Before leaving, Gao Ran said to Xiao Xia: You must find someone reliable. It was repeated three times. Gu Liang, who was sitting behind the electric car, was speechless at first, but the third time she stubbornly said "No". Gao Ran laughed dumbly, a little embarrassed: Are you going against me?
?It is already the end of June, and the whole city is still green and green. The sea breeze is blowing, and it is not cool like summer. Indeed, there is no summer.
PART1
It was summer when I first met Gao Ran. There was no romantic opening line, but a lot of good blood to drink. At a friend's party, the two singles got together because they seemed to like each other. Just like the beginning of all couples, walking in the jungle, watching movies in the cinema, cooking and eating together... It seems that this kind of warmth happens over and over again in all lonely cities far away from hometown and relatives, but some find the right one, and the long-term They are happy and contented for a long time; some are separated and never see each other again.
Xiao Xia thought the same way, but it was unknown what Gao Ran thought.
? Xiaoxia remembers Gao Ran saying: "I really want to get a dog, so that when I get off work, I won't be alone in the room." At that time, Xiaoxia was still in her junior year, living on campus, and she was not used to lovers spending endless amounts of time together. Hearing the silence, I felt a little distressed and a little sad. After all, he didn't buy the dog. Gao Ran wouldn't have the energy to take care of it, and Xiao Xia wouldn't be able to. However, Xiaoxia's friend Axun bought a little pug.
Axun is a classmate of Xiaoxia University. He dislikes the accommodation environment of the school and has his girlfriend A Cai, so he rents a house near the school. Axun is very capable. He worked very hard in business during his freshman and sophomore years. By his junior year, he was able to act as an agent for a well-known branch in K Province. He renovated his own store and became an agency owner. He paid for his tuition and living expenses by himself. He also found a part-time job by the way. And so on, students in the school area also earn pocket money, and those who are popular are free of charge. His girlfriend A Cai graduated from H Province one year older than Axun, and she really couldn't stand being in a different place. After graduation, she happened to come to Axun's place. The two of them helped each other, and they felt like a husband and a wife.
? When they were renting a house earlier, Xiao Xia was very happy. She went to have a meal every now and then. Who told Ah Cai to have good cooking skills? By the way, she fanned the flames and asked Axun: Such a virtuous and beautiful woman, how are you going to cook? When are you going to propose? Please marry A Cai. Often at this time, Axun and Bai Xiaoxia glanced at each other: There are so many delicious things that can’t stop you? A Cai chuckled: Xiaoxia, you should eat more, your little arms are as thin as bamboo poles. Xiaoxia pursed her lips and smiled, as if she felt at home.
Food is not free. Xiaoxia is not Yue Lao, but she is almost as old as He Shi Lao. The principle of opposites attracting does not work here at all in Xiaoxia. He is clearly Axun's friend, but he is more at ease with Azai. Food cannot be disappointed, and neither can people's hearts. So on the long-distance love journey between Axun and Acai, Xiaoxia also experienced various ups and downs at the same time. Sometimes Xiaoxia also laments that her love boat cannot be well maintained, but she can surprisingly protect other people's giant ships.
PART2
?For example, Gao Ran. Gao Ran is Xiao Xia's first love.
Before meeting Gao Ran, Xiaoxia discovered for the first time that there could be such a person in the world who could take care of herself so much, because she had always taken care of others. Oddly enough, two people with similar temperaments should get along better, right? The fact is exactly the opposite. Xiaoxia's willfulness and bad temper are more than exposed in Gao Ran. Sometimes Xiaoxia thinks back and feels that she is quite incredible, because she has never done this to her friends, including her family. For example, losing your temper for no reason because of a bad mood, or having a disagreement, and blurting out "We can't communicate." The funny thing is that when Xiaoxia first fell in love, she was always wondering why two people in love would quarrel? Facts have proved to you that as long as you think about it, it can be any little thing.
? Gao Ran insisted that Xiaoxia live with him, and he made this request many times. Xiao Xia doesn't want to. She thinks the school is very good and has many friends. Of course, she has selfish motives, and she always feels that she is not as free and easy and brave as A Cai. But Gao Ran said that when he got off work, he really didn't want to go back to the empty house. Xiaoxia was also very conflicted in her heart, and she was still unwilling to face it. This kind of conflict continued until the summer vacation and completely broke out. Gao Ran was almost super disappointed and had a showdown with Xiao Xia: If this is the case, I think it will be difficult to go on. Xiaoxia was very sad and felt that Gao Ran actually needed companionship before he needed love. Maybe he didn't love her. And what about yourself? Naturally, they are also selfish and greedy. They want to stick to their own principles, but they are reluctant to let go of the happiness of first acquaintance. Love is really not pure, it requires exchange of equal value, just like two people crossing a single-plank bridge. You are at this end and I am at the other end. Since they are both unwilling to give in, then let's pull hard.
Although the words seem to say so, the reality is not entirely so.
Especially when he recalled that when Xiaoxia was still in the new campus, Gao Ran would run to the bus terminal as soon as he got off work, take the evening bus, and travel for several hours to this suburban school just to meet Xiaoxia. Secondly, The next morning I had to rush back to my noon shift. So Xiaoxia packed up from the dormitory at around five o'clock in the morning, and despite the irritability of other girls in the dormitory being woken up in the morning, she hurriedly sent Gao Ran back to the city to work. After the days of tossing and tossing like this cooled down with the passion of love, both of them were wondering where they had the time and energy at that time. Just like Xiaoxia's cold war when she was angry, Gao Ran seemed to gradually stop caring. But love is a process of growth after all. Gao Ran was also surprised by Xiaoxia's changes. For example, she was no longer tricky and mean-tongued. She was willing to accompany her to do things he wanted to do, such as accompanying him to meet his friends. For example, there was a At the weekend, all the dirty clothes piled in the basin have been washed. That time, Gao Ran looked at the clothes hanging on the balcony, suddenly hugged Xiao Xia from behind and said: Xia Xia, don't do such things in the future, thank you. Another time, Gao Ran was still working overtime during his birthday. He was already very tired that day. When he walked to the community, he actually found Xiao Xia there holding a cake... It seemed that the sweet memories stayed at the time when they first met. The distance was obviously so far at that time, but there was unending yearning and attachment. Now that the distance is close, all kinds of trivial disputes and cold wars have gradually turned into an insurmountable gap.
PART3
?The two separated for no reason. In fact, it was just an unrestricted extension of the previous cold war. As Xiaoxia expected, Gao Ran did not come to express reconciliation or anything else, but what was different from the past was that Xiaoxia never took the initiative to contact Gao Ran. Even Xiaoxia didn't know the reason for such unexplainable persistence, and she didn't even want to recall her original intention.
? Until two days before the summer solstice, and nearly a year and a half has passed since that seemingly broken relationship. On a night after listening to friend A's extremely sad emotional talk, Xiaoxia comforted and enlightened her in various ways. After sending A, who was in tears, back to her residence, walking under the bright moonlight, Gao Ran suddenly came to her heart. He opened his phone and dialed the call almost without thinking. The strange thing was that Gao Ran was very happy and said: You actually called me. That tone was most similar to the night of the quarrel, when Xiao Xia was still angry and full of grievances. It was the same as the happiness she felt when she heard him talk about where he was singing karaoke with a group of friends. And this has been a year and a half, and I can't seem to remember the feeling at that time. It's just that in the calm narratives of both parties, there are some strange emotions accompanying it, I don't know if they are happy or happy.
? So we made an appointment to meet. It was the day after Gao Ran’s birthday. I heard that Gao Ran didn’t celebrate his birthday very much. Xiaoxia specially ordered a cake and took it there. When friend A heard about it, he joked sarcastically: " Hey, are you meeting your old lover? Remember to dress nicely, tsk tsk~Xia Xia!" Xiao Xia said nothing and walked up with her fist.
?When they met again, Xiaoxia suddenly felt that she didn’t know what to say. Compared with the smooth answering on the phone, the air was accidentally filled with embarrassment. Gao Ran was alone, still looking refreshing. It seems a lot whiter, Xiaoxia thought to herself. He still thoughtfully took the heavy object in Xiaoxia's hand - the cake. His eyes flashed, but he only said: It was my birthday yesterday. Fortunately, there was enough curiosity to fill the gap while waiting for the food to be served, and it was a pleasant and satisfying meal. Xiao Xia heard Gao Ran say that work was getting busier and busier, and he had been getting a salary increase recently. She heard him say that a good friend was getting married, and she laughed out loud when he told him about his strange blind date experience. Then, Gao Ran looked at Xiao Xia and said, "What about you?"
Xiao Xia looked a little flustered at Gao Ran's serious look, but said with a naughty smile, "What do you think?" ? p>
Gao Ran tilted his head and smiled too. At the end, he added, "I resigned and was going home. Fortunately, you made an appointment with me early..."
Xiaoxia's heart skipped a beat and she almost spilled the juice in her hand. He repeated: "Oh, yes... such a coincidence." But his eyes had already wandered, and he happened to see the pudding on Gao Ran's plate, which was originally an exquisite heart shape. Maybe it was because of the high temperature in the store, or maybe he was chatting. I was so happy that I was already so soft that I was out of shape. So he lowered his eyelids and said: "The pudding here is so delicious, yours will melt."
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PART4
" Here we are." Gao Ran really took her to this place - a beach in the city, where they had their first date.
? It is already night, the sky is dark blue, what is the distant coastline? Xiaoxia never figured it out. The bright and broken lights flickered, with the sea or the sky? In one piece, the sound of crashing waves followed one after another.
? The sea breeze blew a little cold, Xiaoxia crossed her arms, and suddenly remembered the joke Gao Ran told a long time ago: A couple went to climb a mountain to watch the sunrise, and it was so cold when they reached the top of the mountain in the early morning. , Gu Liang crossed her arms, the man glanced at her and said: Are you cold? Gu Liang looked at the boy's thin clothes and smiled and said, "I'm not cold." Then the boy said, "Can you take off your coat for me?" So Xiaoxia looked at the white T-shirt Gao Ran was wearing. Just laughed.
Xiaoxia asked: "Are you cold?" Gao Ran glanced at Xiaoxia, first said, "It's a bit cold here", and then he laughed as if he had woken up.
? After a moment of silence, Xiaoxia asked: "When did you decide to leave?"
Gao Ran scratched his head: "It was last week."
"Why? ?"
?"...The work pressure is too great, and the family keeps urging me to go back."
"Have everything been packed?"
"Yes. Tomorrow's air ticket."
?"That's good, right?" At this moment, Xiaoxia herself didn't know whether she was talking to Gao Ran or herself.
?Gao Ran just turned his back to answer the phone, "Hmm, okay...ok...I'll be back soon."
"My friend called...yes, you What did you just say?" Gao Ran came over after hanging up the phone.
?"Are you going back?" Xiaoxia's heart suddenly tightened.
"Hmm". Gao Randa was absent-minded, and the screen of his mobile phone dimmed. When he looked up, he seemed to see Xiao Xia's frown. Maybe it was an illusion, but were those big eyes filled with reluctance?
? For a moment, he seemed to raise his hand and touch Xiaoxia's head, but maybe his arm was too heavy - not really.
All I know is that until he left, Xiaoxia might not have left... Xia Zhi... After that, they never contacted each other again.
?Maybe it was like this all summer and nothing happened.
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