Records of meditation activities in psychological slimming camp
Exploring childhood memories about eating
Seven years old
It seems that I went to stay at my grandmother's house during the summer vacation: it was a cool summer evening. Grandma's family began to eat around the small table.
that's my uncle's son (my cousin), my grandfather's only grandson.
Grandma can eat pancakes (thin pancakes) dipped in garlic paste, which I liked very much at that time. Grandma just baked a new cake. I put this cake in front of me alone and ate it by myself. It seems that no one is allowed to touch this cake. It seems that my mouth is still saying: My wife gave me this cake, so you can't move it. But my aunt gave this cake away, and she ate one and gave it back to my cousin. (My aunt is only 12 years older than me)
When I saw that they ate my cake, I immediately began to cry sadly. I also reached out and slapped my cousin.
My sister-in-law said that I was overbearing and unreasonable.
Life was unhappy, sad and insecure (because my parents often quarreled, fought and divorced).
The world was unfair.
Thought: That little Vivian thought it would be great if she hadn't come into this world, so she wouldn't have to go through these pains.
Others: Everyone else is very miserable.
I encouraged that little Weiwei
to feel and understand: someone loves me and understands me, and I am loved, relaxed and softened.
I decided to share the cake with them, say sorry to my aunt, and say sorry to my cousin, although I was reluctant to give it up. Because she certainly needs to be loved and cared for like me.
I am an adult. There is a positive motivation behind everything that seems unreasonable. I think I will understand people around me better.
Diet: I will continue to drink corn porridge, but I will take a small portion, control this amount, and concentrate on eating and feel my grandmother's love when I was a child. I want to try mashed garlic today. If my husband thinks that my mashed garlic tastes too bad, I will spray some today.