

like Wang Han?

she grabbed my hand excitedly, that's all!

I said she was married.

Later, I took her to a meeting with the author of ONE. I said I would recommend you a man of your type, a college physics teacher, who is very stable and named Lu Ming.

She grabbed my hand again excitedly, that's all!

I said, but he is married, too.

did she say that I was doomed to be alone all my life?

I said, you should be ready to be a lover or a mistress. The man you like, who doesn't overuse social software, doesn't smoke, doesn't drink and only drinks tea, likes reading paper books, is practical, courteous, responsible and loves life. However, such men are generally elderly uncles, and they are all married and have children. After years of baptism, they have been ground into a rough jade from an angular stone.

In fact, there are many suitors around Zhiyu, and everyone is dead set on her, but she quickly discovers the shortcomings of those suitors and then politely rejects them.

Among the general suitors, one is the most infatuated and the most low-key, and has a secret crush on Zhiyu for three years.

In the junior year of Zhiyu, I received an email with tens of thousands of words. The person who wrote the email was Xiaofei.

From the time when Zhiyu was still a freshman, Xiaofei walked into Zhiyu's life silently, being a friend watching from a distance and hiding her feelings.

"The first time I heard your name, Zhiyu, I thought it was a nice name with a special personality. I remember that there were not many names with animals in our class, so I remembered it the first time I heard it, Zhiyu.

then see yourself, white and thin, looking clean and quiet. At that time, you always wore a croissant braid, which was very cute. Once I turned out a photo of a singing contest, which should be when I was a freshman. Your appearance really melted me. Do you remember? The singing contest that was performed in a stuffy and noisy room because it was raining outside. White sneakers are all dirty because of muddy water. Do you remember? "

Zhiyu said that the email had been told to her in an inquiring tone. Xiaofei himself may know that knowing the fish will not give him a clear answer. Xiaofei's inquiry is telling himself that such feelings have really existed. Knowing fish is like a blooming flower outside the window to Xiaofei. Because it is too delicate, Xiaofei can't bear to touch it, but because it is too beautiful, he can't help but touch the cold glass to comfort himself.

"In fact, I really want to avoid using this word to describe your feelings in my mind. I feel that this word has been rotten in the street, and it is not up to grade. But looking around, I found that only this word can describe your position in my heart appropriately and perfectly. Goddess. "

knowing fish is his light in Xiaofei's lush and hazy age. Every time I turn on the computer and chat with the cicada fish, I press the switch of the light bulb. In an instant, life is full of light, and everything looks particularly pleasing to the eye. Many people and things have been completely forgotten by Xiaofei. Because of the existence of Zhiyu, other things have been submerged in her sea of light.

Zhiyu likes reading books, and has become one of the few people who has a library card of Zhiyin Bookstore. Xiaofei was particularly depressed at that time. He was annoyed to think about how Zhiyu was so rich and brought extra-curricular books to school every day. Later, he learned that all the books of Zhiyu were borrowed from Zhiyin Bookstore. Xiaofei has saved money for a long time, and also got an identical library card. Then Xiaofei was promoted to bookworm with honor, and happily exchanged books with Zhiyu. Knowing fish has a strong taste, he always recommends some scary campus ghost stories to Xiaofei. He spent one noon and one afternoon reading a campus ghost story, and was too scared to sleep all night.

in the process of communicating with the cicada fish, Xiaofei can't be himself. Some things Xiaofei clearly doesn't understand, and he will immediately use Baidu to search, get a general idea, and then brag about it. He doesn't want to destroy his image in the heart of the fish, and he doesn't want the fish to feel that he is useless and doesn't understand anything.

Xiao Fei is determined to change in the second semester of her freshman year. He doesn't want to be the one who walked past you with his head down and didn't dare to look directly at the fish. He doesn't want the fish to see him who is not enterprising, decadent and doesn't pay attention to his image. Xiaofei's initial plan was to get his studies up. He began to recite the economic book with graffiti on the pages for a whole semester. At the end of the term, his grades were mentioned in the top ten of the grade, which was not in the state of red light at the door of the first semester at all. Teacher Ke Ren also praised him by name and said meaningfully that "the prodigal son will never change his money". But he knows that it's all because he knows fish.

During the summer vacation, Xiaofei returned to his hometown. On the first night, he lowered his head and lifted his T-shirt, staring at the fat on his stomach and hammered it hard twice. From that moment on, those fats were Xiaofei's enemies. He was sweating and doing sit-ups until his stomach ached. He endured hunger and ran until he coughed. When eating, he waved his hand to his grandparents and said, "I'm full, I can't eat any more." Whenever he wants to give up, Xiaofei thinks about knowing the fish, closes his eyes and thinks that one day he can hold his head up and straighten his waist, and greet the knowing fish with a smile, and he is satisfied.

When I was a sophomore, everyone around Xiaofei thought that he had changed, and it was simply a diaosi counterattack against the male god. A girl in the same class asked him, "How did you become I don't know? You have lost weight, your study has improved, you are not arrogant, and people have become quiet. " Xiaofei wants to say to Zhiyu online, "Hey, come out and meet". But he still doesn't have the courage. He hopes to have a chance meeting sometime and let the cicada fish see his change. Knowing fish won't know that it's all because of her, but Xiaofei wants her to see her confident eyes. Regrettably, Zhiyu has never mentioned his change, and Xiaofei is still cowardly and dare not express his love for Zhiyu. In Xiaofei's heart, the cicada fish is still the goddess who shines all over, perfect and outrageous.

"Maybe I'm nothing in your eyes. I always wanted to climb out of the area of an ordinary friend of yours. But it seems that the fact is that there is no me in the position of a friend, and I am just a passer-by to you. During that time, I watched a lot of movies and TV series, thinking that people in love are just melodramatic, loving each other to death and being scared at the same time. Later, I looked at myself. People in love are just melodramatic.

after that, I figured it out, as if I had put down a heavy burden. There are so many boys around you who like you and care about your friends. What do I regret? I didn't expect anything from the beginning. I never shouted at the top of my lungs in your world, so I shouldn't have thought of hearing an echo. "

That summer vacation, Zhiyu clamoured to go to work, saying that when he grew up, he needed to exercise his ability to survive. Xiaofei asked her where to work. Know fish said, fishing port hotel. Xiaofei asked his father if he knew anyone in the fishing port hotel. Coincidentally, an aunt in the village where they used to live happened to be a lobby manager at the fishing port. Xiaofei said to his father, "Dad, when I grow up, I need to exercise my ability to survive. Please let me work as a part-time waiter." After that, Xiaofei was successfully recruited to the fishing port as a vegetable delivery student.

On the morning of going to the fishing port, Xiaofei was extremely nervous, and he was not so nervous when he entered the college entrance examination. How can I tell Zhifu later that I'm here as an intern? He practiced it many times in his mind-hey, what a coincidence, my aunt just works here, and I just needed someone here, so I came to help.

Contrary to expectations, Zhiyu was not waiting for him at the fishing port. Xiaofei thought that maybe the cicada fish had delayed the time or was not ready to come here. She might come in a few days. As a result, I waited for many days in a row, but I was afraid that she would come and she would not come. Finally, I didn't wait. Xiaofei didn't ask Chiyu why he didn't come, because he couldn't do anything about it, so he just felt at ease as a coolie.

One day, Zhifujia came to the fishing port hotel for dinner, and Xiaofei saw her. He is not hiding, nor is he greeting. Doesn't this show that he came to work for knowing fish? Later, they simply said hello. Xiaofei thought that Zhiyu should have understood her mind and everything was clear. But then Zhiyu chatted with him as usual and didn't talk about this topic again. Xiaofei thinks this is very satisfying. At least when Zhiyu is bored, he can help her relieve boredom, and there is communication between them.

Xiaofei is the one who keeps watch over the fish. He is not worried that the fish doesn't like him and can't see him. He is worried that one day the fish will like others, but he also knows that this day will definitely come.

In her junior year, Zhiyu sent him a message saying that she likes a boy and that boy likes her, but he doesn't study very well, so she has been hesitating whether to stay with him. Xiaofei feels that Zhiyu has five or six exclamation points behind every sentence. He would rather not know about it, and even if he did, he would hear it from someone else's mouth, so that he can leave a thought that this is just a rumor and question it a little in his heart.

The goddess will fly away, and she will be with the right person one day. Xiaofei said, "Then stay with him. This is youth. Don't miss it!" At that time, Xiaofei wanted to tell the fish through the screen that I like you! However, he is too weak, and he knows that even if he says he knows fish, he can't agree.

"In the face of love, sometimes we just exercise sadness alone to imagine the possibility of its existence. The facts are there, and I dare not believe them anyway. When the facts slap you in the face, you will feel pain and cry and say why the facts are doing this to you. "

The number of times Xiaofei contacted Zhiyu actively is pitiful. Knowing fish no longer takes the initiative to contact Xiaofei. Their schoolwork is becoming more and more tense, and each has its own music and tricks, and there is no intersection between them.

time is fast, without head or tail. Xiaofei wants to ask a lot of questions to Zhiyu almost every day. What happened with that boy in the end? What injustice did you suffer at school? Who are you listening to recently? What did you think of that movie? Have you written anything artistically recently? These words were buried in his heart, and even the punctuation was not seen by the fish. Countless problems have condensed into a regret.

Xiaofei tried to make a girlfriend, which was very angry, and he wanted to forget the fish. Xiaofei's girlfriend deleted the fish from Xiaofei's address book. He knew that no matter how to delete it, he could not delete the fish in his heart. Xiaofei took the girl to all the places she wanted to go with Zhiyu before. Go to their park to fly kites, go to the building full of delicious food, go to the music scene and drama, go to the library to study together, and go to the supermarket to buy various brands of chocolate. When Xiaofei is doing this, she looks at one girl and thinks about another girl. He poured all his thoughts on that girl in recent years, which was just an outlet of his feelings.

Xiaofei said that he had never really been himself during the years when he had a crush on Zhiyu. Obviously, I lost to Zhiyu when I was playing the flying car, and it was also said that the video window suddenly popped up and caused the loss. He told a lot of lies just to build a better self in the heart of knowing fish. In fact, when we love someone, we are real, and what we feel eagerly is ourselves.

At the end of the email, Xiao Fei wrote:

"Actually, I should know that you have become my sustenance. The cautious and cheerful mood and the idea of being willing to change for you have long since passed away. Washed away by the sea of time, or crushed by the hands of time, now there is only nostalgia. A flock of geese flew over the sky, and a building suddenly collapsed, which was not as grand as your departure. I miss you in this vastness, and this is the only thing I can do. Know the fish, my goddess, you should always be excellent! Thank you for changing me in those years. Later, I learned that you have never been in love. I am writing this email in the hope that you know that you are not a female classmate without stories. Someone once loved you so deeply that he dedicated his whole youth to you. "

if necessary, I am here, anytime, anywhere.