My biggest feeling recently: I am useless! I'm really useless

Why? Why?

Because in addition to eating and drinking, continue to eat, drink and play happily, collect gifts, there is no burden, no pressure, no work in the eyes, no crisis in the heart, just enjoy the present and live a happy life!

Is this a good state? Very good, I have been pursuing what I longed for, and I deeply feel that living such a life is worth it even if I die. At least I can die happily and comfortably. But after I really feel it, in addition to enjoyment, there is also a little helplessness and despair. Life should not As long as there are no desires and no demands, there should also be hardships and sufferings.

An old saying goes: "When heaven is about to entrust a great responsibility to this person, he must first strain his mind, strain his muscles and bones, starve his body and skin, deplete his body, and mess up his actions, so he will be tempted to endure." , Zeng Yi couldn't do anything. "What he said is true and reasonable. Maybe Sun Diudi has a masochistic constitution. He needs stimulation and freshness, but he is too lazy to put it into practice.

Food can give people a moment of comfort, but can’t you eat it all the time? The physical condition does not allow it, the psychology does not allow it, and the wallet does not allow it. I say that I just want to be a happy fat person, but in my heart I actually want to be thin and beautiful. Zuojing, Sun Diudiu

We agreed to start learning English on the 12th, memorize words, and write sentences. A few days have passed, and the paper and pen are ready, but the English has not been touched. There is still something to supervise. What about my English speaking people? Have I failed you?

In the past month, there have been very few recommendations, interviews, and offers, and I don’t feel guilty about my work at all. I agreed to work overtime on weekends, but I haven’t touched the computer since I came back. I only focus on talking and the kitchen. And paralyzed on the bed. Lazy girl.

Today, Mama Ni asked me to learn Chinese pastry with her, and I agreed without hesitation. Sure enough, I am a layperson. It seems that the next chef, Mr. Sun, will soon be in place. Please wait for Sun Daxian's peerless work, Gaga Ga (?︶?).?.:*

When you are staring at the abyss, the abyss is also staring at you!

This is my second day of running this month. I hope it won’t rain tomorrow, so I can keep running... with long legs, butterfly back, and right-angled shoulders, roaring.

Amitabha, okay