Genius is on the left and madman is on the right. Chapter 12 The Taste of Apples Classic Dialogue

The Taste of Apples

He has been missing for about a month. His family can't find him, his relatives and friends can't find him, and no one knows where he has gone. When the police knocked down his house, they found him sitting on the ground naked and looking puzzled at the people who rushed in.

So, a few days later, I sat in front of him.

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he: I almost died laughing when they thought I was sick. ?

I:

He:? This is really my fault. I only said I was on a business trip for a week, but I never recovered. A month < P > I:? What did you do at home by yourself?

he smiled slyly:? Would you believe me if I said I didn't do anything?

me: You really didn't do anything?

he thought for a moment: Looks like it. ?

me: Why do you say that?

he: Hmm? My brain is busy? Do you understand that?

me: Part of it. ?

he: I'm releasing my spirit. ?

I reacted:? You mean meditation or something?

he: No, no, no, not that. Or different, I don't know, but I've been like this for years. ?

me: What's starting?

he: Don't worry, I'll tell you from the beginning. I had inadvertently seen the nine-year meditation of Dharma's face wall (say 11 years), and I was curious, what did he do? Sitting at the mouth of the mountain for so many years? What did you realize? I am extremely curious about this, and I am a curious person. I really want to know. ?

me: Do you believe in Zen? Have the idea of becoming a monk?

he: No, no, I think, I mean, I think, being a monk is just a form, and there is really no need to stick to any form. If you want to believe in Buddhism, you can believe it. If you want to participate in Zen, you can participate. Who said that you can't believe it at work? Who says you have to be in a temple to be abstinent? Belief, belief, don't believe in yourself, is it meaningful to go to the temple? Back to the point? According to the book, those ancient people always went to the mountains to practice, mostly alone? It doesn't count to bring a woman in. Is that a life style problem? Most of them are very powerful when they come out in the mountains after a few years; There are also martial arts novels that learn from this. They always close their doors and do nothing to lock themselves up. However, compared with Niu Yi, the ancients were able to walk against the wind after practicing in the mountains. < P > I smiled. Is there an artistic exaggeration? Still written in poetry? Three thousand feet of white hair? What about? ?

he: Well, yes, but I don't want to fly. I just want to know what it feels like. ?

me: Then you just

he:? Right, and then I started it four years ago. ?

me: Four years ago?

he: Yes, but it didn't last that long at first, and it happened once a year. The first time was less than 4 days, and then it became longer and longer. ?

me: You finally got to the point. ?

he smiled: I have to explain my motives to you, or I will be regarded as a mental illness. ?

me: Mental illness. ?

he smiled with great joy: Oh, well, the first time I took my annual leave. I prepared water and a lot of white steamed buns in advance, and then told my parents that I was on a business trip. I turned off my mobile phone, unplugged the telephone line, locked the door and finally pulled the switch at home. ?

me: Pull the switch?

he: I was afraid that I couldn't help watching TV or something, so I pulled the switch. Then I did nothing but stay at home. I don't read books, newspapers and magazines, I don't do anything, I don't communicate, I am thirsty to drink water, I am hungry to eat steamed bread without any seasoning, I am sleepy and wake up. If possible, do not wear clothes. Anyway, cut off all contact with modern civilization as much as possible, do nothing, just stand, stroll and sit upside down, whatever. ?

I looked at him curiously.

he: At the beginning, about the first 24 hours, I was a little excited, and my mind was in a mess, thinking about everything. But after only half a day, I was bored. I didn't know what to do, so I went to sleep. I woke up at night, there was no electricity, and there was no need to turn on the light. Anyway, I did nothing. At that time, I really wanted to see who sent me a text message or something, so I held back. When I was in a daze until the early hours of the morning, I felt better, and my mind began to think of something I couldn't remember before. ?

me: What do you have?

he: It's all boring things, such as how hard my dad beat me when I was a child. The next night was the hardest, when my mind was clean, but it was because of that that I felt bored. Besides, began to recall the taste of all kinds of food? Because my mouth is so blank that I have collapsed, not hungry, but greedy. In fact, the first 48 hours are the hardest, because doing nothing can't calm down. ?

me: Do you eat?

he: I don't want to eat, because steamed bread and white water have no taste. Tell me something you may not understand: I was confused for a while and felt that I was eating boiled corn and drinking coke. When I woke up, I felt that my mouth smelled of coke and boiled corn. Really, don't laugh, really, I was hallucinating. ?

me: Then why do you persist?

he: It's only been less than two days, and besides, I think something has surfaced. ?

me: What's emerging?

he: Don't worry. Listen to me. When it was almost 48 hours, I vaguely felt that some things seemed very interesting, but then I got sleepy and fell asleep. When I woke up, I found something different. I realized the existence of feelings, too real, not specious. ?

me: How does it feel?

he: It's not a feeling, but a feeling that does exist. Feeling this thing is wonderful. When you are overwhelmed by the information brought by other senses, you can't realize the existence of feeling, at least it is not obvious. It feels like a thin layer of fog floating on the body surface. Whenever you come into contact with a new person or thing, you will feel like an antenna to explore? Then give yourself the most direct feedback. I remember that sometimes when facing strangers, it is easy to give them a label at the beginning. If that label is a bad evaluation, it will directly affect the attitude and last for a long time. This is the impression caused by feeling. Whenever you pay attention to a person, the tentacles of feeling will be dispatched first? Even if it's just a stranger. Have you ever been in this situation? Smile at strangers or stop paying attention? That's caused by feelings. Directly caused. Of course, the other side is also testing you with sensory tentacles, mutual. In fact, after 48 hours of self-isolation, I will always ponder the existence of feelings, as well as surprise and curiosity. Because, feeling has been suppressed by color, fragrance, taste and so on for too long, I think after all, this is a complicated and confusing world, and it is not easy to clearly realize the existence of feeling? Or, is it easy? Only few people are willing to do it. ?

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I hesitated to ask:? Did you wake up then?

he: I really woke up, and when I woke up, I didn't open my eyes, so I felt unusually sensitive, or the information I felt was extremely obvious? I think so. When you were a child, did you ever get up before it was time to get up, but you seemed to have started brushing your teeth, washing your face and eating, and went out, and then suddenly woke up? I haven't got up yet! Actually, it just feels like it's already ahead. ?

me: There seems to be, but I think it's imaginary or dreaming.

He:? No, no, it's different. It's definitely different. That kind of reality is more than imagination and dreaming. In the first year, I only realized the feeling, but it was already fun. In the next few years, I will be self-enclosed for about a week, which is basically no problem. ?

me: Closed for a week?

he: Huh? Haha, yes, it's closed for a week. However, what comes after feeling is more interesting. ? And he smiled mysteriously.

I also looked at him with a smile.

he: Usually in? Closed? After 4 or 5 days, the feeling is also diluted, because you can't get in touch with strange things, and the later stage may surpass the feeling. It's possible because I'm not sure what it is after that. So I will temporarily define the existence of spirit. What emerges after feeling is spirit. Of course, I didn't want to move anything or float around by myself, but it's still meaningful to vaguely feel the existence of the spirit. It's hard for me to express clearly what it is. To say that it's popular is only words but words, and to say that it's simple is to have a lot of understanding that I didn't have before. Moreover, this understanding I am talking about can include all. For example, if I churn out everything in my memory and filter it one by one, I will understand something, see through what I can't see through, figure out what I can't figure out, and get into a harmonious state? That's about it? That kind of state will be very interesting. Is it a kind of trust that makes the spirit gallop? Hmm? How to describe it? Just use the state? Maybe? I don't know how long it will take, maybe ten hours, twenty hours or more, and the concept of time is weak, which is particularly obvious! ?

me: Can't you describe it more clearly?

he: Well, I don't understand at all. Anyway, I generally described it to you. Actually, I planned for two weeks this time, but I didn't expect it to take so long? But when they came in, I had a vague feeling that there was something behind the spirit, and that was even more unclear. It was really fleeting. It's amazing for a moment, and then you can't find it again? And one more thing, it may also be related to the small amount of exercise. When I am in a state of self-spirit, I eat a little a day, and it is not easy to get hungry, haha, really. ?

me: The one behind the spirit, what do you vaguely think it is. ?

he: I don't know. What am I thinking? Well, I don't know? Give me more time and I may know. However, I do understand much better. In fact, it is really possible for Dharma or something to face the wall for many years, and it will not be boring. Do you think I'm bored?

me: I don't think so. What you said is very interesting. ?

he: Really?

I looked at him calmly: Of course it's true. ?

he smiled slyly again:? Let me tell you a secret. I deliberately prepare an apple for every retreat? Come back? The beginning of. ?

me: Apple? Is it to eat?

he: Yeah, but last. That's the taste of apples! ?

me: Apple? What's that smell?

He half squinted with intoxication. When I decided to finish, I took out the apples prepared in advance, washed them clean, and felt strange at the tiny particles on the peel. I froze for a while and tentatively bit them down? I guess most people don't know the real taste of apples! Let me tell you something: when you cut the peel with your teeth, the original faint fresh taste broke through a critical point and began to spread in your mouth gradually, and the taste gradually became rich. With the slow chewing, the juice splashed on the tip of the tongue, absolutely savage and violent over the dry taste buds? Every tiny particle in the pulp is scrambling to crack, releasing more and more apple flavor. The peel and flesh are cut into small pieces and move between the teeth, spreading the taste to every corner of the mouth like an impact? The fragrance of apples slides down the throat with the juice? Oh, my god The freshly washed taste buds are almost pious to send this message to the brain? All the senses, after those days of being forgotten, are dominated by spirit and feeling, accompanied by an apple, making a comeback! Gee, I can't help drooling when I think about it now. ?

the excitement of watching him really aroused my desire for apples.

I couldn't help swallowing: Have you tried any other fruits?

he swallowed again: Not yet, I always think: try something else next time! But when it comes to the last minute, I am particularly greedy for the excitement that apples give me? Really, to say something particularly worthless: you have to try it for the sake of apples, and it will take two days. ?

I have been infected by his description: then what

It took him a while to recover from his thoughts about Apple. And? Oh, then there is a feeling of finding yourself again. I don't intend to give up my body because of those days' wandering, but I firmly control my body. It's so real that I feel very practical in everything I do. It is unified and clear. I think the spirit of exile is back. ?

when I went home that day, I bought some apples specially, and I left one of them on the table for a long time. That is used to question myself: Do I really know the taste of apples? ;