Adi said,

Everyone is an island, and no island can be connected.

Loneliness is forever, a courage and state that continues to exist.

She put on her clothes and tied her tail into a ponytail. I smoked a cigarette and said that short hair would look better. She didn't say anything and left.

The weather was gray and there were signs of rain on the streets. I closed the curtains and slept for a day. She called me in the evening.

"Come out, Yin Yue, let me show you something."

"Huh? What are you looking at?"

"You'll know it when you see it."< /p>

She had her hair cut short and was so beautiful that she seemed like a different person.

That day was the second day that Ah Di and I met.

But I feel like I have seen the future. Goodbye ponytail.

Ah Di loves drinking, and her friends call her the alcoholic girl.

There was clearly an element of malicious joking involved. But she doesn't care,

Every time she drinks too much, she will show a perfect smile, the perfect kind.

During the years when I was with her, I got drunk almost two or three times a week.

I asked her why she always drank and got drunk.

She said, because she wanted to wake up.

This sentence touched me inexplicably and made me feel distressed.

A person who wants to wake up with alcohol must be lonely and lacking in his heart.

She pushed her hair behind her ears with her fingers and forced a weak smile.

Beautiful days are like a kite blown by the wind. No matter how far or high it flies, there is always a moment to take it back. If you continue to fly willfully, sooner or later the thread will be broken and you will fall into the world. This is the best punishment in the world. In her concept, the only difference between the human world and hell is that the evil in hell is sincere, while humans are gentle ghosts, while the human world is a lonely and cold hell. There is dazzling loneliness everywhere. No place to hide. As soon as it gets dark, the lights come on again.

"Let's get married" she stared at the moon.

"Okay" I looked at her looking at the moon.

"Now?"

"Tomorrow, they are all closed now, we can't do it."

"Yeah, that's how people are, there's always something going on It can't be done."

"It can be done as soon as the door opens tomorrow." I said to her.

"Tomorrow is too far away." She said to the moon.

Sometimes I feel that every word she says is drunken talk. With the willfulness and desperate stubbornness of a child. But those drunken words are so nice and so weak. Every time when she was drunk, she would go to the barber shop to trim the split ends at the end of her hair. She would tilt her head, leaving the barber with no choice but to trim the hair. She kept her hair short for three years, and I liked her for three years.

If time is like a wine that will be finished sooner or later, then when can we get drunk, or should we never be sober. But if one day they run out of wine and some people never get drunk because they are naturally good at drinking, then they will live a life full of resentment.

She has an average capacity for drinking. She gets drunk over and over again, and smiles more beautifully over and over again.

I took her to meet my family, and she was not the kind of person who would please her parents and take the initiative to clean up the dishes. My parents were lukewarm towards her and never mentioned anything. But grandma likes her very much. Said she was a very good girl.

I told her that grandma liked her very much. And she revealed the truth in one sentence. In fact, your parents don't like me very much.

I quickly wanted to smooth things over, but gave up. I didn't want to lie to her, and I never felt like she couldn't hear the truth.

"I want to suck your balls." Before she could even finish her words, the guests at the steakhouse all cast meaningful glances. I lowered my head and picked up the single side of the set meal with a fork. A half-boiled runny egg was placed on her plate.

"Your eggs are just better than mine!" After saying this, he couldn't wait to take a big mouthful of the swaying egg yolk.

She looked at me with a satisfied smile.

The audience withdrew their eyes in disappointment and returned to the delicious food in front of them.

"You did it on purpose!" I said in a low voice.

"No way, I didn't drink, it was too boring." She fiddled with the straw in the glass filled with juice.

"Do you want it? I'll order now." I raised my hand in the direction of the waiter.

"Goodbye" she pressed my button and said, "Quit."

"What?" I asked.

"Quit drinking"

"Why?"

"Is it bad to quit drinking?"

"It's good, but Why do you want to quit drinking all of a sudden? "

"The fortune teller said that I will definitely die of drinking in my life, unless one day I meet a noble person, and I will stop drinking if I meet him. I may have met him."

"Meet him?"

"Yes, I think you are that noble man."

From then on, we began to live as a young couple. She started buying groceries and cooking every day after get off work, while I collected clothes and read books on the balcony.

She said that in fact, a lifetime of eating, drinking, and making noises has passed. There is no absolute suffering, but there is always some depression. You're lucky if you have company.

"Xiao Jiujiu has given up drinking?" Lin Tie said.

"Yeah" I said.

"It can't be that I'm pregnant!"

"How is that possible? How could you not tell me that you're pregnant?"

"Then why do you want to quit all of a sudden? Wine, this is a good thing!" Lin Tie said as he swept the skewers into his mouth.

I threw all the remaining beer in the cup onto Lin Tie’s face. The word ‘conformity’ was extremely harsh. He panicked for a few seconds, glared at me, and then became quiet again. I know in my heart that in the eyes of many people, Ah Di is not a good girl by worldly standards.

Although she has changed careers, everything that happened that night when we met is still fresh in our hearts.

That night in Tiandu, it was the largest nightclub in the city center.

"Tonight is Yin Yue's 24th birthday. He must evolve into an adult! He has been a single man for 24 years! He can't go on like this anymore, let's talk about it!" Li Yunxiang said He made a show off expression and wiped his lower lip with the tip of his ring finger.

Zhiming, who was drinking with Da Fei in the corner of the sofa, smiled at me and told me that the show would never end. Lin Tie crossed over to Pangdou who was leaning on the sofa and shook his WeChat message. He suddenly hooked up with me and said, "Yin Yue, Li Yunxiang has taken such initiative. Stop being so serious. If you are straight, you will go straight to the sky tonight. If you are bent, you will go straight to the sky tonight." Yes, you are not allowed to sleep with your buddies in the future!"

Pangdou came back to his senses and said, "That's right!" He was still shaking it happily.

Da Fei also joined in and said, "That's right!"

Li Yunxiang was a well-known tomboy in the department at that time. On the one hand, she never accepted the pursuit of boys, and on the other hand, she always stayed with us. She talked about girls and told dirty jokes, so for the first three years of college, everyone thought she was a T. Until one Mid-Autumn Festival, we got together to drink heavily and play truth or dare. asked the question "Yunxiang, are you T? To be honest, we are all friends and we won't laugh at you!"

She lowered her eyes, was stunned for five seconds and raised her head and asked, "What is T?" ”

This time it was our turn to be stunned, so we spent another five seconds explaining to her what T is.

After hearing this, she immediately shook her head.

"Then why do you always refuse to accept boys who chase you?" Lin Tie asked.

"I don't even like it," she said with a naturally innocent look.

"Then what kind do you like, we will introduce it to you!" Zhiming said.

"Like my dad!" Li Yunxiang's eyes were still innocent.

"Oh, Electra, there's nothing we can do. All the people in school are in their 20s, who can be like your dad!" Lin Tie shrugged.

"Yes, Yin Yue looks a lot like him. He looks older! Haha" Li Yunxiang said, covering her face and laughing.

At this moment, everyone’s lips showed a smile full of meaning. In fact, it was just a joke, but that’s how I like this thing. It can’t stand being broken down in a few words, let alone He lifted it up again and again. Li Yunxiang gradually became serious. She grew her hair long and wore a long skirt, changing her previous role of a man-in-law and a female-female.

Li Yunxiang sang a song "I Can" by Cai Minyou, and Fat Dou Lin Tie Dafei started to make noises. Zhiming pushed me and whispered a few words in my ear, saying that it would be on him. He has a solution. Li Yunxiang walked towards me slowly with an innocent look on her face again. At this time, someone pushed open the door and came in, a row of women in short skirts and low-cut women, all of them posing and then putting on professional smiles. Zhiming stood up and pushed up his glasses and said, "Yin Yue, I've got everything you asked for. The tip is mine. Let's pick a birthday gift!"

Li Yunxiang was stunned for five seconds: "Yin You bastard!"

Zhiming and I looked at each other and made disgusting faces. Li Yunxiang ran away, and Zhiming stood up and took out two tickets and gave them to Mamasang and asked the girls to leave. Mama Sang put on her signature smile and waved her hand to call it a day. There was only one girl who refused to leave, and she was Ah Di.

"Why don't you leave!" Zhiming asked.

"I'm here to sell wine, not to do a catwalk." Ah Di said.

That night, she wore a ponytail and almost no makeup except for lipstick. If you look closely, you will find that she is not wearing a skirt, but denim shorts.

"Punching, spinning the bottle, rolling dice, counting seven, it's all fine." Ah Di was talking for a long time and leaned down to open the wine.

To be honest, as those of us who have just entered society, no one has ever seen this battle. That night, our entire army was wiped out. Later, Zhiming said, if I had known that I would spend so much money and drink so much wine, I would rather have a singing girl sit beside me and have fun!

It was Ah Di who carried me home that night. I still don’t know how she, a girl, did it and how she got the address from me.

"Don't do this again!" I woke up and lay on the bed rubbing my temples.

"I hate people like you who try to persuade people to be good afterward!" Ah Tao said with half-opened eyes.

"Afterwards? I didn't do anything!" I said.

"I know, otherwise do you think you can still talk to me alive!" Ah Another said.

"Why are you going to the nightclub to accompany me with drinks?" I asked.

"I'm selling, not accompanying," she said disapprovingly.

I was stunned for five seconds.

"I'm here to sell wine, not to accompany you. What are you thinking?" she added.

"Is there any difference?" ”

“The difference is huge. I just work part-time there every night. Once I sell enough drinks, I’ll get off work.” Just like last night, after you finished buying the wine in my hand, I will get off work now! "

I took out a crumpled cigarette from my pocket and put it on it, ready to change the topic that might make her uncomfortable. "You will look better with short hair! ”

She didn’t speak, picked up my phone and entered a series of numbers,

and then her phone rang. She packed her things and left quickly

And I was so drunk that I closed the curtains and fell asleep for a whole day.

She called me at night.

“Come out, Yin Yue. Let me show you something"

"Huh? What to see? ”

“You’ll know it when you see it. ”

She had a short haircut and was very beautiful, as if she had changed into a different person.

That was the second day that Ah Di and I met.

But I felt like I had seen the future. Goodbye Mawei.

It was only a long time later that I found out that the reason why she dared to sell alcohol so aggressively in the nightclub was because Yang Fengchi owned the KTV, and Yang Fengchi owned this city. He is a well-known boss in the city. It is said that he has shares in most KTVs and electronic entertainment centers with similar names in the city. And this Yang Fengchi is Ah Di’s stepfather. She said that her biological father was still very young. When she was young, she committed suicide due to a huge amount of loan sharking. Later, her mother remarried Yang Fengchi. Eight years ago, her mother was involved in a car accident on the highway due to drunk driving. When the rescue was ineffective, she refused to take any more points from Yang Fengchi. Qian secretly went to work as a beer girl in the night market, and was soon discovered by Yang Fengchi’s friends. In desperation, Yang Fengchi had no choice but to let her sell wine in his place to make money. His friend pretended to be a guest and bought all the wine that Ah Di had that night. In fact, it was just to provide her with living expenses. Later, when Ah Di came of age, Yang Fengchi went with her, but Ah Di's reputation as an alcoholic girl also changed. So it was planted.

Thinking of this, I felt that I was a little too sensitive, so I handed Lin Tie a tissue.

I went home with inexplicable suspense.

“Let’s get married. "She said suddenly.

"Are you pregnant? "

"You won't marry me if I don't get pregnant? "

"No, then why did you suddenly quit drinking? "

"Because I want to get married. "

"Why do you suddenly want to get married? ”

“Because I met a noble person like you”

She always made every word she said as light as a joke, but it was impossible to ignore. .

We agreed to register the day after tomorrow and go home separately to get the household registration book.

Before going to bed, she put out the cigarette I had just lit.

"You like children? "She turned sideways and supported her head with her right hand.

"Well, if you have children, you won't be too lonely when you get old." I looked at the ceiling.

"Loneliness is forever. "She buried her head into the pillow.

"Go to sleep. "I noticed that she looked sleepy.

"That thing about the day after tomorrow..."

"See you at the Civil Affairs Bureau"

That day after tomorrow has always been Didn't come.

She never came, she disappeared in that day after tomorrow.

She changed all the connections.

At first I thought it was just a brief prank,

Two days later I started to get angry,

Then I became anxious, but she just disappeared. < /p>

Not long after, Yunxiang came to tell me that she had left this city and had a new love. She had lied to me from beginning to end. Yang Fengchi was not her stepfather at all. She was always a nightclub bar girl from beginning to end. I was stunned for a long time. Yunxiang didn't say anything anymore, and I didn't dare to ask again.

I started moving after half a month, and I couldn't live there anymore. This place has too many memories,

I am like an old piece of clothing stained with ink and oil in the drum washing machine of memories, which cannot be cleaned no matter how much I turn it over.

I put it away. When I was in the room, I saw a medical examination report.

'Ovarian atrophy and infertility due to long-term excessive drinking'

The conversation that night suddenly appeared in my mind.

"Well, if you have children, you won't be too lonely when you get old."

"Loneliness is forever"

"Go to sleep. ”

I lit a cigarette and blew out the smoke into this empty room.

I really want to answer her in front of her, I don’t want to be your noble, I just want to be your return. Waiting for your return, waiting for someone to tell me that this story is not just a game. Later Zhiming said that he had seen her in Qingdao, fisting in a bar with a group of strange men and women. Lin Tie said that Zhiming must have seen it wrong because his myopia was so severe.

On Yunxiang’s birthday the next year, she cut her hair short and wore pants again.

She held up her glass and said that from now on she would be an alcoholic girl.

Pangdou teased, "Don't be ridiculous. How many drinks can you have? You're an alcoholic girl."

Lin Tie still spoke freely, that’s right! Ah Di is a professional drinker!

Zhiming pushed up his glasses and then pushed me up, signaling not to be too serious with Lin Tie, that’s just his character.

I just smiled and said nothing.

Yunxiang stood up and said,

My mother said that when I was born, I weighed nine kilograms and two taels,

So I am a veritable nine kilograms. Damn girl!

I don’t know why at that moment I remembered what Ah Di said

Everyone is an island, and no island can be connected.

Loneliness is forever, a courage and state that continues to exist.

I may have been a little drunk, so I shouted "Auld Lang Syne."

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