0 1.

Outside the window is the endless sea.

The rain stopped and the rainbow was not far away. It's a long way back to town. I sat in the co-pilot seat and glanced at you to the left.

You have the steering wheel in your hand. You look straight ahead and ask, "Why are you looking at me?"

"Why do you ask such a provocative question? I haven't asked you why you went to the seaside with me. " Naughty reply to the mouth, I suddenly stopped, thought about it, or stopped. "

"No, I didn't look at you." I said hesitatingly.

You smiled, shook your head, freed your right hand to grab my left hand, put it in your palm, and the smile left by your mouth became stronger.

You don't seem to notice the ups and downs and struggles in my heart.

We only met two weeks ago. Oh, no, we met again.

I took a year off from school, returned to my motherland from Seattle, and practiced everywhere to find a way out for myself when I was near graduation.

Temporarily settled in Guangzhou in summer and went to work on weekdays. I will feel at ease when I go to the grandma's beef stall in Fangcun at the weekend, or go to Bao Hua Road to find Chen Tianji's fish skin.

One day, I came out of Guangxiao Temple and was stopped by a fortune teller.

"Patress, your Tang Yin is a pale princess, which is a symbol of good luck."

"Good school?" I asked smoothly, without lifting my eyelids.

"No, look at his face, benefactor's studies will not pick up until next year. Just be kind, that's good. "

After being said, I have begun to believe in evil with my eyes wide open. I quickly asked, "Where is it?"

"Oh, ha ha ha, get married past lives have been settled. Congratulations to the patroness for her bright future. "

"What front, which front? Let's hear it! "

In my bright eyes full of expectation, my divination is unhurried, and my five fingers are faintly stretched out.

"Continue at the edge of Wutai Mountain? Or is his surname Wu, Wu? There is still a five in the name, and the family ranks fifth? "

"Five hundred dollars, that's just for divination. Add another 500 yuan to solve divination. "

"It's so expensive, let's make a 0.25 discount." I said.

The expression of divination is sacred and the tone is serious. "divination is the Oracle of the bodhisattva, and money is also collected for the bodhisattva. How can you bargain with the Bodhisattva? If the patroness doesn't have enough cash, she can swipe her card. "

I watched him unhurriedly take out the POS machine, his chest was in a mess, and he got up to go, but he pulled and shouted that he hadn't paid the bill yet.

There are more and more fingers around me. Just when I was at a loss, suddenly someone squatted beside me, more leisurely than the fortune teller, took out a check, wrote down the account and 500 yuan, tore it off smartly and lit it with a lighter.

"Bodhisattva will receive the check within one working day, so don't bother to do it for you."

Say that finish, the man pulled me up and left.

We walked three blocks together, and then we said, "Great God, thank you so much!" " "You're welcome." "Then I'll go first?" After "Let's go together, there is only one way to the station anyway", I said the first sentence.

I said, "You look like a person."

"Your friend?"

"Not a friend." I said, so I told a story that was not the past.

Two years ago in winter, when I was a freshman, a friend from Weibo passed by and asked me to meet him. He has repeatedly declared that he is not a bad person. If I still feel uneasy, he will bring another friend, and I will choose the time and place for dinner.

So, at six o'clock on a Friday afternoon, I met these two people at the crab farm at the end of the city center.

We wore gloves, smashed crabs with small hammers and chatted. This elementary school classmate who has been brought to Weibo for more than ten years happened to have an interview in Seattle. Perhaps his eloquence is so good that when he went far away, my eyes almost never left him.

I saw a smile on his lips and his eyes projected at me from time to time. Every look will disturb my heartbeat.

I quickly looked away and pretended to concentrate on eating crabs. I felt that he looked away and then quietly came over and ate a pot of crabs in such a cat-and-mouse situation.

He smiled and talked to me, took off his greasy plastic gloves and revealed the silver ring on the ring finger of his left hand.

When I got up, I was in a trance. I heard him ask my contact information, shook my head and said "no need" gently.

At first glance, you won't be a boy who can be friends, so why bother? I said to myself, in Yu Guangli, I saw him take back his mobile phone with a little embarrassment.

I always dream about him for a few days at first, and then the days gradually fade away. But from then on, I became familiar with Weibo's friends and commented on each other when something happened, but I didn't get news from my primary school classmates elsewhere.

Do you remember his name?

"Of course, Xu Liang." I blurted it out.

It was very hot in Guangzhou in the afternoon. The idol felt his wallet like a check and handed me a business card. Justin Xu, a private equity analyst.

I turned my face and looked at him for a while with an expression of ignorance. I said seriously, "It was an accident. I was really not confessing just now. "

He gave a "Oh" and didn't say much. Then, intentionally or unintentionally, I saw him reach out his left hand and touch the bridge of his nose. His ring finger was empty.

Justin Xu, how many amazing gifts in life can I meet you in such a vast sea of people and meet you again?

02.

When the car drove out of the sea and entered the Panshan Highway, the field of vision was suddenly covered with dense forests, and the hot golden sunshine was cut into strange shapes with bright and dark leaves. They bumped into the windshield in clusters, and I stared at them for a while, dizzy and trance.

Do I really want to fall in love with you like this?

How can this work?

The turn is a little steep. You let go of my hand and said you would drive carefully, but you kept turning to me.

"Why don't you talk? What do you want for dinner, go to the cabin for barbecue? "

The cabin barbecued, and my heart was sweet.

A few days later, you invited me to dinner, barbecued in the wooden house, reunited in the temple, and sent me all the way to the gate of the community to say goodbye. You turn the beef tongue over, roast it carefully, water the lemon for a while, dip it in the sauce for a while, put it in my bowl when it is ready, and then put it in my bowl.

I asked you to eat too, and you agreed, but you still picked up the barbecue and put it in my bowl.

Your left elbow rests on the table, your body leans forward slightly, your posture is relaxed and comfortable, and the outline of the light is soft. Every time I open my mouth to talk, the smile that always hangs on my face will suddenly become heavier.

But this time you just laughed and didn't talk, so I asked you what you were laughing at.

"No, I just feel deja vu [memory illusion, French, which has been widely used in other languages, here refers to deja vu], and now this scene.

"That two years ago? You really don't have to tell me so cruelly that you don't remember that dinner. We eat crabs, and you just talk, but you don't help me peel crabs or bake crabs. " I said with an expression of extreme injury.

"For a long time, I have been barbecuing like this, wondering what it would be like if you were sitting opposite. I don't even have your contact information, so I didn't expect it to come true one day. "

I blinked, reacted for a while, and said, "Don't you think you're too early?"

You put a freshly baked beef fillet in my bowl with a smile. "Well, I'll slow down. What do you want to eat next week? I will take you there. "

I shook my head and planned to go to the seaside next weekend.

You put down the baking clip, put your elbows on the table, look at me seriously and say, "I'll take this as an invitation and I'll go with you."

Then, no matter how I scream and say no, you just barbecue and give it to me, smiling and not talking.

I can't sleep at night. I want to send you WeChat, but I'm not satisfied with being too active. I just stopped at the moment when your interface hesitated. You wrote, you said, I can't sleep.

In the darkness and silence, I suddenly sat up and dialed your phone number, happily describing my feelings in the same situation as you.

It seems that when you like someone, no matter how trivial it is, it can be regarded as a great fate and a natural connection.

However, we are indeed destined to be good. I have thought of the sentence in front of Guangxiao Temple for countless times, "The previous life has been fixed, and then the frontier will be renewed", and I secretly enjoyed the spread.

03.

Not far ahead is the toll booth. It seems that there are only three lanes. Seven or eight cars driving side by side began to grab each other's roads, insulting and dissatisfied through the window. We walked slowly for a while, completely stuck in the middle of a pile of crooked cars.

When I turned around, your hand was no longer on the steering wheel. I didn't catch what you said. I looked at you dully and doubtfully.

"What are you thinking?"

You reached out and squeezed my cheek, and your voice was as gentle as your expression.

"I don't know what she is doing and thinking now." I answered.

Then, all my depression and troubles were broken along the way, and I spoke faster and faster.

"It's morning over there, right? She must be cooking breakfast, thinking: I'll remind you not to work too hard later, eat dinner on time and go to bed early. She must be looking forward to your calling her, to your saying that you miss her, to your early reunion with your family, and to your-"

The shrill horn interrupted me. "I'm sorry, I just wanted to get in the way." You apologized sincerely and gentlemanly. I don't think I've ever seen you act like a gentleman. Suddenly, you grabbed my hand, took your foot off the accelerator, turned around and looked at me deeply in the fading sky. Even if you are in a hurry, you are polite.

"These are not the problems you should worry about. Let me take care of them. From now on, let me solve all your problems. You just have to be happy and be yourself. "

You touched my hair and asked me gently, "OK?" My heart began to tremble again. I was trapped in your eyes, and the newly formed ice melted away.

I nodded, don't hurt her when you solve it, I said. Silly girl, you answer, then hook your fingers and wait for me to get close, craning your neck and pecking my cheek.

I punched you to express my indignation when I was eaten with tofu. You grabbed my fist, and I struggled symbolically twice, but I still laughed without anger.

Lights are brightly lit outside the window, horns are ringing up and down, and the sunset glow is spreading around. We are stuck in the traffic, dinner time has passed, but we are not bored or hungry.

But what happened in the waves last night will not disappear.

Moonlight floats on the sea, and the sparkling waves beat rhythmically on the beach. I ran along the waves, and you caught me back in two steps. You take off your coat and wrap it around me. It's windy You said, don't catch cold.

You are wearing a white vest that reflects the moonlight slightly, and bangs look good when blown by the wind. I took out my mobile phone to shoot you, but the phone rang the power-off alarm, so I reached out and said to you, "Take your mobile phone, stand up and pose as Gao Fushuai."

There are too many photos of that day in your mobile phone. We watch the sunrise together, absorb water together, go to the island by speedboat and climb mountains together. The photo is ugly, and you insist that it looks good and can't be deleted. Now I watch them one by one, and I soon get hooked on them.

Not far away, you obeyed and began to shout "I'll laugh stiff if I don't shoot", but just as I pressed "click", the phone rang, which was a girl's name. I ran forward and handed you my mobile phone.

You look at the screen, mute the phone and put it in your pocket.

"Why didn't you answer it?"

You shake your head. "It doesn't matter."

"What's so important?" Standing in front of you, I cocked my head and looked at you with a puzzled expression.

The moonlight shines on you, making you look glowing. The center of light falls in your eyes. You looked at me deeply with them. I want to look away, but you seem to be magnetic, and all my functions are disturbed and useless.

My ears are full of the sound of waves lapping on the beach. Everything is black except you. For a moment, I saw that my eyes as a light source were low-folded, neither fast nor slow. You approached me with a slight side face, and the breath came to my face. I stepped back, turned and walked away.

"You owe me one thing." I said.

You thought for a moment and asked me what it was.

"confession." I answered.

Standing in front of me, you scratched your head, opened your mouth, and opened it again without making a sound. When you said the first syllable, I ran away.

I ran along the waves illuminated by the white moonlight, and the small waves wet my skirt with the beat. I remembered the expression you couldn't see when you stared at me just now, and my face was a little hot. You must be frightened by my aggression. How can I change from a woman to a soft girl?

You shook me off and took my hand, and I walked beside you obediently, stepping on the sparkling Bai Yueguang with you, and began to wander.

You tell me stories, your stories. Since we started two years ago.

You said that you graduated from graduate school two years ago and are interviewing for a job. American companies like to make gifts around corporate culture. When you left the company in Seattle, you got a ring with the company logo on it. You drew the size, put it on your ring finger, went to dinner with your primary school classmates, and met me.

You can't help looking at me, but my eyes are always away from you. You said a lot of useless funny things. You tried to contact for the last time, but you were refused.

In the process of thinking of me from time to time, you completely bid farewell to your student days and transition period. You entered a good private equity firm in the east and met a girl with good conditions. Then the company opened a Guangzhou office to send you there, and your life became boring while you were on the right track.

You finally followed suit and applied for a Weibo account. You found me up there. Every day, you watch me live infinitely. You will be infected by my happiness. Then, even if you have been eager to do different things for different people, even if you don't want to go home and face your wife, you still feel that life is promising.

Your sentence pattern is getting more and more complicated, and it took me a long time to say it.

"Are you married?"

The moonlight hit your face, and you avoided my eyes.

"Well, nine months ago."

04.

My nose is sore. I know my eyes are red.

So I quickly opened the window, turned my face to the right and blinked at the side mirror.

You glanced at me, smiled helplessly and drove on.

The road was clear again, but it was almost completely dark. Street lamps usually light up gradually after they wake up. The road sign is facing the light, and together with GPS, it repeatedly reminds us how many meters are ahead.

"According to this progress, it is estimated that it will take until after eight o'clock to get to the city. Do you still want to eat the log cabin barbecue? " You ask.

I shook my head.

"Afraid of being fat?"

I nodded.

You laughed again. "Then what do you want to eat? Let's go directly. Look at you. "

You start turning into various forks frequently, and the road conditions are obviously more complicated than before. There are lights scattered around with the flavor of hometown, and the urban area seems not far away.

I'm still staring at the dark scenery that is played quickly frame by frame, in a daze.

It seems that you really depend on me.

I congratulate you on your wedding. You just laughed and didn't answer I've been keeping my distance from you the rest of the way, and you're not close. You just remind me to wrap my coat from time to time so as not to catch cold.

I will pass an ancient city on my way back, and I promised to go early in the morning. I'm sorry, but I've made up my mind If you ask me if I'm still going, I'm sure I can't answer.

But you didn't ask

There is soothing music in the car, and you suddenly speak at about one o'clock in the afternoon, and you are still worried. "You haven't eaten much since this morning. Do you want to stop and find a restaurant? "

I shook my head and said I was not hungry. I'm really not hungry.

Suddenly, you backed into the parking space, opened my door and said, "Get off."

I got up and saw the ancient city gate in front of me, and my heart moved somewhere.

The ancient city should be a newly developed scenic spot, with few places and scenic spots, only two pedestrian walkways for tourists to visit and shop, and the rest are still inhabited by aborigines who refuse to move.

These ancient residential alleys are narrow and deep, with their feet on bluestones, white houses on both sides and gray roof tiles on their heads, winding forward with no end in sight.

At first, we walked side by side, getting narrower and narrower, so narrow that we could only stick to each other's arms. I stood up uncomfortably and continued to walk in tandem with you.

Perhaps the drainage system is not good, and there is always water in the cracks of the green slate. Sometimes the interval between the slabs is too large, and if you want to jump, you can't master the rhythm well, and you are all crowded on one stone.

Be careful. You gave me a hug from behind when I was unstable, and my heart was pounding. You are really a magnet. The farther I hide, the more attractive you are.

My heart was suddenly filled with grievances.

The alley is the most remote back alley, and you can hardly hear the noise of the scenic spot. At 2: 30 in the afternoon, even the birds are sparse, and only the shadow of our half-length hiding in the shadow of the eaves is moving. I was about to speak when your cell phone rang, which startled me.

Last night, where the waves met the beach, the girl's name suddenly appeared on your mobile phone screen. My foot got stuck in the gap between the stone slabs, and one of them slipped and fell.

Your five senses are twisted with fear. You quickly squat down, stretch out your hand and wrap me in your arms. Your inner arm leaves me and asks me if it hurts when I fall.

When I opened my mouth to answer, I found myself crying. My voice is a little out of tune, accusing you of "you ruined my long-awaited weekend beach house plan!" " "

You patted me on the back. "Just take a free driver and play with you."

"This free driver makes me cry part-time, which is not cost-effective."

"This free driver who makes you cry part-time also makes you laugh part-time, which is quite cost-effective." You answer.

"Who laughed?" I'm staring at you with my eyes, and I can only cry.

You smiled, and you said, "Crying like a watery little litchi."

"A small litchi that can only be seen but not bitten." I added.

"Well, don't bite." As you said, you reached out and squeezed my cheek, tightened your arms and held me in your arms.

Xu Liang, that's not true. What I'm trying to say is stay away from me What happened to the exit?

You carried me across the alley and into the pedestrian street. There are all kinds of small commodities on both sides. Vendors and tourists are bargaining loudly. They put their arms around your neck and stared at me with red eyes. I'm embarrassed. Please put me down.

The little girl selling flowers is in your way. "Big brother, buy a bunch of flowers for your beautiful sister. Your beautiful sister is more beautiful than flowers. I wish you and your beautiful sister a hundred years of harmony. "

You coaxed the little girl away and handed me the flowers. "Here you are, a beautiful sister who is more beautiful than flowers."

I snorted. Don't overdo it. "It's more beautiful than flowers and not yours," I said, turning my head and glancing at the plum blossom glutinous rice cake cart, my eyes lit up.

You hold my hand and walk forward.

I chewed delicious plum cake, endured the happiness and sweetness that I didn't dare to attack, and finally had an excuse. I tasted the delicious food one by one, skipping. You decided that I was hungry, with a bag in one hand and an idle one in the other, and led me into a small restaurant on the roadside in a good mood.

Grandma Plum Blossom Cake asked you just now: "Is this a newly-married honeymoon for the young couple?"

When you heard this, you turned to look at me. I turned my head shyly and heard you say "hmm". My eyes are full of gentle smiles.

At that moment, I felt as if we were really newlyweds on their honeymoon.

I look at you sitting opposite me, and the sunshine outside the hollow wood carving window is projected on your outline. I want to ask you, "Did you have your honeymoon?" But you turned over the menu for me so gently and told the clerk that I don't eat coriander, and all the dishes don't put coriander. I didn't ask.

05.

It was already dark when the car drove into the city. The flowing neon is in droves, and the sound is endless. You are holding the steering wheel with both hands, and you are obviously driving seriously and nervously.

Shopping centers and squares are one after another. When I passed one of them, a huge digital billboard on the building lit up my face. Then, you asked loudly in surprise, "Why are you crying?"

I didn't speak or look at you. You hold my left hand with your right hand and shake it gently. "It's a watery little litchi. Litchi, have you decided what to eat? "

I shook my head. "Slow down," I said, irrelevant.

I am thinking about our future.

We may quarrel from time to time for different reasons and different topics, but the end result is that you hold me in your arms and make my heart tremble, and I can't remember what is angry and unhappy.

We will hang together every day, go shopping on weekends, eat all the interesting places around Guangzhou, and then go back to America together. I'm going to practice in the East, and you have to show me every inch of land there. Then I graduated and worked, and we settled in new york. I take care of your life, encourage you to pursue your dreams, and don't forget to hold hands and watch the sunset by the water.

As soon as we have time, we will drive to various places. You take beautiful photos of me, and I'll find you to solve the trouble, just like going to today's ancient seaside city yesterday.

Many nights I watched you fall asleep, and then silently wrote down the places we have been and the things we have experienced. In the long future when we are old or even dead, there will always be people reading our stories.

Every frame of my fantasy has you, so it all ends in tragedy.

Yes, there will always be a girl at the end of the scene, hugging you intimately, and you will stand opposite me together. She told me that you are not mine, and you can no longer belong to me.

In the car, you drew a paper towel and reached out to wipe my tears. I opened it.

"Why didn't you tell me two years ago that this was just a souvenir of corporate culture? Why do I have to wait until it's too late to see you again? "

The red light is on and you are about to speak when the green light is on. All you have to do is park in front of a small restaurant across the street. Turn to me, look serious, and hit the floor.

"You listen to me, I believe that things will not happen for no reason. God magically arranged for us to meet again, which implied that it was time for us to make up for everything and correct everything. I have been living with mistakes for two years, but now I won't. If you show up again, I won't let you run away again. I will deal with all the problems arising from this, you don't have to worry. "

The waiter of the restaurant came forward and invited us to sit in. I waved my hand and said I wouldn't eat. He immediately announced impatiently that we couldn't park here. You apologized and said that we would start the motor right away.

What you said is really good. I just built a heart wall and told myself to accept my fate. We have been apart for two years, and I should let you go. Now that it's wrong, you refute my point of view and tear down my heart wall word by word.

Why are there so many right and wrong? I just like someone.

But girls are ok, why should they be squeezed into a world without their own place? Embarrass others and humiliate yourself. Even if you humiliate yourself, you still expect others to cherish you.

I look at you, cold and hate in my heart, and just meet your eyes. You smiled at me and smiled at each other in the chaotic light of the street lamp.

Chicken soup for the soul is easy to forward but difficult to do.

"You are so eloquent." I said piteously.

You smiled and pinched my face. "What a small litchi!" .

06.

There is a restaurant outside the window, neon lights are flashing tirelessly, the aroma of dishes turns into smoke and floats in the air, people come and go, and happy, sad and numb faces enter my sight and leave. It's past eight, and I'm still not hungry.

"You'd better take me home. I'm really not hungry today. " I said.

"Good, that you get something to eat when you get home, my phone is open, waiting for you to report peace. I'll pick you up from work tomorrow to make up for today's meal? "

As you speak, you operate the mobile phone GPS, change your destination to my community, and re-enter the traffic of the city that never sleeps.

"Goodbye." I told you I didn't answer the question.

"See you tomorrow." Your face is crooked and you smile gently.

"Goodbye." I corrected it again.

"Well, goodbye." Your reaction doesn't seem to realize the difference between my lines.

Just now, I took one last look at you, deleted your WeChat and mobile phone number, hacked your Weibo, and completely gave up the late fate of these two years.

Maybe many years later, we will meet again and talk calmly and wittily about my surging and tangled young heart tonight. But at this time, I have to disappear to resist your powerful magnetic force.

At some point in your life, you may be my boy, but that moment has already passed away quietly. Missed it

The neon dispersed, the spire of the community came into view, and the GPS sounded, indicating that it was still 0.5 kilometers away from the destination.

Dear child, please make sure everything is all right after I get off the bus.

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