Before, I couldn't get out of the shadow of family of origin and the pain of divorce. I live in depression, fear, inferiority and confusion. I shut myself in my comfort zone and live in my own world. I have been suppressed and denied since I was a child, and I dare not express my emotions normally. I never dare to say "no" in front of my parents. I have become a poor girl, without self, and I don't know who I am. When they call me, what they often say is: "When you are not at home, don't trust anyone, even if what he says is outrageous." So what I learned from them is only fear of the outside world, and I don't like to communicate with others. I was so nervous that I stuttered and became less and less confident. I thought to myself, because of my parents' long-term strictness and emotional neglect, I am very strict with myself and don't allow myself to make any mistakes. This is the expression obstacle caused by parents' "disapproval" when I was a child. Body and mind have been pulling internal friction, and things often grow in my throat, thinking that I have a tumor. The doctor checked that it was plum gas. Now I know it's no use just taking medicine. The medicine I have taken has become poison. If I can't say anything, I'm like a fish in my throat. I hate that I have thoughts in my heart, my body can't move, and my body and mind are seriously lost. No wonder I'm sick.
After studying, I realized that people will get sick if their body and mind are not harmonious. Since I was a child, I dare not express my true thoughts in order to make people around me happy. My parents told me that only by obeying can I get praise and love. School education told me that if I get high marks, I can succeed, but no one told me how to get the qualification to make myself happy. My sense of self-worth and deserve is very low.
? I haven't got over the pain of divorce, and my parents are forcing me to have a blind date. I am extremely dissatisfied with my life. I don't want to live like this. I have always believed that I want to be better. After a wonderful performance, I broke through the most touching part of my class. My hands and feet are pulled forward and I can't move forward. I can't get rid of it if I struggle hard. It's like my life of bondage and depression. At that moment, the beast in my body for decades rushed out and broke out completely. I burst into tears. It is free and unrestrained, with a sky and a vast sea where birds can fly. I know I can't let my parents arrange my birth. I clearly know that if I don't cure myself and grow up after the divorce, I will not be happy, or even worse, so I will be irresponsible to myself and the other party.
? I found myself lost for half my life and saw the frightened child inside. She hid in the corner and cried for a long time. I saw her grievance and helplessness. I pulled him up, hugged him well, faced her parents with her, bravely said "no" and told them that since she could not live a happy life, she might as well let herself go, achieve herself and grow up. Now they will never interfere.
My vitality has improved, my energy has gone up, my heart is happy, I am bright, I have never made friends, and I began to make friends. I am full of curiosity about nature. Clouds, sun, wind, flowers and trees on the ground can all be cured. I can't move my feet when I see beautiful flowers. It turns out that I am as eager to bloom as they are, eager to be the protagonist of my own world. I am alive, my life dimension has been greatly improved, and I have healed many fragments unconsciously. Everything is so beautiful. My WeChat name used to be that the sky is always blue. Seventh Sister said that I long for blue, and blue shows my sky. Yes, now I am sky blue. I like myself more and more. I always have a cold and serious face. I don't know when to become soft and relaxed. I often giggle unconsciously. I know exactly what kind of person I want to be and what kind of life I want to live!
? And my fleshy hands. I remember when I was a child, my neighbor praised me for my fleshy hands. My mother said, All thumbs! Stupid hands! Work is no good! Since then, this sentence has deeply entered my subconscious. I often feel stupid and can't do my work well. Then I'll do sales with my mouth. I'm hard to sell and I'm not eloquent. My throat is often full of foreign bodies. I have been in sales for several years. I don't know what else to do. I am particularly confused!
? When I was touched by an accidental opportunity, I was very excited. I had a feeling that "this is what I have been looking for", so I tried to spend money to experience and learn. I didn't want to make money at that time, but I only knew that I could release my emotions and heal my body. Unexpectedly, I was found by Qi Jie in the wonderful hand-playing exam until everyone said that I had a gift in my hand, which was different from others' hands. I can't help feeling that my mother almost buried my talent. In his eyes, my strengths are shortcomings, and my shortcomings are even more shortcomings. Anyway, I'm useless. I have been afraid to talk back to him since I was a child. He really said "sorry" to me. I suddenly let go and cried for a long time. ...
When I beat the boxes with my hands and felt their backs as hard as steel plates, I felt very distressed. I feel that such a thin body has suffered so much. I want to do my best to help them tide over the difficulties. Some of them vomited, some cried and some said things they were afraid to say. I am both heavy and gratified. I could have helped them. I could have cured them with my hands. I was valuable. It turned out that after I got out of bed, we hugged and cried. Our love is flowing, and it has taken root in my heart. I'm no longer afraid of excluding others. I take the initiative to link with others, and others give me back. I love giving out red envelopes. Thank me. I am also the reward of love.
As a teaching assistant and technical director, there is an experience class in the class. Everyone closed their eyes and found the hands of the children next to them. Her hand was pulled and finally released. She instantly felt abandoned by others, and continued to close her eyes and reach out to find someone else's hand. I saw her as helpless as a lost child. I walked up to her, held her hand, held it tightly and gave her strength. At that moment, I was moved by myself! I thought of the card "Children of God", and I personally sent her from the barren and cold world to green hope. On the bright side, she cries when I cry. At that moment, I finally realized how great and proud I was as a therapist, and the meaning that this profession gave me life!
It turns out that love has sprouted in my heart when I have someone else in my eyes and open my heart to pay. When I water my fears with love, my fears will naturally melt and disappear. More and more love, more and more open hearts, more and more love returned by the universe, and life enters the downstream!
? As a result of the cure, wisdom was born in my heart and I had a new understanding of life. My eyes are no longer only on others, how to treat me and how to help others. My eyes are no longer just persistent anxiety about the past and the future, but also cherish the present moment.
? So if you don't have money now, only cure yourself, and money will come soon. If you are sick now, just feel your own needs and listen to your inner voice, and your illness will get better soon. There is nothing wrong with everything, but we repeat the wrong cognition and refuse to let go, so we can't get what you want. When you follow the path of the universe and your heart, everything will be relaxed and relaxed. The flowing universe is stronger than you, and it will take you where you want to go.
Qi Jie said that when choosing a career, you should choose what you are good at, what you love, what is meaningful and what can create value for society. I am honored that I have chosen the profession of therapists. As I grow older, this profession becomes more and more valuable. Then I will use my hands to achieve myself, help my sisters in need, and spread chakra resonance psychotherapy with everyone to realize the mission of bringing healing into every family.
I have many shortcomings, but Qi Jie can always find the advantages behind my shortcomings with her eyes. Thanks to Sister Qi for letting me find my talented hand and providing such a good platform to put me in the right position and make me glow!
? I swear to take chakra resonance psychosomatic therapy as my career and mission for the rest of my life and achieve myself and others!
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