Until now, I can calm down and give an explanation to this process, or say goodbye to my previous identity.

My wife and I met in college, although not in the same university. Thanks to God's guidance, we met at a relatively beautiful time. I always feel that I owe love, but there is nothing I can do. After all, youth only happens once, and the agitation of youth only happens once. It's a pity that I didn't meet her. I gave her my most sincere and profound love when I was most ignorant and eager for love.

We got married right after graduating from college. Among the students on both sides, we are earlier. After several years of life, it seems that the baby's affairs are naturally put on the agenda, and pregnancy is slowly beginning. The intermediate time is not short. After many disappointments, one morning, my wife's uncontrollable surprise also opened the curtain of another life.

In many ways, men seem to be very dull. They have no feelings about being fathers, but they seem to have accomplished a certain task. The center of life is slowly preparing for the birth of a baby.

My stomach is getting bigger and bigger, and I gradually realize the hardships of being a mother. Fortunately, my wife's reaction during pregnancy is not particularly severe, but my back pain is also accompanied by the whole pregnancy.

In order to give birth naturally, the daily task is to accompany my wife. In fact, I always want to spend more time with my wife, and I constantly remind myself that I must not make her angry. However, there have been several quarrels. After the quarrel, I was deeply blamed and worried. In fact, it is unrealistic to give yourself a big change through a node, especially temper or personality. It is difficult to change through self-discipline unless I encounter great changes.

From seeing the red to being hospitalized, even waiting for delivery in the delivery room, everything is going on like a rehearsal of the process, and there is no brain to think about any emotional and emotional problems. Everything is in a hurry. This year is the year of the pig, and many people are rushing to have babies, so there are a lot of people born. Hospitals are like a market all day, which leads to a lot of order and chaos, but at this time they can only suppress their emotions and are not easy to attack.

Because my parents can't take care of me by my side, after I was discharged from the hospital, I lived directly in the Confucius Center, which was relatively less hard, but it did bring me a new feeling. It's good to have money.

I may be a thrifty person, and this consumption concept is more influenced by my family background. I don't have much thought about the choice of the moon and the moon. I am more accommodating to my wife. She prefers silence. A stranger suddenly came to her house, which may be a kind of pressure for her to be familiar with, so although I feel a little distressed about money, I am still more decisive. It's convenient to stay in the month center, especially for eating and staying in the hospital for a few days. Eating a meal can make people worry to death. From ordering recipes to purchasing, it is very laborious. Apart from the 24-hour Moon Festival and relatively independent space, value-added services did not show more aspects. Today, my wife told me quietly that she had lived in the clubhouse enough and wanted to go home. She wants to take the Mid-Autumn Festival, the chef, practical nurse and the physiotherapist home. I said you should stop.

Because I am in the education industry, I can also be regarded as a service industry. I haven't been to the club for a long time. Suddenly, I feel a little flattered to go from a service industry to an all-inclusive environment, and these experiences may be the intuitive feelings brought by money.

After the baby is born, including before birth, the pressure of money is still great. For the upbringing and cultivation of children, it is simply a bottomless pit. From the parents' point of view, I always want to give my children the best things, but these good things are all based on the price tag with many digits. So the change and pressure of money may be my most intuitive feeling.

I often think about how I should raise my baby and what kind of person the baby will become in the future.

I remember waiting at the door of the labor room for six hours. I just wanted him to be safe, healthy and healthy. After the mother and son came out safely, I began to have other ideas. I am very confused about my children's requirements or my own desires, especially in the education industry.

Because of the nature of the industry, I have encountered too many small topics of different ages. Some of them are very likable, some are very annoying, and some are both likable and annoying. I looked at the baby's face more than once and imagined his future. We like many children we meet very much. Many of these likes come from being obedient and enterprising, which meets our requirements for good children. I also don't like many naughty children, especially in recent years. Are these children's performances worth encouraging? Will they have a bright future? It seems difficult to define it at will. Everyone's life trajectory is composed of many factors, which undeniably have their own functions, but many of them are influenced by the outside world.

It seems that our definition of a good boy is evaluated from the perspective of adults, and this cognition may be biased.

Every subject, every behavior and every temperament is good. In their grade, there are just too many possibilities and appearances.

But there are some commonalities, such as politeness. I hope my baby will be a polite child in the future, which has nothing to do with his grades or achievements. This is the standard of being a man, be polite, respect others and respect yourself.

Then we must have a relatively correct three views, which may be a very vague concept. It is more reflected in the attitude and handling of some things, and it can have a more orthodox understanding of itself, others, culture, nature and life.

Then there are habits, living habits, speaking habits, hygiene habits and so on.

Each of these points can be said separately, but each point seems to feel a little illusory, and these points are really closely related to our family, and even all of them come from the parents' life in Origin and Death.

This really scared me.

The arrival of the baby is a great change in my heart, but it is also short-lived.

My life has changed bit by bit, but it needs my constant adjustment.

Before the baby was born, life was regular, but after the baby was born, the routine of life was completely disrupted, and the whole time was divided into pieces. Moreover, with the constant change of the baby's age, this irregularity of routine was also changing regularly.

For language, many times before, he was outspoken, and he was not a civilized person. Sometimes, the country just curses something. After having children, he seems to be much more cautious. If he shouldn't say anything, try not to say it. He only hopes that the baby can hear positive words, all of which are good words. In particular, he often hears many parents complain. Suddenly, the children learned to swear, and they were proud of it. Parents are distressed and worried. Children reserve and learn language from their parents' casual words, and the ultimate source is their parents. Every time I think about this, I always walk on thin ice, fearing that I will regret why I didn't get rid of my bad oral habits earlier, so I can only be careful. However, I am afraid that when my mood is high, all the constraints will be forgotten, and I am afraid that it is too late to regret the influence of nonsense on children.

The same is true in terms of emotions. After having a baby, it seems that the world is at peace. I just hope to bring more peace and gentleness to my baby, and don't let him see too much rage and rage.

To make a baby look like himself, we must first look like ourselves, just like a practice. This really gives us the greatest feeling and change.

For the baby, every scene is the first time. How I wish I could be more poetic. When I show him the first snow in winter, I can bring him into a beautiful artistic conception. How I wish I had knowledge. I can answer all his questions when he faces this strange world. How I wish I could be versatile. When he realizes the beauty of this world, I can teach him everything gorgeous.

After the baby is born, I also want to start over and become the person I want.