This is a diary I wrote on the plane a few months ago. When I learned that my best friend Xiaofeng and I were getting married, I wrote down the date.

The first is to try to be there when the time comes and give Xiaofeng his blessing.

In 2018, I traveled to Qingdao, and Xiaofeng entertained me. Xiaofeng, who was not yet working at that time, treated me to food, drinks, and entertainment. He spent a lot of money, and I wanted to return the favor.

Second, he in the article refers to my college sweetheart.

If there is a chance to see my college sweetheart again, I would like to meet again.

I can't explain my obsession.

Even if he doesn't want to see me, we have no contact information for a long time.

Maybe others think this is inappropriate behavior and unnecessary behavior.

But I am so persistent and willful, and have spent so much energy to get here, that I no longer care about this view. Maybe no one else will care about what happens to you.

I took three days of personal leave and planned to fly from Changsha to Qingdao. However, there was an epidemic imported from other provinces in Changsha a few days before departure, so I decided to cancel the ticket and buy a new one from Guilin, which cost me a few hundred yuan.

The landing time in Guilin was not as convenient as in Changsha. It was already early in the morning, and we were all in transit. We stopped in Hangzhou for five hours. I felt like vomiting while sitting, and the tinnitus continued several times.

Although it's very tiring, I don't think it's a hassle at all.

To use the worldview of the book "The Shepherd Boy's Fantasy Journey": everything is the process of your pursuit of destiny.

In the early morning of the 21st, my plane landed at Qingdao Jiaodong Airport, and I rested for a night in the airport capsule.

At six o'clock in the morning, I took the subway to Qingdao North Railway Station and transferred to the high-speed train to Jimo City, which only took 16 minutes.

We arrived in Jimo at around 9 am, found a hotel to settle in, washed and changed clothes, and took a taxi to the wedding hotel at around 11 am.

This journey has been relatively smooth.

When we arrived at the hotel wedding hall, the best man He He saw me walking slowly at the door, so he was surprised and asked me why I was here. I said I was here.

I don't know how to explain my coming here. You will probably guess something when you see me.

Hehe and Brother Ye are Xiaofeng's best men. We are all college classmates.

Hehe asked me if I had told Xiaofeng, and I said I had.

In fact, during the National Day holiday, I told Xiaofeng that I would come when I was free, but I didn't say exactly that I would come. I asked Xiaofeng not to tell anyone we *** knew.

Xiaofeng was not at the door to greet the guests. He might have something to do, so He He led me to sit at the banquet.

On this table I saw the names of my college sweetheart and his wife.

If someone else were me, I would definitely feel embarrassed.

I didn't feel embarrassed, but I cared about whether these two people would come. I thought I should be able to ask them kindly when they planned to have a second child.

After all, I just want to see him, just once.

At the same time, I also hope to embarrass them and cause them a little harm, which is because I did not firmly choose my revenge against him.

But this is just my wishful thinking, maybe others won't care about me.

I searched the venue with my eyes from my seat and saw someone who looked a lot like him. I squinted my eyes carefully to confirm that it was not him.

I feel that most people in Shandong look very similar. On the plane, when you hear their tone and way of speaking, you can tell that they are from Shandong.

Or from some facial structures, it can be seen that the appearance is typical of Shandong people.

I can't explain why, but it was this feeling that made me think "Why do all Shandong men look the same?"

Until the wedding was over, the two seats next to me were empty, and his wife did not come.

I asked He He why he didn't come, and He He said he didn't know.

After the wedding, Heheye brother Yang Heng left. Xiaofeng and the bride came to talk to me. The bride is a cute girl with a good temper.

Seeing that I had something to ask Xiaofeng, she went to work on her own.

Then Xiaofeng sat down and chatted with me about work and current situation, and about the hard life.

I asked why he didn't come. Xiaofeng said he didn't know, there was no reason and he didn't have a phone call. He said he would come before.

Xiaofeng sighed, lowered his head and thought about how to persuade me, and sighed why my heart was so knotted up.

I actually made today's groom sigh, and I immediately said no more. This is all my fate. I feel that today is the last chance to see him, and I will never have the chance to see him again in this life.

Unknowingly, my eyes became moist again, and I took out a tissue to wipe them away.

Xiaofeng sighed even harder.

I'm really sorry. Today is your big day, but I'm so rude.

Xiaofeng expressed that he understood my mood and hoped that I would do something happy to divert my attention.

Because at this moment I really hope someone can understand my feelings.

I said to Xiaofeng, I came here to attend your wedding, but I still have a little bit of expectation to see him. Without this mood, it is impossible, and I don’t want to lie to you. I am here to witness your wedding.

Happiness comes, but I still have selfish motives.

In fact, I know Xiaofeng thinks it’s okay for me to come or not. I said it’s worth it for me to come for you, but I’m really sorry not to see him.