I asked you the same question six months ago. I thought that finding a good teacher would make me stronger. But in fact, only when you are abused will you grow up. Remember to "grow up being abused", find out the reasons when being abused, and think more about "why". Sum up your experience and you will definitely make progress! Practice hard! I have no time to play with you, so I won't leave you QQ. I hope you can listen to me, because that's how I grew up! Maybe you can solve this problem in half a year!
Abused → Summary → Learning → Progress
The most important thing in the whole process is "calm down"! This is very important. Don't play when you are abused and angry, so the more you play, the more rubbish you get. After a long period of calm exercise, you will make progress!
The last sentence: Whenever you don't have the skills of a master, please have the qualities of a master in time!
I hope you can make progress and adopt!