Have you ever experienced the feeling that a yearning person, Qian Shan, came for you?

The first time I met him, it was three years after we were together. It was four months since we met.

From the winter vacation of grade three to the winter vacation of grade three, it seems a long time. But after two years, everything seems like yesterday, but what can be changed?

We are from the same place. His cousin is my brother. I know his cousin better than I know him. More than a dozen people in the group always want to fix us up. I have seen his photos, and his eyes are beautiful and round, like deer.

At that time, I was already a girl who could smoke and drink. I thought, how could there be such a beautiful person? It was too clean to be true.

Then one day, he talked to me privately, saying that he had paid attention to me for a long time and liked my personality. I also told him, "I am not you." In fact, I have been saying in my heart for a long time: You must be kind to him. He is so clean, even if there is no ending, you should protect him.

Later, we got together. I called me every day, and I secretly took my mother's mobile phone to open a video for him. I was so bored that I had to ask me to kiss him, using my love head, the couple's online name, and the couple's wallpaper. Almost all online dating has done silly things, and we have all done them. < P > Later, I went back to school, and I really missed him when I didn't have a mobile phone. We only have a holiday every three weeks before we can chat, which makes us cherish the days when we can chat more. I have the habit of keeping a diary. In those three years, all my diaries were about him. Words that don't make sense, missed tea and rice, longing for a bright future, and meticulous grievances will all be told to him.

Because I couldn't stand homesickness, I saved up to buy my first mobile phone for 499 yuan in my freshman year, and I took off happily, but I only spent 7 yuan a week at that time.

For him, I never went to the drinking place again, and I never went down when I was fighting, pretending to be mature. Enjoying the sweetness he gave me wholeheartedly, I wrote down my love for him word by word

Later, during the winter vacation of senior three, he still told me where to take me when he got back, and told me to "break up" after five o'clock

I just froze, smiled and asked him, this game is enough once, why do you want to play it, stop it, baby? I'm here

but what's the use? He deleted my QQ, hacked my WeChat, and the phone was on the phone. I cried from 7: to 12: , and my mother didn't dare to call me to eat.

I cried at home day and night for three days, and I got out of bed like a dead body, taking a shower, washing clothes, cleaning my room, cooking and eating.

I felt that I was wandering back to school after school. It's him who dreams every night. He came back, he left, or he came to me, and I stepped back ... When I woke up, my pillow was wet, tears were on my hairline, and sweat was on the back of my neck < P > When I calmed down, he added my friend back and left a message on my space, "We have no result, even if we love you", and commented on my space "I hope you are well, love your dog". I went to see his space every day, but I actually saw him open a couple's space. I ran to ask his cousin, and his cousin said that he seemed to see them walking together a few months ago. < P > I collapsed at once. At that time, the headmaster came to check the evening self-study in the senior three classroom, and there were two nights of self-study. I sent him a message with my mobile phone, made a phone call, and dared not cry. I almost choked with my mouth and nose, and my tears wet a lot of clothes on my legs. The whole person was shaking so much that I couldn't hold my mobile phone stably

After class at night, I was crying until I lost my strength and couldn't stand up at all. That night, I changed someone else's mobile phone to call him, and I cried my heart out. He guessed it was me and kept listening to me cry

That night, I knelt down and begged him to come back to see me. It's enough at a glance

He promised

Have you ever felt that Qian Shan, the person you love so much, is coming to you?

That feeling of being close to you every moment, every movement affects your feeling, every orientation is about your feeling, and even the heartbeat is in his direction

At that time, I went to class until six o'clock on Saturday in the third year of senior high school, and I left the school directly after class, opening WeChat.

5m！

1m！

5m！

13.4m！

look up! He's just across the street.

I fantasized about countless scenes where we met, sobbing, hugging deeply, bowing our heads shyly, pretending to be calm ...

But I didn't think it was like this: two people were relatively silent, and I stopped at the same place. He stood across the street and looked at me and smiled. He seemed to have changed, a little different, but he didn't seem to change.

He came up to me. He's a stranger like that, even though he's smiling, even though he's still gentle in the video.

He held my hand, and my mobile phone has been locked in the camera state, trying to take pictures with him, but he didn't dare. He found out long ago. He raised his hand and untied my mobile phone, because it was his birthday.

We took many photos, walked through every corner of my town, held my hand and held my shoulder. When I meet a dog on the road, he will pull me to the other side. He will pinch my hand at a small hurdle. He will take all the food he bought and feed it to me in small bites.

I try not to remind myself that he came without telling his girlfriend. He called his girlfriend, and I feel guilty. I really should feel guilty, because the unloved person is the mistress.

At ten o'clock, he was there. Staring at my eyes, I can't bear to close my eyes. His eyes are not as clear as before, and there is no sense of agility.

He only brought two sets of his own clothes in his suitcase, as well as the gifts I gave him for the first, second and third anniversary.

That night, we didn't sleep. When I turned over, he pulled the quilt for me and wanted to drink water in the middle of the night. He went to the front desk and asked for hot water from the water dispenser. When he came back, I was half asleep.

It was almost my happiest day.

When I saw him off, we took the time to go to the station. In the last ten minutes, I kissed him on tiptoe and stared at his eyes, and my tears fell. At that time, my mother came. She saw me kissing him and she didn't speak.

I stayed in the hospital for the longest time so far the next day. His girlfriend used all kinds of trumpets to scold me for several months, but obviously I didn't talk to him at all, so that once a girl added me, I was in tears

Later, a brother heard about this and asked someone to get the girl. We were only halfway there, and he had already taken her away and went to Shanghai

As for how I gave up: they were in Shanghai, and his girlfriend scolded me again, and I said, ". You came to scold me for him, and you lost to him; You can't control your mouth, you lost to yourself. "Then she deleted me.

In the evening, he sent me a message and asked me what I told her.

He said that she went to the balcony to drink in the afternoon, and the police and the fire brigade came.

I asked him, is he dead? Do you want me to pay for it?

He told me: If you dare to touch her, I will fucking kill you

...

No, it's over, and then he added me to my list.

In May of 19, he got a marriage certificate

In June of 19, he got a wedding photo

In November of 19.