These two days, my tears have been spinning in my eyes. I miss my mother, and I want to cry bitterly, but I am afraid that anyone will see my vulnerability and helplessness. A person silently shed tears, sitting alone in the dark, looking at the increasingly round moon in the sky, thinking about the existence of his mother in his mind.

One night after mother's funeral, the eldest son asked us, "Where did grandma go?"

At this time, the elder sister replied, "Grandma went to heaven and looked at us from heaven."

From this time on, like a child, I developed the habit of looking up at the sky. I always wonder, is mom in the sky? Can mom see me? How's mom?

These two days, I watched my friends go home for the New Year. My heart is getting more and more uncomfortable and lonely.

In my husband's family, I am an outsider who will never enter.

In a man's mind, he and I are just a cooperative interest relationship. He got married for the sake of marriage, and so did I! The day before yesterday, two people quarreled because of the contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. His inner words blurted out: "You are an outsider", which completely broke my heart. I turned and left!

At home, my mother has passed away and can no longer enjoy maternal love.

Many times, I gently said to myself, "I don't have a mother." I have no mother. " You can only rely on yourself. If you don't feel wronged, you can bear it yourself. Tired, hungry and cold, solve it yourself and bear everything! "

In the past, my mother took care of me Now, without my mother's protection, I have become an insecure person.

More and more afraid of holidays, afraid to see other people's family reunion, and I am lonely and helpless!

Tonight, the moonlight is bright. They sat quietly under the tree on the pretext of going to the bookstore to read. Looking up at the sky in the gale, I hope to see my mother in the sky.

I miss my family more often during festivals, my father is at my second sister's house, and I sit alone in a foreign land at night, watching the moonlight, just like a little ant floating in the sea of Wang Yang.

Mom, without you, without your company. In such a silent night, insomnia is more and more with me.

You cared for me for 33 years and abandoned me for 4 years.

When you take care of me, you always like to keep the suffering firmly around you, keep the cold wind out of the door, leave the suffering and grievances to yourself, but give me all the laughter and happiness.

I developed a blx!

Since last week, I have frequently said to my elder sister and second sister, "I will warn all the children in my family not to marry too far, and not to choose to covet the prosperity of the city and stay away from my parents, so as to end up like this."

Me, though not far. But since my mother died, there was no one to protect me, and the wind direction of my husband's family changed immediately. It really makes me feel: "Only when my mother's family is strong can I stand in her husband's family. Her family is not rich and she has a good temper. She can only be wronged, knock out her teeth and swallow it in her stomach. "

Me, though not far. However, at that time, I was greedy for the prosperity of big cities and insisted on staying in this bustling capital despite my parents' persuasion. In this way, I want to go back to see my parents, and it is difficult to realize my desire to play.

I seldom spent time with you when my mother was alive. I willfully thought that you were young and could stay with me for a long time. As we all know, accident and tomorrow, I really don't know who will arrive first.

I am looking forward to taking advantage of my father's birthday party and taking my children back to accompany you for a month. Unexpectedly, people are still on their way back, but you are already ill.

I stubbornly prefer to sleep in the cold chair in the hospital lobby, and I would rather buy a house to save you at all costs, but I can't find so many things, and human strength is limited. No matter how much I don't want you to leave me, you left me forever, abandoned me and left me a helpless wretch.

On your last day, when you were in the hospital, you took my hand and said, I hope I will be disease-free and well in my life.

However, how can I live a better day without you?

Son, there is no one to carry it for me anymore.

There is no one to talk to about the grievances in my heart.

I am greedy and can't find anyone who is willing to cook my favorite dishes.

Tired, I can only force myself to bear it silently.

When you are sleepy, you can only make another cup of bitter coffee without sugar to refresh yourself, let your brain wake up quickly and continue to be busy with what you are doing.

Cry, cry silently alone, dry your tears silently, and don't let anyone see it.

I have long forgotten when I began to like sitting alone more and more.

I have long forgotten when it started, and I don't want to celebrate the holidays, nor do I want to think about going back to my hometown for the New Year.

I have forgotten what it's like to be happy at home. My home, without my mother, has long been warm.

Mother and daughter in heaven miss you very much.

Do you feel it?