-the queen's strange land

it's dark at night.

Sixteen long windows and holes carved with red lacquer suddenly opened, and a bright moon and snow fell down without covering or stopping. It was really an empty world, as clear as glass.

I leaned against the window, unconsciously with a smile, and asked softly, "Huachun, did you fold the peony that I told you to fold?"

A picture of a jubilant spring says, "Report back to the Empress, the newly-opened peony in the courtyard was folded and offered by the handmaiden as instructed by the Empress."

I looked along what she pointed out. In the enamel ear-tied vase, a pair of purples and peonies were in full bloom, reflecting the candle of a crane holding cheese in the temple, which became more and more colorful.

Tie the vase and tie the flowers together, all of which are in pairs, reflecting the beautiful flowers and full moon tonight. Even the gold hook of the red Robson Baifu gauze account was carefully replaced by the ladies-in-waiting with a red gold tassel mandarin duck hook.

I nodded with satisfaction, only to find that Huichun had changed into a palace official's dress with dark pink and dark red texture. I smiled: "Why did you change such a happy color? I remember that you wore dark green clothes when you got up early."

Hua Chun chuckled: "I don't know, Empress, that handmaiden has changed from cutting autumn, embroidering summer and dyeing winter, which adds more joy to our palace."

I took a silk handkerchief as a smile, and the Chinese princess was in favor, and the rising star of Wandi gradually gained popularity. Most of the spring scenery in the harem is with them. It is no wonder that they want to be more happy when painting spring.

after all, painting spring and cutting autumn are people who have followed me for many years, and they can also try to figure out my thoughts.

It's a happy day for Fengyi Palace.

tonight is the fifteenth.

The 15th of every month is the night when the Empress Dowager must get along. This is the ancestral rule of Da Zhou for a hundred years. God knows which ancestor laid down this rule. When I first entered the palace or was a princess, I often laughed at this rule. If I became a queen in the future, it would be pitiful and pathetic if I could only spend the fifteenth night of each month with my beloved Xuanling. Moreover, the Emperors are equal, and you can see them if you want. Why do you have to be together on a certain day?

until now, I realized how wise the ancestors who made this rule were. She must also be a heroine, or a powerful and lonely queen mother, so she was so compassionate and gave it to later queens, such a justified day.

but at that time, I was just a young princess. There are far fewer people in the palace, just me and Duanfei. Although Duanfei entered the palace earlier than me, she was born as the first girl in the door and grew up with the Queen Mother, but so what? Xuanling and I respect each other as guests, and even promised that as long as I give birth to the prince in the future, I will be the queen. He has always said that it is wronged for me to enter the palace only for concubines.

no, no, no, I don't feel wronged at all, because at that time, he treated me so well. The queen will be mine sooner or later, so how can I be afraid of waiting for that little time?

Although I entered the palace only as a concubine, it was because of my status as a concubine.

this heavy status has always been my greatest shame.

even now, I am the mother of Zhou, and I am the mother of the world. I still have a heavy tightness in my chest that is difficult to take off. Yes, even though I have reached the top, people still remember that I am the concubined queen, not as noble as my first queen.

I can't help hating my mother, even though I love her so much, I am attached to her, and I have lived alone with her for more than ten years.

My mother is not beautiful enough, which is relatively known to me when I grow up, because I am not beautiful enough either.

Actually, beauty and ugliness are compared. For example, my sister and I go to play with ladies of similar age to enjoy spring. When I first came out, they naturally thought I was beautiful, but when my sister appeared, she was all eyes and praise, and I was not beautiful enough, and became an elegant and white lily with an unremarkable green leaf.

I know this fate deeply, but I can't complain aloud.

yes. It was my mother's choice. A long time ago, when she was a girl, she was the girl next door whose father grew up as a childhood friend. Because of the Queen Mother Zhu's entry into the palace, her father gradually developed and left home for Beijing. With the queen mother's birth from an ordinary schoolgirl to a princess, and then to the queen mother, the prosperity of the mother family is also reasonable. My father married a wife and a concubine, and then when he returned to his hometown to worship his ancestors, he occasionally found my unmarried mother, Yunying, and knew that my mother had been waiting for him. Perhaps it was because of a little friendship that I met young, or out of pity for a woman who was infatuated with herself, my father took my mother as his concubine.

I've always felt that my father's love for my mother is more due to the latter. Because after promising to admit his mother, he rushed to admit a maid who had been favored by him for a long time as the second concubine. Of course, this was inspired by the first lady, and it was also a piece of evidence that I later identified as suppressing my mother. Because although my mother is a young lady in the countryside, her position in Zhufu is lower than that of a maid, and she becomes my father's third concubine.

Such an opportunity doomed the mother's position in Zhu Fu. So all her life, but a woman, is me. Fortunately, the wife who suppressed her mother's huotang legally from the beginning was only one woman, that is, my sister Rouze Zhu who made a noise two hours earlier.

It never occurred to anyone that an ordinary official's family is just an upper-middle-class lady who will give birth to such an exquisite daughter of jade bone. At that time, my father was not very happy about the two daughters who came one after another, because the mother family of the Queen Mother obviously needed more men who could enter the DPRK as officials, until my sister's intelligence and beauty gradually emerged, and I became the undisputed darling, while my appearance was slightly mediocre, and I became a dim fish eye around my sister, the apple of her eye.

I can't help it, but my mother told me to live in peace. After giving birth to me, the eldest lady gradually realized that her mother had no ability to threaten her status. The so-called childhood friends had no advantage in the days of competition for favor, so she set her mind at ease and rewarded the possibility of our mother and daughter living quietly.

Ten years after my mother died giving birth to me, the hard labor made her weaker and weaker. On a sunny afternoon, she died quietly.

I thought she died of illness caused by giving birth to me, but when I opened a wooden suitcase my mother brought from my hometown, I realized how much she loved my father.

The mulberry strips they broke together in the countryside when they were young have withered to a bare branch, but their mother still cherishes them. There are kites they let go together, folded paper boats, and some letters from their mother.

I believe that my father has never seen those letters. Because of the contents, she told her thoughts about her father when she was in her hometown, her satisfaction after her new marriage, her happiness in giving birth to me and her longing before she died. Also, more importantly, my father promised to marry my mother when he was young.

I couldn't move my eyes when I fell on this word for a long time. "Wife", if this promise comes true, I will be a lady from Zhu Fu's office, not an ordinary woman who can't lift her head. Of course, this sentence has long been empty talk, and all that has not changed is the mother's love for her father, whether he is a wild boy from an ordinary family in the countryside or a later uncle.

I finally understand why my mother kept staring at the door before she died, although there was nothing there except the silent wind and falling flowers in the afternoon.

she died of disappointment day after day.

such a deep love, but my mother kept it in her heart and never said it. And my father, when he came to visit me by chance, saw those mulberry strips and kites, but thought it was the junk I picked up from somewhere.

yes, how can a man who has been rich and prosperous remember a childhood love? He won't, and he won't.

I am deeply shocked and sad, and I feel so shocked that if I don't strive hard with my heart, no matter how deep my love is, it is just a cloud that is ignored.

In that afternoon, I hung a white curtain in the small courtyard where my mother lived. My mother died so silently.

because in two days, the empress dowager will go back to the government to visit her relatives. Sorrow and joy are not allowed in the mansion. If my mother and I didn't live in the most remote corner of the mansion, we might even be disqualified from hanging white curtains.

The Empress Dowager saw me wrapped in white but not sad. She asked me a few words in surprise. She asked me, "Your mother died, why didn't you cry?"

"Is crying sad? The best way to truly remember my mother and mourn her is to live up to my expectations and not let her be restless in the grave. "

I answered this from the bottom of my heart, and the queen mother said to her father, "Take good care of this daughter."

since then, I have been given the status to attend with my sister. My father treats me with special respect, and my sister is also very kind to me. Of course, she has always been very kind to me, even when the first lady is overbearing, she is quietly kind to me.

she really regards me as her sister.

She is so excellent and beautiful, as if all the wonderful words in the world are superfluous, kind, gentle, good at dancing and dancing, almost without her. For a woman, if she is talented, then beauty is her greatest advantage.

Of course, she is not good at calligraphy and painting, and even knows nothing about pharmacology and aromatherapy, but even if I am good at all these things, no one thinks that is my advantage. Because I am in this home, like a dust that no one is watching. In fact, I have been secretly hating that although I have half the same blood as my sister, I don't have such a dusty appearance.

But my mother always touched my forehead and said to me, "It's not bad that your sister is bright in spring flowers and you are as quiet as autumn leaves."

and this reason eventually became the reason why the queen mother refused the first lady and preferred me to enter the palace.

The Empress Dowager said, "Ah Rou is beautiful, but she is soft-tempered, which is not enough for her to behave herself and settle down in the harem. The character that should be repaired is more suitable for living in the harem. "

The first lady was very angry about this. She was born with such a beautiful daughter, so how could she refuse to let her enter the palace? So she argued, "It's better to repair than to enter the palace."

this sentence is really wrong. Because she forgot in the feeling be nasty, the queen mother is also a concubine.

this sentence offended the queen mother and ruined all the hopes of the first lady. I clearly remember that I stood silently in the corner that day, listening to my father, the first lady and the queen mother discussing my future fate, the ups and downs.

I still remember the expression of the Empress Dowager clearly in my mind. At that time, she just smiled indifferently and leaned back in her chair. Her eyes were still so calm, but sweeping the face of the big lady forced her to have a cold sweat.

The Empress Dowager said with a faint smile, "Loving the family is a common woman, and it is also a common woman if it should be repaired. Ai Jia has never been a queen, so it's just like Ai Jia, starting with a concubine. It's just that in the future, the queen who has never sat in Ai's family will always be seated by her own family. "

this sentence has fixed my life.

that was the day when I first entered the palace. now that I think about it, I still bring a faint misty pink, which is so sultry and sweet.

it's not bad for Xuanling to treat me. And I, after the ecstasy of being elected to the palace, am more in love with my husband. He is so young and handsome, he is the supreme man in this dynasty, and he brings me the possibility of getting rid of the shame brought by the status of a prostitute. Such a doomed political marriage can also make me get such a gentle and handsome husband.

On the night I entered the palace, with a clear and soft smile, he personally put a pair of jade bracelets on my wrist, held my hand that was slightly wet because of nervousness and anxiety, and whispered softly in my ear, "I don't have anyone close to me. With you, I am more close and trusting. Xiaoyi, you and I are willing to meet each other in such a ring. "

No one has ever called me "Xiaoyi" so intimately, and even my mother has never called me. Although after my sister entered the palace, such a gentle "small Yi" became a bleak sentence: "Yi Xiu".

at that moment, my heart completely fell.

As for my teenage daughter, she is used to cold eyes and neglect. Who has been so gentle with me?

at that time, we really met day and night. There are so few people in the palace that even the time that flies by is quiet, with a layer of azure mist in the cage, quietly raising and falling.

Although Duanfei entered the palace early, Xuanling was not kind to her. She often went to sit, but rarely stayed overnight. And her temper is so quiet, so secluded, and she never competes with me. Most of the nights in Xuanling stay in my palace. Even the empress dowager was extremely satisfied with me because I kept the palace up and down properly.

At that time, I was really proud for a moment, as if I was born to enter the palace of the Purple Olympic City and be the noblest woman in this dynasty.

So when I finally got pregnant for a long time, my honor and happiness reached the highest point of my life.

My husband, on a full moon night, he clung to my hand and said with joy, "Xiaoyi, as long as you give birth to a prince, I can justly make you a queen."

who knows my joy and comfort that night? I just thought that if my mother were still here, she would be very happy, very happy.

at that time, I was only immersed in the joy of being a mother for the first time. How could I have expected that things would suddenly change and all happiness would disappear when I was about to get it at my fingertips?

Everything is just because my sister, my kind and good sister, accidentally visited me in the palace and visited me and the baby in my womb, which brought me a terrible disaster in my life.

Things turned upside down, and my perfect life was completely overturned at the moment Xuanling met her.

I didn't know why the Empress Dowager prevented the men and women who were close relatives from meeting each other, even Xuanling, who had never seen my famous sister. The vision of the queen mother is far from me. On that day, I just wanted to meet my sister who was better at everything since I was a child and feel the feeling that I could finally stand tall in front of her.

and the same indomitable old lady, dressed up like this, made her shine in the red wall. Fate, at that moment, gave up on me and turned to cast a favor on my sister.

After it was difficult for the Queen Mother to reverse Xuanling's ardent love for her sister, she sighed and said to me, "It's necessary to repair, and all the efforts of mourning for my family are in vain. Ah Rou is not bad, but she is not suitable for the imperial family. And the emperor should not have such ardent love for an excessively beautiful woman, which would burn himself and everyone around him. The first emperor and Shu Guifei are lessons from the past. " She touched my hand piteously, "Yi Xiu, Ai Gu always thinks that the emperor's feelings for you are just right. And Ah Rou ... "

At last, the Queen Mother sighed as a footnote to the irresistible love between the two men and women.

and that kind of love, except for setting my sister as the queen, has nothing else to end up as great and cruel.

the night my sister died, there was a downpour.

Even her dying posture is so beautiful, like a slender lily, giving off the breath of dying and slowly falling down in the arms of sorrowful Xuanling.

rainstorm dip