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The doctor said: "You have thyroid cancer and need to be removed as soon as possible."

I was shocked by this sentence, and my world suddenly became dark. That year, I was 45 years old and running an agency company alone in Guangzhou.

The busyness of life makes me very fulfilled, so fulfilling that I don’t have much time to think about my personal feelings. The busyness of the workplace makes me forget that there is another way to live in life, until my body lights up. I realized that the meaning of life is not just making money.

The heart is beating and the lungs are breathing. It can only be said that he is not dead yet. The meaning of living lies in physical health, emotional peace, open heart, and broad spirit.

Following the doctor’s instructions, I underwent surgery to remove the cancer cells. The surgery was successful and the recovery effect was good. After half a year of recuperation, I sold the company I had run. Since then, I have a lot of money. Leisure time.

I traveled to Yunnan, Tibet, and Xinjiang. The bustle, bustle, and bustle of the city and the tranquility, simplicity, and leisure of the countryside made me start to rethink my life.

My time slowed down. I smelled the fragrance of soil and grass, heard the whispers of nature, and tasted the sweetness of fruits and vegetables. I fell in love with such a life without fighting against the world. .

Back in Guangzhou, I sold my apartment in the city and settled down in a small town. I had a small courtyard and a table, where I grew vegetables and read books. I was very content and happy.

In those days, I hardly went out except to go shopping for daily necessities. I felt that my time was my own and there was no need to share it with others.

My selfishness about time really made me taste the bitter pill. One day at noon, I was reading a book in the courtyard leaning on the pillar as usual, and the phone suddenly rang, it was my best friend.

I answered the phone with a happy face but could not speak. Even though I had thousands of words in my heart, I could not make a sound. I lost my voice.

I panicked. Fear was like a scourge, sweeping over me inexplicably. I was afraid that my world would lose its voice and I would become mute. I have to change my lifestyle, go into the crowd and communicate with everyone.

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The square dance was in full swing. I joined them and became a square aunt, but after living like this for a week, I backed down. The sound in the square was like the roar of a river. Makes me uncomfortable.

I decided to enter the workplace.

I submitted countless resumes and interviewed with more than 10 companies, but all ended in failure.

In the first half of my life, I had a powerful boss in the workplace, but in the second half of my life, I wanted to be a grassroots employee, looking for a job like organizing office documents.

Nine times out of ten, life is unsatisfactory. My interviewer told me that I was more suitable to be a manager, and I was rejected from clerical jobs.

Yes! Clerkship is the privilege of a young girl. Who would want to hire an old man who is nearly 50 years old?

Money is not that important to me. I am not looking for a job to make money. I just want to integrate into a group, so I turned my attention to the operators on the assembly line.

A week later, I got my wish and became an operator. On the assembly line, I met Sister Mei, a person who regarded me as a sister.

The life of a general worker is really hard. I get up at 7:40 in the morning to go to work, get off work at 8:30 in the evening, and only have 40 minutes to eat at noon.

In the days when I was a factory girl, I deeply experienced the feeling of pouring rice. I was busy every day, and working for 10 hours made my back hurt.

After working for 20 days, I finally fell down from exhaustion. My body gave me another warning. My left hand was in pain like a heartache. I originally thought it was because of fatigue.

Sister Mei spent hundreds of dollars to treat me to a massage parlor, but in the end I didn’t get any relief, so I had to resign and leave the assembly line.

Sister Mei often comes to see me. One day, she cooked me a lot of delicious food. The table full of delicious food was very tempting, but at that time, my body and soul seemed to be separated.

I clearly felt like I was floating in mid-air, stepping on auspicious clouds, and my soul was swirling above my body. I didn't eat anything.

I had to go to the hospital again, a place that people are afraid of. After more than a month of treatment, my body recovered.

3

On the day I was discharged from the hospital, Sister Mei took me to her home. She made me chicken soup and other nutritional supplements.

It was also on that day that I met Luo Xin.

He looks like he is in his 50s, talks humorously, is enthusiastic and attentive, we talk about everything, have similar interests and love rural life.

When Sister Mei got up to take me home at 8 o'clock in the evening, Luo Xin stood up immediately. He offered to take me home, and I happily accepted it.

Besides Sister Mei, Luo Xin is my second friend after living in the small town. He often takes me to his farm. It is a very beautiful place. The flowers and plants in the garden make me happy. The mood is extremely happy.

It is another sunny day, the flowers and grass are in full bloom, the insects and birds are singing loudly, the wind is blowing gently, the trees are shaking slowly, and the sun is showing a gentle smile. , everything is so peaceful.

I sat among the flowers and enjoyed this rare beauty, while Luo Xin was brewing fragrant green tea on the coffee table.

The teapot made a gurgling...gurgling... sound. The tea was ready. Luo Xin poured me a cup, and we enjoyed the beautiful time in this world together.

It was also at that time that he talked about our first meeting.

He said: "You are a woman who makes my eyes shine. When I see you, I feel that the world is full of sunshine..."

It was also on that day that we fell in love. , I was fully committed along the way.

Later, I moved into his farm. In the first days, we lived happily, but as time went by, our conflicts increased day by day.

I like tranquility, but he likes liveliness. There are small gatherings on his farm every three days and one big gathering every five days.

The weather in Guangdong is extremely hot. The cleaning up after the party really brought me to the edge of collapse. Our world collapsed in the constant cleaning up.

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I left the first half of my life to the workplace, and the second half of my life just wanted to live a quiet life, but Luo Xin seemed to prefer gathering with his friends.

The quarrel made me re-examine the man in front of me. I found that everything I knew about him before was wrong, and I didn’t know what to do.

One day, Luo Xin’s younger siblings and I got together, and I told them my doubts and worries.

Luo Cheng (Luo Xin's younger brother) said: "My brother is a person who cares about his friends. In his heart, friends are better than family, so being his friend is better than being his family."

Luo Huimin (Luo Xin’s sister) said: “If my brother didn’t care so much about his friends, he wouldn’t be like this today. It’s not so much that he cares about friends as he cares about face. In fact, he cares about face. He is selfish and only loves himself."

The words of Luo Xin’s family made me understand the attitude of the man in front of me towards life. I am a person who can’t afford it.

The next day, I packed up my belongings and decided to say goodbye to my current life.

Before leaving, I said to Luo Xin: "Let's stop here! We are not suitable for being lovers. Our lifestyles and pursuits are different. Being tied together will only hurt each other." .

I returned to my small courtyard. Although I was very disappointed, I had no regrets because I had taken this relationship seriously and worked hard.

The most important interpersonal relationship in life is not the relationship between partners, nor the relationship between parents and children, but the relationship with oneself.

Whether it’s marriage or love, if it doesn’t make my life better, then I would rather live alone.

In my 50s, I chose to start over and live a new life.

The complexity of society makes people impatient and restless. After the age of 30, people are no longer calm. Their careers are not successful, their marriages are not going to happen, and their lives are like entering a black hole, and they are confused.

Meiye Marx said in "My Life":

Always remain enthusiastic about life and never be afraid of the courage to start from scratch! I am the source of everything in life, and I will strive for the happiness and happiness I want by myself!

May we all live our own wonderful lives!