Paula means baby, and the afterglow means light. Both of these names express parents' love and are beautiful in literature and art. The name Deshan is to express parents' expectations, like a name casually. To exaggerate, Deshan is a bit like "two dogs". The neglected second daughter < P >' s parents' preference won't be much left here in Deshan, so delicious chicken legs and fun gifts often fall into the hands of excellent sisters or younger brothers who need to be taken care of, so that when she meets a sumptuous table of delicious food later, she must first look at the duck neck chicken legs and pick them up before eating them.

But this habit formed in her bones is hard to get rid of. It is a proof of being suppressed and neglected. For example, once when my mother saw that there were only two eggs in the house, it was difficult for her to eat pickles, so my mother felt guilty at that time, so she kept adding vegetables to her, and she could only say with a smile that we liked pickles best. But who knows that moral goodness actually hates this perfunctory prevarication, so even if the expression is disgusting, it is more helpless. Psychological silently bear

However, it should not be the first time that she has been treated like this, but she is much more patient. It seems that delicious and fun things are often not left to her. Instead of being left in the end, it is better to quit voluntarily, saving much embarrassment. The most serious incident was gas poisoning at home. Mom and Dad went out with their sisters and brothers on their backs, but they forgot Deshan. It was Deshan who struggled hard to save himself. Parents' perennial neglect has undoubtedly caused great psychological trauma to Deshan.

Although Deshan laughs all the year round, as if nothing happened, it's all superficial. The harm brought by family of origin will affect children's lives. Even if Deshan is cheerful, he dare not crave love easily, and he will often doubt himself.

The saddest thing for Deshan is that she cried to her mother in the classroom corridor before the college entrance examination and after the parents' meeting, and she was very afraid of the scene that her mother gave up on her. Knowing that I am not interested in learning, I complain that I fell asleep reading textbooks. I know that I am stupid and lack learning talent. Knowing that the family conditions are not good, but they can't successfully change their family destiny through education, there are always unfavorable factors, which make the depression of moral and good accumulation erupt, and they feel indescribable shame and self-blame for their parents, and they are ashamed of their parents' upbringing.