A song, a glass of wine, a story "14" - To you who once loved me...

Recording time: June 8, 2017 - 2:40 in the middle of the night, the third year since I got used to insomnia. After reading the story I wrote, someone said something like this to me: "I can't be more affectionate than you, and I hope time doesn't fail you." This was the Nth girl who said something similar. I didn't know how to answer, so I had to The reply was: "It's just a story, don't take it seriously." ------But the story was written so seriously that some people believed it!

? Mr. Zhang, we had to say goodbye, and there has been no contact for many years. After contacting Old Tang, I learned that you are living a peaceful and peaceful life now. I wonder if you still like to be in a daze as before. When you are in a daze, you will think of me. I think it's best not to think of me. My biggest hope for you now is to forget about me and live your own life. That’s right! There is one more thing I want to tell you, I... am getting married!

?I still remember that when we were still students, just because my favorite concert was to be held in our place, you ate instant noodles for a month in a row and robbed all your gay friends’ meals to eat. I drank a lot and bought two tickets for the outfield. That night you held my hand and said to me, "Daughter-in-law, I'm sorry, I will definitely let you see more clearly in the future." I smiled and said you are stupid, you are having fun in front of me. When I returned home, I was beaten up by my gay friends, who said that after being a wealthy landlord and exploiting the people, I also tortured dogs.

Mr. Zhang, I wonder if you still remember the time when we were separated and fell in love. You are in Chengdu and I am in Beijing! After four years of college and one year of work, we actually accumulated a box full of tickets for traveling back and forth. You came to Beijing after a long journey, just for my birthday. I was waiting at the station as if I were waiting for a man to return, looking forward to the moment you walked out, and you hugged me as I jumped up. When I go to your city, you always tell me in advance not to be late, and then you call me half an hour later to ask me where I am safely, for fear that I will lose it. I took the trouble to say: "Don't worry, I'm not a child anymore. I've been here so many times and I won't lose it!" When you said in a doting tone on the phone that I am your little girl, you definitely didn't I saw me blushing and shy on the other side of the phone. Yes, Mr. Zhang, before you left my life, I was a little girl. You gave me all your favor, and you were the knight standing in front of me.

Three years of high school, four years of college, three years of working hard together for our future, a full ten years. From the age of 16 to 26, my memory and life are all about you. Friends say that love is not trustworthy these days. Look, Nicholas Tse and Cecilia Cheung have broken up. The only thing they still look forward to is us, from school uniforms to wedding dresses. However, we still failed to reach the end after all, the sighs of friends, the tears when you and I were separated, and the wine in those nights without the existence of both sides. They all truly reminded me that you once loved me so much. Mr. Zhang, I want to get married. I asked a friend to write this letter. I won’t send this letter to you, but just to commemorate it, to commemorate the ten years I spent with me, and to commemorate the boy who turned a girl into a woman. Finally, I sincerely wish that you, my young and ignorant boy, will be surrounded by a woman who loves you more than me to spend your life. If you are safe and happy, you will live up to me who once loved you!

Girl Jian, when you asked Old Tang to tell me the news that you were about to get married, I thought I would be very sad, sad or even cry bitterly. But I don’t know why, but my heart is no longer the same as before. The days without you are like everything disappearing, and I collapse to the ground and let the tears flow out. Instead, I feel relieved. My girl, the girl I once loved, is now married. She must have found a better man than me and will be happy.

Girl, you still remember when you were in school, when you told me that your beloved concert was held in our city, you happily told me the stories of those stars, and your eyes were full of excitement. Be happy. I'm trying very hard to save more money to take you to the infield, so that you can at least get closer to them, but the frugal living expenses and part-time salary are only enough to buy an infield ticket. But you said that just buying two outfields is enough. You just want me to listen to it once with you. You don't care about the infield and the outfield. That night, I mustered up the courage to hold your hand. Your soft little hand made my heart beat faster. As a result, I didn't hear what they were singing during the whole performance. You shouted I love you loudly to the stage, and whispered to me that I like you. I was completely drunk on your smile when I was not drunk that night. Thinking back to this day, I still laugh at why I was so insensitive at that time. I should have been able to hug you then!

Do you remember when I was sick in college? Because I needed to be quarantined, I didn’t tell my parents about my random thoughts. I only told you that you took a week off to take care of me. When I was lying in the hospital bed and missing you, you appeared in front of me. As a big boy, I couldn't help crying and said, Wife, you are finally here. You held my head in your arms regardless of your exhaustion and a distressed look on your face, and whispered softly, "Don't be afraid, I'm coming!" Your hand slowly caressed my head, comforting me and telling me not to think too much, coaxing me like a child that the illness was not serious. During those days, you were busy for me, you needed to disinfect the dishes and your hands were burned, and you were working hard to make soup according to the nutritious recipes. I am moved to this day.

Miss Jane, I’m sorry that we separated in the end. I can only say that we didn’t grow up enough when we thought we were mature enough.

People ask me if I still love you, and I think of course I do. Over the past few years, I think this love has already transformed into the love for my best friend, the person I once loved the most, and later it became like the love for my own relatives. We went from resentment at the beginning to relief now. They said that time healed me. I think it was you who once loved me the most that healed everything. Now I can only live a good life for myself, can I be worthy of you who loved me, right? The best love contains not only sweetness, but also blessings for each other after separation. The road has to go on, it’s best to continue life. Miss Jane, now you are about to get married. Before the wedding, I asked my friend to convey my feelings on my behalf. I sincerely wish you peace and happiness, so that you can live up to this good girl who once loved me! The past is like the wind blowing by, and the wine has been brewed for a long time. The wind blows drunkenly and I say loudly to the past, thank you for loving me so much, and I loved you so much!

? The best love is not when I meet you just right. Rather, we have just enough control over love.

Our love is just right here

There is not much left and not too little left to forget

I should be able to take care of myself

Our distance is just right here

If it’s not enough for us to hug, we can’t save it

People who have loved hard shouldn’t care about it

Our love is just right here

No more arguments, no more quarrels, no more suffering

You don’t have to remember my goodness

Our wanderings are just right here

Before we reach the end of the world