? The author of this book, Hermann Hesse, is a great writer who won the Nobel Prize for Literature, and he is also a wandering, lonely, and reclusive poet. In order to write this book, Hesse "Siddhartha", I thought hard and exhausted all my energy, and even suffered to the point of death. Freud said: "Artists are a kind of person between ordinary people and mental patients. If they do not have their own creative activities, they will become mentally ill. Through creation, they have successfully achieved self-salvation." Hesse is obviously In the latter case, he washed away the soul torture he had experienced and refined it into splendid masterpieces that would be famous and illuminated for generations.

The book "Siddhartha" is very short, but it is very philosophical. I don't know if it is because of the ingenious translation. The expressions in the book are mixed with a very strong Indian "accent". It requires a lot of reading for the first time. Adapt to adapt. The Siddhartha in the book is not the Buddha Gautama Siddhartha. He is the son of a Brahmin who pursues the path of personal liberation. The thoughts in the book are not like the thoughts of Buddhism, but more like Hesse's own feelings of seeking enlightenment. This book The book has nothing to do with doctrine. The only thing that is relevant, like many doctrines and philosophies, is the proposition about "I". Of course, as Schopenhauer said: "Religion is philosophy in clothes." All thinking has the same goal.

? I don’t know much about Hesse himself, but the process of reading always makes me feel that Siddhartha in the book is Hesse’s independent, noble and wandering soul. Unfortunately, the soul is too great, and even after reading important notes several times, I can only get a glimpse of them. Novalis said: "Life should not be a novel given to us, but a novel made by us." This "Siddhartha" is a novel and also the life of Siddhartha.

There is a commonly used word in Buddhism called blessing.

It is a great blessing for a person to have enough food and clothing without having to worry about survival. Siddhartha was born into a very blessed Brahmin family. He had a handsome face, a good education, a prosperous life, a comfortable environment, and a loving family. In addition, Siddhartha also had a heart to seek enlightenment and enlightenment. , he gave up all the "blessings" mentioned in this sentence. The young Siddhartha decided to leave home and become an ascetic ascetic (that is, what we understand as an ascetic). This parting is a lifetime, and he will never see it again. Never came back.

? The first door: Samana

? Siddhartha’s goal is to stay away from "I". He believes that everything starting from "I" is noisy, dirty, Externally, if you want to seek the "self", you must pursue the "superego", with no yearning, no wishes, no dreams, no joy and no sorrow, so that the empty soul can find peace. When "I" is completely conquered, when "I" is completely conquered, The "I" dies, and when cravings and desires die in the heart, the "self" must awaken.

? He trained himself to transcend "me" and merged into animals, stones, wood, water, and all strange things. He learned many methods of self-denial. He overcame pain, hunger, and thirst. and tiredness, he moved toward self-denial through meditation, concentrating his mind in front of all appearances.

? However, even though he has gotten rid of "I" thousands of times, the end point always returns to "I". Although he has abandoned "I" thousands of times, this abandonment always ends in "I". It is temporary but not permanent, and I have to endure the torture of "me" again. In the end, he understood that this was not the "superego", let alone the "id". It was just a temporary escape from the "me" and a temporary anesthesia for the emptiness and pain of life. Just like getting drunk late at night after losing love, you will be invaded by pain when you are awake; just like the short-term joy of pursuing pleasure, you will endure stronger loneliness after being dull. ?

? Finally he understood that all ascetics could not realize Nirvana. They only found comfort and anesthesia, and only learned some tricks to confuse themselves. They were just spinning around in circles. Siddhartha had no liberation at all. , did not find the way within the way.

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? When hesitating and hesitating, he met Buddha Gautama, a venerable and enlightened person. He listened to the Buddha's sermons. Siddhartha admired him from the bottom of his heart, and his friends who accompanied him also Choosing to join the Buddha's Sangha, however, Siddhartha did not follow the Buddha. The young Siddhartha believed that knowledge can be imparted, but enlightenment and wisdom can only be realized by oneself. Everyone has everyone's truth, and one must explore it. Only by entering the deepest part of oneself can one truly understand the nature and meaning of oneself, and then achieve self-liberation. ? So Siddhartha bid farewell to the Buddha and embarked on the path of spiritual practice alone.

? The Second Door: Secular

? After meeting the Buddha, Siddhartha changed his thinking. He believed that all meanings and essences are not hidden behind things, they are within things. Human thoughts and senses hide the ultimate meaning, which can only be truly understood through personal experience. Therefore, at this time, Siddhartha seemed to be reborn, seeing flowers, plants, people and things as if they were the first time in his life, and using his thoughts and senses to experience all the splendor of this world. In order to feel the sensuality, he walked into the garden of the famous prostitute Kamala and regarded her as a mentor to explore the essence of life. In order to feel the power and wealth, he chose to follow the great businessman Kamala Shivami. He used the skills of thinking, waiting and fasting he learned when he was a monk to wander between the world like a child.

? However, the free wind will also carry the red and yellow sand, and the dragon-slaying boy of the past will slowly grow dragon scales, drifting in the vast ocean of secularity, and is destined to become a part of the secular world. As time went by, Siddhartha gradually became infected with the worldly childishness, cowardice, greed and laziness, and fell into worldly love and wealth. He was filled with desire over and over again, and tasted loneliness over and over again. When the beauty withered, it was sad and lamentable. Siddhartha is only left with obesity and aging. The world that he once regarded as truth is now a shackles and burden. Siddhartha chose to escape and once again became the practitioner Siddhartha.

? The third door: riverside

? The elderly Siddhartha finally came to a river and met his lifelong confidant and mentor-a boatman. The boatman's greatest virtue is listening. Even if he is silent, the narrator can feel that he is listening quietly, honestly and expectantly. He neither praises nor criticizes, he simply listens. The boatman said to Siddhartha: "I have ferried thousands of people across the river, and they regard my river as an obstacle in their journey. They go out to make money, do business, attend weddings, or go to offer incense, and this river blocks their way. The boatman must help them get over the obstacle quickly. For the few four or five of them, the river is not an obstacle. They listen intently to the water. "The world is rushing on the river, and the wise are listening to the truth in the river.

? This river seems to be a human life. We have drifted on the river for a lifetime, from one bank to the other bank, and from the other bank to this bank, in a hurry, without stopping... But what we Who has taken a gourd to drink from the river that passed by? ? Siddhartha lived by the river and watched the water with the boatman every day. He saw the river flowing relentlessly, sometimes rolling and surging, sometimes jumping for joy, sometimes whispering softly, sometimes flowing silently. The river changed different postures, as if interpreting life. However, no matter how the river is renewed, it will always be this river. Just like the essence of the world, no matter what form it is expressed in, the light will never dim and will never be covered by ugliness. ?

? Siddhartha saw his whole life in this river. The young Siddhartha, the adult Siddhartha, and the old Siddhartha seemed to have no past and no future, everything was in the river. It’s all essence and now. At this moment, Siddhartha understood that this shore is also the other shore, and enlightened beings are also sentient beings.

? The so-called me is the sum of all my past experiences. I am the people I have come into contact with, the objects I have encountered, the love I have felt, the pain I have been lost...etc., everything. The person I am now is nothing less. All things and souls are harmonious and unified. Eternity exists in the present, perfection exists in imperfection.

At this moment, Siddhartha seemed to have realized the great truth, but his path to truth was not over yet...

? The fourth door: son

? Siddhartha pursued the truth throughout his life. , but he had never loved. He left home when he was young and never returned. His love with Kamala went from experience to fall, and he never felt sincere. But it was not until his son appeared that Siddhartha truly felt love. Really become a worldly person.

? His son obviously preferred the world to Siddhartha and the river. Siddhartha endured the disgust and torture brought by his son, but was bound by love. He realized before The road seemed to be as useless as empty talk. When his son finally left him, he was guided to the river again by the boatman...?

In the river, Siddhartha saw himself, he People you love and know, the river composed of everyone is rushing, the waves are rolling towards multiple goals, towards waterfalls, lakes, rapids, and the sea; when you reach the goal, you rush to new goals. Water evaporates, rises into the sky, turns into rain, falls from the sky, turns into springs, streams, and rivers, merges again, and flows again.

? In the river, he no longer distinguishes the sounds of laughter and crying, innocence and majesty, these sounds are one. The laughter of the wise, the shouts of the angry, the whining of the thirsty, and the groans of the dying are entangled and intertwined into one. All voices, aims, longings, pains, desires, all good and evil become one, when his soul is no longer obsessed with one voice, no longer occupied by itself, but listens to everything, to wholeness and unity. The great symphony condensed into one word, this word is "Om", which means perfection. Finally, Siddhartha smiled, he understood, everything was understood...

? Every moment in the world is perfect.

? A tree is not originally a tree, it is an aspect of perfection. It will live, die, turn into nutrients, and become new life; a person is not originally a human being. When life When it reaches the end, it will become part of many substances and exist in another way or in many ways. Just like a river flowing to a waterfall and seen by us, we think it is a waterfall, but the next moment it will evaporate into water vapor and flow back to a spring, a stream, or a river. Therefore, it is also a spring, a stream, and a river. ...

? Every gust of wind, every cloud, every bird, and every insect shows the whole world in the changes of matter. They are "I" and "I" are also them, so I love this. Everything in the world is love "I", the objects of all desires and all emotions have become "I", everything is "I", everything is Siddhartha.

? The end point of all exploration and thinking is at this moment of all things. ?

? Digression:

? This book uses the fictional life of Siddhartha to tell the truth about the world, but ordinary people like me are destined to live in earthly desires all their lives. Floating up and down in the ocean, it is impossible to truly transcend and embrace all things. However, in the book, Siddhartha refused to follow the Buddha and believed that everyone has his own way, which gave me a lot of praise. The Tao is impermanent. Siddhartha has Siddhartha's, I have mine, and you have yours. In the mortal world, everything that you think is right and makes you happy is the great road. ?

? There is always a word "desire" that cannot be avoided in the secular world. The beauty in the world is because of "desire", and ugliness is also because of "desire". Siddhartha became a Samana in order to pursue the truth because of his desire for knowledge. Siddhartha The reason for sinking into the world is because of material desires. Siddhartha is suffering for his son because of lust. Siddhartha finally transcends, but ordinary people are destined to be impossible. Buddhism says that people have five desires: wealth, sex, fame, food, and sleep. From this, the five desires give rise to the seven emotions of joy, anger, sadness, joy, love, evil, and desire. The seven emotions bind the five desires, and this is the cycle of reincarnation. It seems that desire is not a good thing, but maybe it is not. Because of desire, the world is beautiful.

? Because of material desires, money is beautiful, so we consume;

? Because of lust, the opposite sex is beautiful, so we fall in love;

? Because of appetite, diet Talent is beautiful, so we pursue delicious food;

? Because of the desire to explore, nature is beautiful, so we travel all over the landscape;

? Because of the desire for knowledge, knowledge is beautiful, so we seek knowledge if thirsty.

? If we face our desires and are not ashamed of them, we will also find beauty in the world. We don’t need to exaggerate the ugliness of desire. Desire and self-discipline are mutually reinforcing. If we are self-disciplined like a Samana, there will be no beauty in the world. But without self-discipline, desire will tear open the veil of beauty and devour us with ugliness.

? All kinds of desires need to be observed and controlled. If material desires are too strong and not controlled, you will become a slave to money. If lust is too strong and if you don’t control it, you will eventually burn out with lust. If you don’t control your appetite if you have too strong appetites, you will become a slave to money. , you will become obese and deformed. Of course, being too curious about knowledge may not be a good thing. Who says that those controlled by knowledge are not slaves? Many beautiful people and things were beautiful in the beginning, but changed as they walked. It’s not because the world is too cruel, it’s just that the flowers are too charming...

? Of course, in this world, Faced with desire, we only need to face ourselves. We also need to face the world. We and the world, both internally and externally, need to be faced squarely.

We have all seen the world through the eyes of children.

? We used to think that life only has the future, and as we walk, we have a lot of joy and sadness, passion and loneliness, joy and pain in the past;

? We used to think that the world has only the future. It is real, but as I walk, I find that there are still hypocrisy, lies, deception, hurt and hatred. Those real people and things are very close but far away;

? We once thought The cake belongs to you, but as you walk, you find that there are many strangers tasting your cake together, but we can't taste the taste they eat.

? We used to think that things are connected. As we walk, we find that the people we love disappear, the people who accompany you can no longer be found, and a goodbye to a friend turns out to be a lifetime.

? We once thought that life was long. As we walked, we found that the end of life was covered by void and darkness. We began to fear the passage of time, began to grasp the people and things around us, and began to think about death. .

? The most beautiful things in this world are memories and imaginations. Reality is always a mess. The worldview we construct purely with memories and imaginations will always be shattered into pieces in the face of reality... Who said there will be something after the storm? rainbow? Who says friendship lasts forever? Who says love never separates? Who said life can last forever? We misinterpret the world, but say that the world deceives us. A person's knowledge must be that he has seen the ugliness of the world, not the most beautiful scenery.

? The path that Siddhartha finally realized is like the state of mind of those who have experienced the vicissitudes of life in the world. All good, evil, right and wrong are like past events repeating themselves, and he does not have to With a lot of money, he didn't have to read poetry and books, but every word he said made people feel relieved.

? The Great Way that Siddhartha finally realized after many farewells and pains, it is impossible for ordinary people to become calm after reading a few books. In the world, everyone has his or her own way, and only by going to this world can he become calm and calm. Let’s practice and polish it, and maybe one day, we will also realize our way.

Don’t be so anxious to reach your destination, to get it. Sometimes it's like this, the more anxious you are, the less you get. Good things will deliberately grind your mind, hinder you, make you calm, make you patient, and let you get it calmly.