After reading "Unqualified in the World", I always think of a Japanese movie, "The Life of the Disliked Matsuko". I always believe that this movie was deeply influenced by "Unqualified in the World". They are so similar, decadent, poignant, warm, cruel, and beautiful. Ye Zang in the novel, Song Zi in the movie, including me, are all the same kind of people.

In order to gain the attention of others, he has been hiding his true feelings since he was a child. He does not reveal them easily or release his emotions. He always gets along with others cautiously and pleases others at all costs.

This kind of pleasing personality is the fundamental reason for his tragic life. Because his emotions have been depressed for a long time and cannot be vented, he has become extremely sensitive to the world. The slightest disturbance will make him very sad for a long time. , it will cause personality defects.

This flaw is fatal and will make his spirit become decadent, gradually lose his positive outlook on life, become more and more depressed, and even fall into the abyss of depression and embark on the path of suicide. Point of no return.

This kind of negative emotion longs for care, and when projected into real life, it means frantically looking for spiritual support. Whether it is playing a funny role to make people laugh, or trying to pretend to be liked by others, it is all for the sake of it. Get care from others.

When he tries his best to find spiritual support, but reality pours cold water on him at every turn, he will become more decadent and depressed. At this time, alcohol, prostitutes, and drugs will become his support. . By numbing his body, he temporarily forgets the pain of his soul, which will lead to addiction over time.

In fact, his heart is pure and kind. Because of his personality flaws, he had to use material things to numb himself and escape from real difficulties. So, over and over again, we finally fell into an endless cycle of life, unable to escape. When we reached a certain critical point, we had no choice but to embark on the path of self-destruction.

Dazai Osamu exposed his ugliness, struggle, and pain to the sun. This is a decisive force, like drawing an end to a shameful life, making a will, and carving an epitaph. Ming.

The simple, straightforward and almost unconscious narration, so pure that it reaches the depths of the soul, reflects on oneself, and can't help but shudder. That Ye Zang who always pleases the world, that Ye Zang who is often decadent and sluggish, isn't it? Yourself? Thinking of this, I couldn't help but lament my unfortunate fate.

I am not good at dealing with people. Among the crowd, I will always be the person in the corner, taciturn and unsmiling. Being welcomed and sent off, and flattering others are not my strengths. As a result, I was left out and could not blend in with the crowd, which brought a double blow to my career and my soul.

Always deliberately hides his emotions and does not know how to vent them reasonably. Sometimes he cannot control his emotions and bursts out, giving people the impression of a bad temper, which ultimately harms others and himself.

As time went on like this, I became sensitive and suspicious, afraid of getting along with others. Even when I got along with others, it was difficult for me to express my sincerity, and I naturally had very few friends. So, in a sense, am I not "Ye Zang"?

I heard people say that when you are sad, it is best to listen to songs that express sadness. I think the same is true for literature. "Disqualified" is one of my favorite books!

It’s not because of how wonderfully written it is or how profound the theme it expresses, but because of the decadent temperament shown in the work, which is exactly the medicine for me to reflect on myself and heal myself. Who doesn’t have a person living in their heart? Where is "Ye Zang"!

As a human being, I will treat the world with gentleness, and I hope that the world will also treat me with gentleness!