This year, my leukemia has entered the sixteenth year. It should be said that it is not an exaggeration for a patient with blood tumor to live for so long. So many people came to ask me, why did you live so long? What is "mystery"? This question is very interesting. "Why can you live so long?" To tell the truth, just like why I got leukemia, it is also a mystery. I don't even know. What I'm talking about now is just my own analysis and my own feelings. Therefore, there is no "mystery". If I really want to say something, I can boil it down to "two dependencies": one is radiotherapy and chemotherapy, the other is the combination of traditional Chinese and western medicine, and the other is the combination of traditional Chinese and western medicine; Second, we should rely on spiritual support, psychological adjustment and "self-psychotherapy". Until now, I still can't take medicine without injections all day. Once I stop, the white blood cells will turn up like somersaults. But unlike others, other patients take more injections and take more medicine, and they will take more injections and eat more, but they still can't; What about me? For more than ten years, needles and drugs have been maintained at the level of "maintenance" and have not produced "drug resistance". Not only that, I can continue to produce results, continue to make reports everywhere, continue to write articles and publish monographs, and live quite vigorously. Judging from the current situation, it seems that it is not a big problem to strive to live to see the Olympic Games in 2008 (I am a sports fan). Perhaps "strangeness" is here, perhaps "spiritual support", "psychological adjustment" and "self-psychotherapy" are here. It should be said that in the fifteen years since I got leukemia, no matter what setbacks I encountered in my life, my spirit never crossed. I always pay close attention to the changing trend of my mentality and always treat my unhealthy psychology. 1988 got leukemia in the spring. I was 44 years old and middle-aged. On the second day after I came back from an inspection tour in Japan, I was "forced" into Tongren Hospital, a contract hospital of China Academy of Social Sciences, for the first time by a thin, slow but steady stream of gingival blood. The laboratory tests in the hospital and the doctor's diagnosis are really terrible, which almost destroyed my career dream and life dream. "Oh, my God! Terrible leukemia! " There is no doubt that arrival is on my head. Only then did I know what death was and what the threat of death was. I'm really afraid of death. What does it mean to lose a child in old age, a husband in middle age and a father in youth? Therefore, my mother, lover and children are more afraid. They shed more tears than I did. The whole family is like an ice room, everything is frozen. What are you talking about? I can't say anything, I can't say anything, because I know what they want to say and what they want to say. The whole house is as silent as death ... so what? No, never. I come from psychology, and I know very well that as a critically ill patient, I must not despair and be pessimistic. If so, I can only accelerate my own death. What shall we do? I used the following methods. First, arouse their "aggressive" personality. I often say to myself, Shao Daosheng, aren't you aggressive? Haven't you always refused to admit defeat? Now that leukemia is coming, can't we have a good fight with him? If you don't fight yourself, you will cross. Is it the original Shao Daosheng? For fifteen years, I never wanted to bow to it. What about the effect? Very good. I always feel very powerful and full of energy. Second, there is a bit of "Ah Q" self-mockery. Everyone wants to be born; Death can happen to anyone. Before I got leukemia, I didn't even think about life and death. When I first got this disease, I felt that I was "out of my mind" and I was about to "go" when I first reached middle age. However, I lay in my hospital bed, remembering my life path that is not too long or too short. Suddenly I found that I didn't come to this world for nothing, and I really left a lot of valuable spiritual products for the society. I really contributed a little to my family. My attitude towards life and life value are still "average", the only deficiency is that my life is "a little short" ... Third, I adopt a little "self-motivated". I don't ask the doctor how much time I have like most cancer patients. Is it early, middle and late? (This is the question that cancer patients want to ask most) but ask the doctor: "How long can a patient with the most diseases like me live?" ? Is it possible to recover? Why do some cancer patients live for a long time? How to fight cancer? Wait a minute. "I have this attitude not only when I ask the doctor, but also when I read books and magazines. When I heard the doctor's answer, when I read in books and magazines that leukemia patients may live for several years, more than ten years or even "recover automatically" as long as they actively cooperate with the treatment, I did not hesitate to believe: "This is true!" I have to "encourage" myself like this: "They can, they can live so long and recover, why can't I? "Why can't I heal? Why can't I squeeze into this' one in a hundred thousand'? " And I also thought: "The medical conditions in the Beijing hospital where I live are so good, my nutritional level can keep up, and my psychological quality is good." Why can't I' squeeze into' this' very few, very few' crowd? " Therefore, I often tell my family and doctors (sincerely) that "I must" squeeze into this "very few, very few" people. Fourth, start from adjusting your "frustrated mentality": Why do you get leukemia? I didn't know until I got sick. This is the result of years of depression in my negative mentality. Looking back, expectations were too high and ambitions were too great. However, I am an "imbecile" who handles interpersonal conflicts on my own. I don't know the hardships of the world, I can't vent, I don't know how to solve it, and I torture myself. Indeed, in a sense, my leukemia is the price of this mentality, which is too heavy. What shall we do? We must break with the old ideas completely. Indeed, it was not easy to do this, but I did it. People who are familiar with me say, "Lao Shao, if only you had done this long ago!" " "Fifth, it comes from believing in science and taking it seriously. I believe in western medicine very much. The doctor asked me to do chemotherapy and radiotherapy, and I didn't hesitate, because only in this way is the best way to treat and prolong cancer patients. I believe that Chinese medicine plays a unique role in "consolidating the foundation and cultivating the yuan" and improving the immunity of the body. Of course, I believe that Chinese medicine is by no means a quack or a disorderly doctor. I also believe in psychotherapy. As a psychologist, I also invented a set of "Shore psychological suggestion and qigong self-therapy". Western medicine and Chinese medicine combined with their own self-psychotherapy, the effect is surprisingly good. "Spiritual support" seems to be an illusory thing, but I used "spiritual achievement self-feedback therapy" to turn it into a real thing. My personality determines that I can't be a poor man who lives for survival, and I won't be willing to be a poor loser in the face of development threats. Although I have leukemia, I still aim high. I believe I can overcome leukemia and make a comeback in my career. Therefore, I have always followed Dr. Sun Yat-sen's motto "The more frustrated, the more excited". I hold my chest out and fight against fate. In the face of cruel setbacks in survival and development, I will not bow my head, I will not shrink back, I will not be ashamed, I will not feel inferior, I will not give up, I will not be complacent. Of course, "aim high" does not mean that we are still as naive as in the past, and we should achieve our goals in one step. Instead, we should start from some "small goals" and start from small topics of social concern. During the fifteen years of illness, we have written more than 6 million books, papers and social surveys closely related to reality, and won more than 20 scientific research achievement awards. Of course, I also know that it is not enough to have "perseverance", but also to learn to experience in pain, keep fighting, dare to fight, and keep fighting with actions and achievements. I know very well that compared with others, I lack the support of "power resources" and am a terminally ill leukemia patient. What shall we do? You must redouble your efforts to develop your potential and motivate yourself with constant "local success". "Heaven rewards diligence." Indeed, when I saw that books and articles were very popular with the people, I saw the social value and life value of my existence, which gave me a kind of motivation and courage to survive. Therefore, I like self-motivation, so I call it "self-feedback therapy for spiritual achievement". In a sense, it is better than chemotherapy and radiotherapy. Why? Because I saw the real value of my life in the social evaluation of my achievements and the real value of being a man in the process of my struggle for life, I can say that even if I "walk" now, although I can't brazenly say that it is "heavier than Mount Tai", I can definitely say that it is by no means "lighter than a feather", and I can say to others on the day of "walking": I am not vain. Indeed, 44 years old is a year of changing fate. But it was really from that year that I started a tenacious struggle against my fate with the help of "spiritual support", "psychological adjustment" and "self-psychotherapy", thus starting a new page in my life. This is "spiritual power"! This is also called "the spirit turns into matter"! It was "spiritual power" that brought my leukemia into 16 years. Among them, I also got an "anti-cancer star" Dangdang, which is really very happy. It seems promising to live to see the 2008 Olympic Games in China. I really want to break the longest survival time of leukemia patients. It is the "spiritual strength" that makes me "make a comeback" in my career. During my illness and treatment in 15 years, I wrote five or six million square characters, and I wrote, translated and compiled more than 70 kinds, which really had some social influence, not only many academic awards, but also an "internal motivation" for my survival. It is the "spiritual power" that changed my attitude towards life. My mind is a little broader than in the past, my sense of social responsibility seems a little stronger, and living in this society seems a little more interesting. Therefore, "people always have a little spirit", the great man said nothing wrong. In a word, it is not only a philosophy of human existence, but also a wisdom of human existence.