Dong Qing is a CCTV beauty host, but all women, basically afraid of aging, few say not afraid of, but also just accept the reality, not really not afraid of aging. For me, aging means a lot.

Young to have unlimited possibilities, I am a running three people, from the end of 2019 from the coastal areas back home in Hubei. Perhaps in the coastal areas, it is normal to find a job at my age, and even as a person who can do sales, copywriting, and customer service, there are very many opportunities to choose a career, but really back to the small city, only to find that age really represents a lot.

The status of being married and not having a child has led to many companies not recruiting me, most of the management of large enterprises are internal promotion, the age of the bottom is 28 capped, the ID card I have 29, so I do not have the opportunity. The few companies that did, either had a lot of overtime or low wages, and in the end I chose to continue on the freelance path.

If the young me feels the future is bright, then as I get older, I am even more confused because I have fewer and fewer choices. I'm not afraid of getting old, but I'm most afraid of getting old and having many unfulfilled dreams that time is too late for.

Despite the age in the increase, but no matter when I come home, I will always be a child in the eyes of Mom and Dad, they will take care of my food, clothing, housing and transportation, in case of trouble, give me advice. It wasn't until my mother died in an accident that I marveled at how fast time flies, regretting that I didn't give my mother enough companionship while lamenting that my father was getting old, too.

Before, I never thought that I would have to face the day when my parents left me, and now, I still don't dare to think about it. I haven't started a family yet, and where my parents are is home, and if they are gone one day, what am I going to do!

Family uncles and aunts used to be at each other's throats, counting on each other, and the death of my mother made them all start to be silent as they had been avoiding age and death. A few years earlier, the village one after another to leave is my grandmother's generation, this is only a few years ah, to my father's generation. In the past, there were many children, but in my father's generation, the youngest was over 40 and the oldest was over 70. Although there is an age gap, but emotionally, it is really hard to accept.

Now I am so afraid of the elders leaving, just because the emotional ties are too much, to my own generation, I am afraid that the ties are even more, think about it all feel terrible.

I am also afraid of getting old and ugly, but after experiencing the death of loved ones, I am most afraid of witnessing others getting old, instead of letting me live a long life is what I don't want to do, but if I can keep my face youthful I would be happy to accept it.