People say couples graduation breakup is a magic spell, I dragged three months or failed to escape ......
My friend went out to work, I forced to pretend two hours of smiling face, in the moment she stepped out of the door of the room instantly collapsed.
I looked through all the chat records when we were together, boring, funny, quarrel, sweet ...... memories a little spread out:
That day Xi'an was raining heavily, because there is no umbrella, I wandered alone in front of the library. You walked toward me and said, "Classmate, you don't have an umbrella? Let me send you back?" You held up your umbrella and nodded your head to me, two small tiger teeth, smiling with a natural and harmless look. I look at the sky, the sky is getting late, the rain does not have the slightest intention to be small, so I can only harden my head and embarrassed nod. You may have realized that I'm too formal, and did not say a lot of words along the way, sent me to the bottom of the dormitory building, then disappeared in the rainy night.
In the evening, I received a strange message: "Hi, Su Meng, I forgot to introduce myself! My name is Zhang Yijie, don't forget to wash a cup of sugar water after getting wet, to drive away the cold!"
This is the first message you sent me.
In the days to come, I would often receive messages from you, meeting to go to the library, rain reminding to bring rain gear, cold days pay attention to cold ...... Later we were together, sending messages changed to boiled phone porridge. However, more often than not, you still like to send messages, you said that later you can give your son to see, so that he knows that chasing girls is not easy, to pampered on the pampered for life, this is the testimony ......
Tears from a raging to the dike.
The eyesight has been down until the page at the bottom of the last "......" number, you do not like to use a period, you said that the period represents the end of everything, and the ellipsis signifies that everything has a chance. But I know, this time our feelings are really over. Because after saying break up you left this city where we lived together for four years, and completely disappeared in my world. Finger on the delete button hesitated for a long time, or silently clicked quit.
The interviewer's phone call, I finally realized that I should go out to find a decent job to support themselves. Out of the neighborhood, out of the door to the left at the first intersection of the first store is our favorite lentil stew noodles, I like the reason is the noodles in the lentil delicious, you like the reason is to install the noodles of the bamboo steamer look good. I said you're a nymphomaniac, and you called me a foodie. The store door still mouth support table, in our favorite corner, sitting a small couple, the boy carefully pick out the fat meat in the girl's steamer, the girl loves to eat lentils one by one clip into the girl's steamer, the girl quietly watched, smile rippled out of the flowers, but I fled from the scene like a thief.
"Watch out! Red light!" The boy frowned as he stood at the intersection, tugging on the girl's left hand.
The girl spat her tongue out and smiled, "It's about to turn green!"
"Look!" The girl turned her head to show off to the boy, who didn't say anything tugging her hand in front of him.
"You have to remember to go to the software park stop sign in front of the neighborhood south, to cross a shopping mall, come back to the stop sign on the right side of the road, later in case I'm not ......" the boy carefully urged.
"How could you not be there!" The girl interrupted with a laugh.
"In case of business trips! Can you listen to the point?" The boy frowned.
"Know! It's south of this neighborhood, across a mall ......" the girl repeated word for word.
......
"What for! Watch the road! Do not life!" The driver stuck his head out and cursed.
I hastily nodded my head to apologize, raised my head has long been in tears, two hours of carefully put on the makeup spent on my face, like a ghost.
I asked myself: why can you start a new life in a strange city in style, but I have to keep in our memories to continue to be tortured by the drops of the past.
So I fled Xi'an and came to this strange city of Beijing alone. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that, but I think I'm going to be able to do it," he said.
In order not to let my parents worry, I began to nervous into the army of job hunting. The buses in Beijing are as crowded as those in Xi'an at the end of the day. The driver braked sharply, and my whole body flew out in front of me, and at the same time as my feet left the ground, I was grabbed by a hand. I looked back and the boy who pulled me nodded to me.
Do you remember the first time we hung out together? I just almost sprawled on the bus in a dog-eared position, and you just yanked me hard, and you said, "Don't stand like that in the future, spread your legs apart and shoulder-width apart, so that you don't fall down easily."
I was disgusted and said, "This is so ugly!"
You smiled and said, with a look of "I can't do anything about it", "Then pull on my arm."
I subconsciously separated the two legs and shoulder width, but the tears blurred vision. The city of the original no memories, but also lived a you.
Today is your birthday, I bought a chocolate-flavored cake, you said that chocolate in your mouth, the heart is not so bitter, birthday this day, you hope is the sweetest moment of the year - there is the most favorite cake and the most favorite me. You said that we will spend all future birthdays together. Make a wish together, do a crazy thing together. That year, we went bungee jumping, I was scared half to death, you carried me all the way back to school from the scenic area ......
I held my cell phone in my hand, pretending to be relaxed, typed a paragraph: "Sleeping to wake up to see that today your birthday, I do not know what you will do this year what crazy things? Happy Birthday ah ......"
Thinking it was not quite right, I deleted it and re-entered it, "Hi! Long time no see! Happy Birthday ......"
Will I see you again?
I thought about it, deleted it and typed only four words: "Happy Birthday ......"
Finally, I deleted the last four words, and also deleted your phone number.
If in the past year and 45 days, I have been looking forward to break up this matter is a dream, then after so long, the dream should wake up. Since the separation, do not bother may be the last thing I can do for you, happy birthday!
I will no longer deliberately pick a flavor of yogurt, and will not deliberately bypass the door of that dessert store. I'm not going to pick a flavor of yogurt anymore, and I'm not going to go around that dessert place on the doorstep anymore.
That day, I came out of the subway, far from seeing the front wearing a white plaid shirt in front of the boys as if you, I grabbed the satchel, ran two steps, jerked to a stop, baffled in place. I secretly laughed at myself: what a fool, how did you come to this city? But my eyes stared straight at that back until he disappeared around the corner.
I came back to my senses, stepped on those 12-centimeter high heels, and went to chase the bus that was just about to start. The bus passed the corner where you had just been, and straining to see past it, there was no longer any sign of you.
I laughed to myself and looked at the location of my heart, so, after all this time, you still live here.
I really can not carry the pressure of the family, participated in a blind date. The boy has the same small tiger teeth as you, smile up two dimples, give people a feeling of warmth. The first thing you need to do is to get a good deal of money to pay for the services you need.
I really can't pick the reason why I don't like him, but I can't find the reason why I like him either.
In the evening, I saw a passage, the author said:
When I thought deeply about it and wanted to enter a new relationship, it means that I brought enough sincerity, it means that I and the past has completely said bye-bye, and I can be fully committed to the present relationship. And this is the minimum respect for the relationship, for the people who accompany me through the next journey.
I asked myself softly: is it really bye-bye? Perhaps from the moment I met him, the answer is already there. The first thing you need to do is to get to the point where you can get to the point where you're ready to go, and then you can get to the point where you're ready to go.
There is a new friend request lying in my WeChat list. It was like a friend request from an ordinary stranger: Zhang Yijie has requested to add you as a friend.
From the first day of the breakup, I was expecting you to send me a message telling me you regretted it and let's go back. But at that moment, I took my cell phone and looked at that familiar avatar and stared for half an hour. You are fatter than before, the skin is whiter than before, now, must be a good understanding of the girl accompanied by your side to give you soup cooking, accompanied by you star dusk it.
Then I did not refuse, nor did I accept, quietly waiting for the request to expire. I can't bear to reject you, just like when you gave me such a bad reason to break up, I was still certain of your suffering and agreed to let you go. But I also do not have the courage to add back to the friend, I am afraid to see once I existed in the position of a new girl; I am afraid to stand in the perspective of a friend to wish you happiness; I am afraid of ......
You got married. A friend forwarded to me the invitation on the bride smiling like a flower, you are full of love. After so many years, I have quit thinking about you on the teary-eyed problem. But when I saw the photo on the invitation, I still couldn't help but cry.
That and I hand in hand for four years, accompanied me through nine years of the boy, married! I remember when we were together I asked you, "If we break up one day, will you marry someone else?"
You gently patted my head with your hand: "I really don't know what you are thinking about in this little head all day?"
"Will not it!"
"Will it!" I said, "I won't let go.
You are full of doting face said: "We will not break up! If one day we really break up, I will definitely wait for you to get married first ......"
Today, you got married! Who says that people who won't make promises are not loving enough!
I wish you a happy wedding! And I, too, can finally let go of my youth and love others well from today!