I think of her occasionally, especially recently. She is my first good friend, Ru. The gift she gave me for my thirteenth birthday was a small yellow bear, which is still lying on my daughter’s crib. It is one of her favorite dolls.
She transferred to our school when she was in the third grade of elementary school. I still remember that she had a short mushroom head, double eyes, a straight nose, and two plump lips. Because of these two lips, she was dubbed the "dachshund girl". Thinking about it now, she didn't understand what sexy was at that time. She is fair and delicate, and when seen from a distance, she always gives people a beautiful and fresh feeling. As soon as she arrived, she integrated into the most popular small group in the class. Two girls from well-off families and their followers accepted her. Soon, she became the most dazzling little girl in the class.
But I was the inconspicuous little chubby girl in the corner, with average grades, freckles on my face, and an introverted personality. I never thought I would be friends with her, but we did, in fourth grade. I think it was her who took the initiative to get close to me, because I have always been so passive, even when it comes to friendship.
We got along so well. We went to and from school together, whispered together during class, I went to her house to do homework, we went to the beach to play in the sand, and we also went to a military camp to play with the facilities there. In fact, It is a facility used to train the navy to get seasick, and we use it to swing on. We studied zodiac signs together, read comics, read books, and wrote small notes. We also liked the same boy. Yes, at that time, girls’ friendship would not be destroyed by this. We liked the same boy and the same idol. It's the same, it's a different hobby, very different from competing against each other when you grow up. Later, when I grew up and watched TV, I saw sad stories about good friends or sisters liking the same man. I couldn't help but sigh. Only the love in childhood is pure love, and the friendship at that time is the real and strong friendship. .
Because of Ru, I was lucky enough to be part of that most popular small group and also attend the annual birthday party of one of the little girls from the best family. We barbecued, ate cakes and sang karaoke at the birthday party. Ru always sang a lot of pop songs. She had a sweet singing voice and we all loved singing along with her. At birthday parties, I was occasionally reserved, but she always took care of me and came to accompany me so that I would not be ignored in the crowd. Once, my mother grounded me because I did not do well in a quiz, and I was unable to attend the birthday party. She also mobilized my friends to come to our store to intercede for me, so that I could successfully attend the birthday party.
She always takes me to experience the wonderful things that I may not be able to experience when I am alone, such as group activities, delicious food, and the latest trendy things. For an eleven or twelve year old girl, those are too important. And even though I am very fat, she can still patiently accompany me shopping for clothes and give me advice. Her tall and thin figure makes everything look good. Fat girls always develop early. When I was shy because of the two "steamed buns" on my chest, she showed her envy generously. She put balloons in her clothes and told me how much she wished she could be herself. In the future, the figure can be so "material". With her, I never need to feel inferior, because in her bright eyes, she can always see the beauty in me and the excellence that others cannot discover.
Her uncle’s family is doing business in Chinatown in the United States, and her two cousins ??are both in the United States. She always told me that when she grows up, she will definitely go to the United States. This is Ru, the girl who has always lived in a different world from me. Although we are always together, I always feel very different from her. Until one day she told me that her father was having an affair.
She came to my house crying one evening in summer. Her father was a sailor and came home several times a month. She learned about this from her mother. Her mother expressed She showed a kind of helplessness and calmness, but she reacted very violently, and no one could persuade her. I didn't know how to comfort her, so I just walked with her on the beach road and listened to her detailing all the signs that she suspected her father was cheating on her. Many times, adults always think that children don’t understand anything. In fact, children are sensitive by nature and will speculate on every clue for a long time.
And I don’t understand anything. Although my parents have never cheated on each other, they have always been in a cold war and quarreled. For me, as long as we don’t get divorced, it should be fine.
I still underestimated the harm this incident would do to Ru. After that, her parents did not divorce, but Ru gradually became different. I occasionally saw scratch marks on her hands. She told me that she cut her hands with broken mirror fragments. Her temper became erratic and sensitive. At that time, I was really too young and never told her parents or my parents about this. Or at that time, I always felt that my parents were the ones who would cause us trouble, rather than the ones who would solve it.
When I entered junior high school, it was the first time that the two of us ended being "inseparable". Because of the household registration issue, I went to a school far away from home. I biked to the school for half an hour, four times a day. . She was assigned to a reputable school nearby and started to make new friends. We kept writing letters, and she told me interesting things about their school, including which boy in the high school was the most handsome and played the best ball, and which girl liked the boy. She tried to get close to him by helping him with his homework, but in the end, he was imprisoned by a group of girls because he was too pretentious. I poured cold water in the girls' restroom and appeared in the classroom all wet. From then on, I never dared to approach that handsome and lawless boy.
In comparison, my life in junior high school was much duller. I returned to my introverted and shy look. I carried a big schoolbag every day and just attended class seriously, but I couldn't escape the fact that I often failed in math. of misfortune. There were originally only two classes in the afternoon, but a leader in the school asked me to take one more self-study class. When I got home, it was already dinner time. I can't experience any fun of junior high school life, or in other words, I can't experience any fun of life without Ru.
Ru had her first boyfriend when she was in the second grade of junior high school. He was a boy in the second grade of high school at her school. I met him at a barbecue party and he looked a lot like JJ Lin. She told me how he captured her little heart through various pursuits, and all the happy, beautiful, and trivial things between him and her. This is Ru. She helped me experience everything I had never experienced in my youth or youth. At that time, while I was envious, jealous and hated her, I was also a little worried about her future.
When I was in the third grade of junior high school, I didn’t have much time to spend with Ru because I was busy preparing for the high school entrance examination. After the high school entrance examination, I successfully went to an ordinary high school, while she chose to work. When I changed from a chubby girl to a somewhat skinny girl, she suddenly gained plumpness. Her previously flat cup suddenly turned up several notches. When I saw it, I was really shocked. It was a cup that I only got many years later when I was breastfeeding, and at that time, it grew on Ru's girlish body. . I wanted to congratulate her for finally becoming the big-breasted girl of her dreams, but judging from her expression, it didn't seem like she was that much of a surprise.
After Ru graduated from junior high school, she got her ID card in advance and went to work. Her first job was as a salesperson in a jewelry store, earning a few hundred yuan a month. She used her salary to pay her family's utility bills, and spent the rest on her own. Most of the money was used to buy clothes and snacks. She was still with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend took the college entrance examination and went to Guangzhou to study at a junior college. She vaguely told me that her boyfriend’s mother did not approve of their relationship because her education was too low. She borrowed high school books from me and wanted to repeat them later or go to night school to study in high school, but in the end she gave up.
I participated in a barbecue organized by her one summer night after the college entrance examination. We were still the same friends in elementary school. The difference is that we all have different life paths. Her JJ Lin boyfriend was obviously a size fatter. That night, I could no longer see the light of love in the way he looked at her.
My university is in Chaozhou. One summer night during my sophomore year, Ru called me at around ten o'clock in the evening and said that she was in Chaozhou and wanted to visit me. She told me that she had broken up with her boyfriend. I promised to take the bus to find her, but our dormitory closed at eleven o'clock and I couldn't go, so I had to refuse. She wasn't angry, but I missed an opportunity to be there for her through some sad times.
After breaking up with her boyfriend, she went to work as a front desk clerk in a high-end hotel. It is said that the job paid well, but she still had to wear a thin cheongsam in the cold winter.
She told me that she would wear two pairs of stockings. One time she came to see me after get off work. I was reading a book in bed, and she got into my bed to keep warm. I have never thought about why Ru wants to do such a job, even if it pays relatively well. She originally took going to the United States as a matter of course in her life. Her reply was that her uncle did not advise her to go to the United States after the 9/11 incident.
Later, she would occasionally invite us to eat and drink tea in a high-end cafe during winter and summer vacations. Every time she finished eating, a man would come to help her pay the bill. The man was not young. She explained to us that it was her supervisor. At that time, Ru and I no longer had the closeness we had in childhood when we talked about everything. It seemed like there was a sea between us. She didn't want to swim over, and I couldn't swim at all.
The last time I saw Ru was in a cross-stitch shop she owned. She had opened a Korean restaurant, but it failed due to poor management. In those years, the cross-stitch business slowly declined. She was doing cross stitch in the shop, chatting with a few of our friends, and next to her was her boss. A friend has been dating her boyfriend for four or five years. When she found out, she asked in a sharp tone: "When are you going to break up?" This made the other person very embarrassed. I looked at her very delicate eye makeup in silence. Her skin was still delicate and fair, but her expression had undergone indescribable changes.
She finally said with a sigh: "There are no lovers in the world who never break up."
Later, I never saw Ru again, and her cross-stitch shop was closed. Just like many years ago, I never took the initiative to contact her, and she never took the initiative again, so we were like this , never met each other in any crowd again.
When I think of her occasionally, I hope she can believe in love and have love. I hope she has a lovely daughter who inherits her beautiful appearance and charming personality. I hope she She really went to the United States and lived her wonderful life.
Because she has always been such a beautiful woman.