I have also settled down, spending time between school and home at two o'clock every day, formulas and algorithms, friction and glucose transporters, imagine and consciously recite the full text.
?Those times when I was confused were actually the best years when I think about it. When I was a teenager, my life was not good at all. I probably had nothing to do except study. I am extremely envious of those beautiful teenage girls who can wear skirts and all the clothes that I have never dared to wear. Then I look at my face covered with acne and severe dark circles caused by endocrine disorders, poor sleep, and irritability. , where is the most beautiful age for girls. So I have been looking forward to it, it will be better in the future, it will be better when I am 20 years old. I must be very beautiful at that time, the way I like the most, and live a comfortable life.
? When I was in junior high school, I took a summer class. Every time I went to my teacher’s house, I would pass by a store. The store was beautifully decorated, with an old gramophone and lace curtains on the large glass windows. I never went in. But every time I pass by, I will see a green bohemian-style spliced ??sling hanging in the most conspicuous window. It is covered with all kinds of beautiful and wonderful accessories and a thin turquoise chain wraps around the shoulder. At that time, I went to make up classes every day during the whole vacation. Every day when I passed by that store, I would see those suspenders. I kept thinking, wait for me, when I grow up a few years and look better, I can have you. Then one day, I couldn't see it anymore, and a few days later, I didn't see it again. It turned out that it had been sold.
? Yes, of course there are people who appreciate everything you think is beautiful. They are just waiting to be discovered, and that person does not have to be you.
Now that I am 20 years old, I have many beautiful clothes, skirts and various accessories, and participate in various parties and entertainment activities, but I have never seen anything as beautiful as that green suspender belt. .
In fact, after saying so much, I also recalled all my past feelings, just because later I discovered that things are not that simple, and that everything will not get better when you are 20 years old.
The year I was admitted to college, my mother began to teach me how to do makeup, and I also started to lose weight. After losing weight, my mother gave me two beautiful and expensive dresses and a complete set of cosmetics, skin care products, facial masks, and more. I have my first pair of high heels, pink.
I moved into a small dormitory of 6 people, with very little storage space for each person, and I rarely did any housework at home. As a result, the dormitory was as messy as a doghouse, and I went to and from class in a haze every day. After the novelty wore off, I stayed at home watching dramas and eating takeout, and then gained almost 10 pounds.
I suddenly felt that this was not what I wanted and should not be like this, so I started to improve and started to lose weight, run, participate in social activities, read, and write again.
I was 18 years old at that time, with short permed hair and naturally big eyes. I was occasionally praised for being pretty and cute, and I was always secretly happy. After all, I had always been an ugly and fat little girl.
Until now, when I am 20 years old, although there is still a big gap between my current life and what I want, at least I am no longer overly uneasy because I am taking it seriously and trying to improve.
It doesn’t seem right to me to always procrastinate and always think that “life is not only about the present, but also about poetry and distance.” Life is your own. Why should you take it for granted when you live a casual life? There is no need to be impatient, you can take it seriously at the moment, always thinking that it will be fine in a while, it will be fine in a few years, it will be fine if you go to college, it will be fine if you graduate, it will be fine if you get a job, and you will have time in the future. Just fine... nothing will ever really get better.
Unless you start taking it seriously now, there is more to this than meets the eye.
Okay, here’s the hard stuff.
1. Reading
In the previous article, the princess who lost 20 pounds also mentioned reading in her dream. This is something I will never let go of in my life, and it has completely become me. Life habits are things that never require effort to stick to.
I started reading The Little Prince, Gulliver’s Travels, and Aesop’s Fables when I was a child. Later, I started reading Sherlock Holmes, The Count of Monte Cristo, The Moonstone, The House of Nobility, and John Christopher in the fifth and sixth grade. Waiting for a series of classics, because I am young, I always feel that reading classics will not trigger a thunder at an age when I have no judgment.