At that time, Xiao Shan was in her prime of life, full of blood and only willing to rush to the world of literature, loving literature and longing for the beautiful fairy tales of talented people and beautiful women. He entered Shanghai Patriotic Girls' Middle School in 1936, where he worked hard for everything he loved. At this time, Ba Jin was a 32-year-old "middle-aged uncle", and at this time, Uncle Ba Jin had a place in the literary world. The works of this literary master are read and studied by many people. Xiao Shan is one of these people.

You're the only one who misses you, and I don't know what's going on.

In turbulent times, young people are confused and at a loss. Even with all their blood, they don't know where to go. At school, Xiao Shan tried hard to express herself and struggled for her future. She participated in the drama Thunderstorm and played the role of Four Phoenix. However, the criticism of the times accused her of being too close to "progressives" and she was expelled from Shanghai Patriotic Girls' Middle School. At this time, she must be afraid and at a loss.

At this moment, the appearance of Ba Jin's Home, like a ray of sunshine, entered her heart from the outside to the inside. At this time, she is an admirer, and he is a lighthouse to guide her and keep her alive. In the direction he gave, she was eager to think of him. This led to a continuous correspondence. In fact, many readers wrote to Ba Jin, but Xiao Shan's was special.

When I opened the letter, I was greeted by a pair of smiling eyes. Xiao Shan sent her photo to Ba Jin, and attached the following to the photo: Leave a souvenir for my dear husband, which aroused the interest of this scholar.

correspondence was very popular at that time, writing things word by word and leaving feelings behind. This can be seen in 84 charing cross road's book. Correspondence gives you someone to talk to, and you are no longer a lonely person. It's just that for Ba Jin, Xiao Shan is a pen pal and a child. In his view, a difference of thirteen years can be regarded as a forgotten friend. But for Xiao Shan, Ba Jin is a pen pal, a confidant and a favorite person. Xiao Shan began to pursue Ba Jin crazily.

finally, I couldn't help feeling happy, so Xiao Shan suggested meeting in her letter. She said, "Since we have a good talk, why don't we meet?" The meeting of talented people and beautiful women is always an enviable picture.

how can a talented person not allow a beautiful woman to invite her?

Ba Jin agreed to her proposal. In August of this year, Xiao Shan and Ba Jin met at Xinya Restaurant, No.719 Nanjing East Road, Shanghai. When friends meet, there is always food. Eating is very particular in China. Eating hot pot can relax people and ease the atmosphere. Eating small dishes is more enjoyable. I don't know what they ate, but this meeting really left a good impression on each other. Xiao Shan's enthusiasm and generosity made Ba Jin less restrained, and Ba Jin's erudition also made Xiao Shan fall for it. They cherished each other. The relationship between the two has gradually warmed up from pen pals to lovers.

You come with the spring breeze, which is the beauty I want to keep.

Love is crazy. Xiao Shan makes a fierce attack, being caring and attentive every day, and always pays attention to Ba Jin's life. At the same time, the fire of love became more and more fierce. Ba Jin fell in love with Xiao Shan, and he had to consider Xiao Shan. The difference between the two of them is thirteen years old, and the communication during this period has been overstepped. In others' eyes, it may ruin Xiao Shan's innocent reputation. He always suppressed his feelings, and he told Xiao Shan his thoughts, "Once you consider it immature, you will regret it for life.

In the future, when you are grown up and mature, and you still want me as an old man, then I will live with you. " Xiao Shan was deeply moved by these words, and she firmly believed that the man in front of her was the one worthy of her life. Just when they secretly promised each other for life, earth-shaking changes took place in society.

My heart is worried, and my steps are getting firmer

In October of the same year, the Japanese army invaded Guangzhou, and Ba Jin had to take Xiao Shan to Guilin. After hiding in Guilin for several months, Xiao Shan had to go to The National SouthWest Associated University to continue his studies because of academic reasons, while Ba Jin stayed in Guilin's publishing house to write a manuscript. The two started a one-year long-distance relationship and met at this time next year. At the beginning of the war, the two still kept correspondence. With the deterioration of the war, they could not even send letters.

it's anxious to lose contact, although knowing that each other's hearts must be the other's beliefs. Never give up on each other, but still worry about each other's safety and still care about each other. In Ba Jin's heart, there are three thousand weak waters, and he only takes a ladle to drink. Xiao Shan is his weak water. Bing Xin, a good friend, deeply admired him. He once said, "The most admirable thing about Ba Jin is his seriousness and singleness in his attitude towards love and marriage." Throughout the ages, it is the dream of many people who only want to be single-minded, but a few people do not like the new and hate the old.

For Ba Jin, his feelings are related to only one person from beginning to end, and that person is Xiao Shan. Long-distance love is hard, but fortunately it has a happy ending. In 1944, the two married in a simple wooden house on the east bank of Lijiang River in Guilin, and the eight-year long-distance love race finally ended. Qian Zhongshu's besieged city wrote that marriage is the grave of love. People outside want to go in and people inside want to come out. But for Ba Jin and Xiao Shan, the marriage life is so sweet that people are happy. After marriage, like most families, Ba Jin is responsible for making money to support his family, and Xiao Shan is responsible for taking care of the family and children. They seriously live a small life that belongs to two people and take good care of each other's small family.

You may be with me all your life, but this life is too difficult.

A beautiful dream is always easy to break like a bubble. In that special period, this small family was fragmented, and Ba Jin was put in the "bullpen" because of the particularity of his identity. Not only was he physically tortured by endless labor, but he was also mentally suppressed again and again. Experience shan see in the eye, very distressed. Only by accompanying him can he be warm and encouraged. Because she is Ba Jin's wife, Xiao Shan is also implicated and suffers the same pain, but Xiao Shan, who has a delicate mind, never cries or complains in the face of these things.

She knew that she was Ba Jin's only comfort, so no matter how much injustice she suffered, she had to put on a smile when she got home. She believes that suffering will pass, and people must have some hope. However, God did not treat such a gentle person well. After a long period of oppression and anxiety, Xiao Shan fell ill and was diagnosed with rectal cancer. Because of political factors, she was not treated in the hospital until the end of July 1972, but by then it was too late, the cancer cells spread and the survival rate of the operation was less than half.

Xiao Shan knew that she wouldn't live long before the operation. She touched Ba Jin's hand and said, "It seems that we have to part this time.". On August 13th this year, he passed away. Before his death, Xiao Shan still kept chanting the name of Ba Jin, but no matter how Ba Jin called, Xiao Shan left him with a trace of obsession.

leaving someone to miss you is the last thing I can do for you.

The dead are gone, and the living are like this. We don't know what it will be like after death, but there are only endless thoughts left in the living. In the decades of remembering Xiao Shan, Ba Jin wrote: "When people die, if the lights go out. "I don't believe in ghosts, but how I wish there was a ghost world, so that the day when I met Xiao Shan is not far away.

Xiao Shan is gone, but the 28 years that Ba Jin spent with her before his death are worth remembering. In the following days, Ba Jin spent every day with Xiao Shan's ashes, and every long night was spent in infinite thoughts. He died on October 17, 25. The love between Ba Jin and Xiao Shan is endless, from one party's worship to one party's guardian, knowing each other and loving each other. This kind of love makes people envy and sigh. If there is such a love in your life, are you willing to pay for it all your life?