Some people say that breaking up after graduation is a curse, but three months have passed and I still can't escape. ......
When my friend went out to work, I smirked for two hours and collapsed at the moment she stepped out of the door.
I looked through all the chat records when we were together, and the boring, funny, quarreling, sweet ... memories spread bit by bit:
It was raining heavily in Xi 'an that day, and I wandered in front of the library alone because I didn't bring my umbrella. You came up to me and said, "classmate, didn't you bring an umbrella?" Do you want me to take you home? "You hold up an umbrella and nod to me. Two little tiger teeth laughed and looked natural and harmless. I look at the sky, it's getting late, and the rain doesn't mean anything, so I have to bite the bullet and nod embarrassedly. You may be aware of my formality, but you didn't say much all the way. You sent me to the bottom of the dormitory and disappeared in the rainy night.
In the evening, I received a strange message: "Hi, Su Meng, I forgot to introduce myself! My name is Zhang Yijie. Don't forget to soak a cup of sugar water in the rain to drive away the cold! "
This is the first message you sent me.
In the days to come, I will often hear from you, such as meeting in the library to remind people to bring rain gear when it rains, and to pay attention to cold protection when it is cold ... Then we got together and sent messages instead of calling. However, more often, you still like to send messages. You said you could show it to your son in the future and let him know that chasing girls is not easy. If you want to spoil them, you will spoil them for life. This is testimony. ...
Tears flowed from one person to another until the dam burst.
Look down until the last "…" symbol at the bottom of the page. You don't like to use periods. When you say a period, it means that everything is over, and the ellipsis means that everything has changed for the better. But I know our relationship is really over this time. Because after breaking up, you left the city where we lived together for four years and disappeared into my world completely. The finger hesitated on the delete key for a long time, but still silently clicked exit.
After receiving an interview call from the interviewer, I finally realized that I should go out and find a decent job to support myself. Out of the community, the first shop at the first intersection on the left is our favorite lentil braised noodles. The reason why I like it is that the lentils in the noodles are delicious, and the reason why you like it is that the steamer in the noodles looks good. I call you an anthomaniac, and you call me a foodie. The door of the shop is still supported by a table. In our favorite corner, there is a couple. The boys carefully picked out the fat in the girls' steamer and put the lentils that girls like to eat into the girls' steamer one by one. The girl watched quietly, and the flowers smiled, but I fled the scene like a thief.
"Be careful! Red light! " The boy frowned and stood at the intersection, tugging at the girl's left hand.
The girl spat out her tongue and smiled: "It will turn green soon!" "
"Look!" The girl turned to show off to the boy, and the boy dragged his hand in front without saying anything.
"You have to remember that the stop sign of the software park is in the south of the front village, and you have to go through a shopping mall. The stop sign for returning is on the right side of the road. In case I'm gone ... "The boy told me carefully.
"How can you not be here!" The girl interrupted me with a smile.
"One thousand on a business trip! Can you listen? " The boy frowned.
"yes! In the south of this community, you have to cross a shopping mall ... "The girl repeated word for word.
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"Why! Watch the road! Don't die! " The driver's master stretched out his head and swore.
I nodded and apologized, and I looked up and was in tears. Two hours of careful makeup on my face, like a ghost.
I asked myself: Why can you start a new life in a strange city, but I have to stay in our memories and continue to be tortured by the past?
So I escaped from Xi and came to Beijing, a strange city. I should live better without memories and you.
In order not to worry my parents, I began to join the army nervously to find a job. After work, the buses in Beijing are as crowded as those in Xi. The driver suddenly braked and I galloped forward. When my foot left the ground, I was caught by a hand. I turned around and took my boy to nod to me.
Do you remember the first time we went out to play together? I almost lay prone on the bus, and a dog was gnawing at the ground. You grabbed me hard and said, "Don't stand like this in the future, with your legs shoulder-width apart, so it's not easy to fall."
I said in disgust, "How ugly!"
You smiled and said with a really helpless expression, "Then you pull my arm."
I subconsciously separated my legs from shoulder width, but tears blurred my vision. You live in a city with no memory.
Today is your birthday. I bought a chocolate cake. You said that when you eat chocolate in your mouth, your heart will be less bitter. On your birthday, you hope this is the sweetest moment of the year-there are your favorite cakes and mine. You said that we would all spend our birthdays together in the future. Make a wish together and do a crazy thing together. That year, we went bungee jumping. I was scared to death. You carried me all the way back to school from the scenic spot. ...
Holding my mobile phone in my hand, I pretended to write a paragraph easily: "wake up and look at your birthday today." I wonder what crazy things you will do this year? " Happy birthday ... "
After thinking about it, it was not appropriate. I deleted it and re-entered it: "Hey! Long time no see! Happy birthday ... "
Will we meet again? I thought about it and only deleted four words: "Happy birthday ..."
Finally, I deleted the last four words and your phone number.
If in the past year and 45 days, I have been looking forward to breaking up as a dream, then after so long, the dream should wake up. Now that we are separated, not disturbing may be the last thing I can do for you. Happy birthday!
I will not deliberately choose a flavor of yogurt, nor will I deliberately bypass the dessert shop at the door. Every day from nine to five, I invite several colleagues to go shopping, climb mountains and watch movies on weekends. I thought my life had become orderly.
That day, I got out of the subway and saw the boy in front of me wearing a white plaid shirt just like you. I grabbed my bag and ran for two steps, then suddenly stopped and froze in place. I laughed at myself: what a fool! How did you come to this city? I stared at the back until he disappeared around the corner.
I came to my senses and stepped on those 12 cm high heels to catch the bus that was about to leave. The car passed the corner you just passed, trying to look over, but there was no sign of you.
I looked at the position of my heart with self-deprecation. So, after all this time, you still live here.
I really couldn't bear the pressure at home and took part in a blind date. Boys have little tiger teeth like you, and they have two dimples when they smile, which makes people feel very warm. Half a head taller than you, and elegant as a prince.
I really can't find a reason not to like him, but I can't find a reason to like him.
In the evening, I saw a passage, the author said:
When I want to enter a new relationship after careful consideration, it shows that I am sincere enough, indicating that I have completely bid farewell to the past and I can devote myself to the present relationship. And this is the minimum respect for this relationship and the people who accompany me through the next journey.
I asked myself softly: Is it really goodbye? Maybe from the moment I met him, I already had the answer. It only takes an umbrella to fall in love with you, but it takes 1 159 kilometers to forget you, three years.
There is a new Friend Request in my WeChat list. Just like a Friend Request who can't be an ordinary stranger: Zhang Yijie asks to add you as a friend.
From the first day we broke up, I was expecting you to send me a message telling me that you regretted it. Let's go home. But at that moment, I looked at the familiar avatar with my mobile phone for half an hour. You are fatter and whiter than before. Now, you must be an understanding girl to cook soup with you and accompany you at dusk.
Later, I didn't refuse or accept, and quietly waited for the request to expire. I can't bear to refuse you, just like you gave me such a bad reason to break up. I still firmly believe in your difficulties and agree to let you go. But I don't have the courage to add my good friend back. I'm afraid to see a new girl where I once existed. I dare not stand from the perspective of friends and wish you happiness; I'm sorry ...
You are married. On the invitation forwarded by friends, the bride smiles like a flower and you are full of love. For so many years, I have given up the habit of thinking about you with hazy eyes. But when I saw the photos on the invitation, I couldn't help crying.
The boy who accompanied me for four years and nine years got married! I remember when we were together, I asked you, "If we break up one day, will you marry someone else?"
You patted me on the head with your hand: "I really don't know what you are thinking all day?"
"will it!" I am firm.
You said with a coquetry face, "We won't break up! If one day we really break up, I will wait for you to get married first ... "
Today, you are married! Who said that people who can't make promises just don't love enough!
I wish you a happy wedding! And I can finally put aside my youth to love others from today!