When I got home, my father was so happy that he seemed to forget my defection and didn't blame me. At first, they thought I would go on vacation, but when they saw my luggage, they knew I was not just coming back for vacation. I didn't find a job and came back very depressed. Dad didn't say anything, but bought my favorite meatballs. I dare not speak, a thousand words, I am silent, afraid of crying. I know they love me as always.

After staying at home quietly for more than a week, I had nothing to do and didn't look for a job, so I had the heart to go again. Once again, I did the same thing and left secretly with my luggage. I told Dong Zi that my parents agreed to know that I had left. Actually, it's not like this. I just sent them a message telling them that I was leaving. I dare not tell the truth for fear of being scolded by Dong Zi. I am always so timid, but so bold to do what I want to do.

I can walk there by myself if I go there again. Walking lightly across the Rainbow Bridge with luggage. Dong Zi still wants me to find a job, but I decided to take the exam at home the moment I left last time, because I knew that I had no one to rely on, and no one could help me, so I had to rely on myself. I came with review materials, reading books and doing problems in my room. I was very serious. Dong Zi came back from lunch every day and had dinner together. I still submitted some resumes, and then I went to a sanitary napkin factory for an interview. It was a good interview and the salary was good, but at that time, I didn't want to have an unstable job there, because Dong Zi's parents opposed that kind of job. Although Dong Zi said he didn't mind, I knew that he couldn't change his parents' mind, so when I came back, I turned off my cell phone because I was worried that the factory would call me to work. In the next few days, I stayed in my room reading books and doing problems. In the afternoon, I went for a walk by myself. There was a square slate on the water in a park, which I especially liked. I walked there again and again, and I felt very fun and happy. A week has passed. I haven't found my job, I have finished the review questions, and the date of the exam is coming soon. Dong Zi asked me to go home to review, and I also knew that I was by his side, and he was under great pressure. So I went home again.

Then, I review at home, and Dong Zi calls me on time every day, which makes me know that I am doing something meaningful like a tonic. I think Dong Zi may know that when I go back, it will be difficult for me to go out again, so he is also very upset. I feel bad in my heart, too. Every day, except for reading time, I miss him every bit, but I have to endure it. Later, I took the village official exam and went to the city, which was very lonely. I didn't want to take this exam, but my father said I would go, so I forced myself to go. The results of village officials are not satisfactory, because I am not prepared at all. When Dong Zi's parents saw the result, they were surprised at me, and the opposition became louder and louder. I don't want to give up. I am more serious about preparing for the next exam. I am sure. Dong Zi is also in a bad mood. I don't know whether he defends me in front of his parents, but I firmly believe that I can prove to them that I am not bad. In my heart, I just added a lot of pressure. Until three days before the exam, my mood broke out. I said to Dong Zi, I'd better give up and part. I don't want you to suffer so much. He sent a message back, ok, I hope I have a good life. I didn't answer him, thinking he was angry. I called him at the door that night, and he spoke to me coldly, with a completely different attitude, telling me that it had nothing to do with me. I cried and even begged, and he calmly and persistently stressed to me over and over again on the phone. My heart hurts so much that I can't breathe. Later, every day, I cried, reviewed after crying, went to bed after crying, took two bites of food after crying, and took a shower after crying. My parents actually know this, but they are afraid to ask me.

On the day of the exam, my sister sent me a message saying, Sister, no matter what, my parents and I have always loved you. Please be happy. I didn't reply. Hide in the toilet and cry again, then take a hot bath and go to the exam. The interview went well, and the written test was not bad, ranking second. After knowing the results, there is a tragic feeling of death without regret. My heart is empty, it is proved, but the result is meaningless. I said to myself.

The last time I went to that city was at the end of October. On Saturday, I ran out and stopped a car. He told me not to come, but I insisted. Here we are. Dong Zi is very happy to see me. Laugh like a child. I happened to meet the food festival, and he took me around the food street. At that time, I was very thin, only bones left, and my smile was full of sadness. I visited there twice, ate something, and bought a big cotton candy, which was as beautiful as a cloud. I held it in my hand and was happy. Later, it was too sweet and I threw it in the trash can. It's a pity He stopped holding me and said that he was afraid of being seen badly, which made me feel sad.

that night, Dong Zi took me to eat spicy powder, and ordered a bunch of dishes. The dishes haven't come yet. He was playing with his mobile phone, so I grabbed them. When I saw those three words, I deeply engraved them in my eyes, and the information department read her name. A hole opened in my heart, and the information was like a sharp sword, one knife after another, rowing relentlessly on my heart. I feel terrible pain. I feel very stupid. He didn't talk, and I didn't ask. The rice noodles came, but I didn't eat them. Drops of tears fell into the rice noodle soup. At that moment, I wanted to go home. How I hated my sincerity in coming here and being humiliated by them. I naively thought I could get him back, but what I found was those. He deleted all my information. Dong Zi only kept her information in her mobile phone. I want to die. I really want to die. It hurts too much to be alive. Let me die, I thought. Dong Zi went back and explained to me that they had nothing to do with each other, and I clearly knew that he liked her, otherwise how could he have kept the information? He couldn't fool me, but I still relented, hugged him and cried. I hate it, but I can't. Who knows, sincere pay is in exchange for parting.

I left there the next day, and I knew I would never come here again, forever, forever. I don't know what kind of complicated feelings I left the city with, but in the car, I cried and sent back the messages that Dong Zi had sent me one by one, and then pressed the delete button in my mobile phone. I knew that I had gone far from him. Although I was so sad, I couldn't stand his changes. It suddenly occurred to me, what he said to me, do you think we are still possible? This sentence appears again and again. I kept crying and crying, regardless of others, until the car drove to the transfer town, I got off the bus, saw the sunshine and stopped crying.

in this way, my fate with this city is over and I am separated from him. Later, when I went to work, I often came into contact with the name of that city. Every time I thumped, I felt a dull pain. After a long time, the pain began to decrease a lot. I went back there several times in my dream. Later, there was a trip through there, and I especially hoped that the car would break down there, so I could stop and watch it again. But when the car went straight and quickly to its destination, at that moment, I understood that I was just a passer-by in this city. But those days there made me strong and made me realize that I could have more energy to do more things. Maybe I will live in another city in the future, but I won't forget the past, the city, and the years full of happiness and sadness.