What kind of girl is ONE Junko?

Twenty years after Junko committed suicide, Jun Tanabe visited five people who had a close relationship with Junko, allowing us to see an otherworldly image of Junko Toki.

When she was young, her strict father and cowardly mother created Junko's cunning and rebellious character.

He also pushed Junko into the arms of his sister Ranko.

When the two sisters were young, Junko could only get a moment of safety and warmth when they cuddled up and slept together. This behavior continued until her sister left home to develop in Tokyo, when Junko would have been 18 years old, which was the age at which she died.

This kind of behavior that has been going on for a lifetime makes people have to suspect that Junko is gay.

When she was 14 years old, Junko fell in love with her physics teacher, but her first love was not reciprocated. Junko committed suicide for the first time: drinking mercury.

Junko's behavior did not restore her first love, so Junko began to wander among various men with a game mentality, using men to achieve her own goals, and then ruthlessly abandoning them.

Every time she chooses a man, Junko has her own purpose.

Urabe turned Junko into a genius girl, Muraki was the boyfriend who blocked her sister from realizing her ideal, Chiba was the doctor who rescued Junko and saw Junko's body, and Nomura was the one who supported Junko when she encountered a bottleneck in painting.

, as for Tamura, he is Junko’s only boyfriend of the same age.

The eighteen-year-old talented painting girl attracted worldwide attention. The extremely high expectations from the outside world destined Junko to be unable to live a normal life.

While success made Junko happy and satisfied, it also pushed her step by step into the abyss of death.

Due to Ah Chun's sensitive nature and her achievements beyond her age, Ah Chun's short life was always threatened by a sense of loneliness and helplessness. In the end, she threw herself into Lake Akan and became the bright red in the snow, and was freed.

As for who Junko loves the most?

I don’t think Junko loves anyone. Junko doesn’t like any man, nor does she love herself, nor will she stand in the way of her sister’s love and future.

Junko loved art most, and she ultimately dedicated herself to art, allowing herself to remain at the pinnacle of creation forever.

TWO There is no doubt that Junko is a sufferer of severe adolescent depression.

This reminds me of Qiao Yingzi in "Little Joy". Although Yingzi is excellent in character and academics and can be called a top student, she is unhappy. Yingzi's depression stems from her mother's strength and the overload of love that her mother gave Yingzi.

Every communication between Yingzi and her mother ends with her mother's words: "I am doing this for your own good" and "I only have a daughter like you."

Yingzi was so wrapped up by her mother that she could hardly breathe. Yingzi liked astronomy and longed for the freedom that the vast universe could bring her.

Yingzi has a dream, but it is different from what her mother expected, and she faces giving up.

After Ding Yiyi jumped off the building, Yingzi finally fell into panic, anxiety and insomnia. He ran away from home and went to Shenzhen, and almost jumped into the sea... A casual search on Baidu will show many cases of young people committing suicide: July 26, 2019

On December 30, 2019, a 22-year-old female college student committed suicide; on December 30, 2019, a 27-year-old beautiful singer committed suicide due to depression; on January 9, 2020, a 17-year-old girl from Fujian committed suicide... Paying attention to the mental health of teenagers has become a social issue

A top priority to watch closely.

THREE There is a very strange phenomenon: when we feel unwell, we openly go to the hospital to see a doctor, but when we are anxious or depressed, we are often ashamed to speak out.

Just because you don’t pay attention to the usual little depression, irritability, sadness, and pain, and always choose to tolerate it, when the negative emotions accumulate to a certain limit and you are unable to adjust, you will develop depression.

Just like a spring being pressed to its extreme, the waiting process for recovery will naturally become longer and longer.

Many patients with depression are outstanding in life. Among all people, they are the favored children of God and the envy of everyone.

Until one day, they developed symptoms and even embarked on the road of suicide. People around them still didn't understand, and even thought they were too pretentious and too fragile.

In fact, if you don’t pay attention to resolving negative emotions, any small thing in life may become the straw that breaks the camel’s back and trigger the outbreak of depression.

FOUR In the first few years when I started working, I was extremely unhappy. The work unit was unsatisfactory and the human relations were complicated, which made me physically and mentally exhausted.

During that time, my life seemed very out of place, and I often couldn't get out of the endless cycle of thinking, "Life has deceived me, or I have been abandoned by life."

The despair in my heart kept searching for a solution again and again.

But when I think about the possibility of living like this for the rest of my life, it makes me miserable.

I used to be afraid of dawn, afraid of waking up, and a dizzy feeling would come over me when I trudged into my office.